Bipolar check in #45

Nammu · Mar 28, 2020 at 09:19 PM

Here's number 45

~Christina · Mar 28, 2020 at 09:21 PM

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BeyondtheRainbow · Mar 28, 2020 at 09:25 PM

I put up a link and requested the mods close the thread.

BeyondtheRainbow · Mar 28, 2020 at 09:41 PM

So if anyone is wondering I finished my elimination diet a few days ago. Apparently I am fine even with milk (which I thought impossible) although I don't think I'll drink as much of it as I used to because too much does upset my stomach somewhat. But I can have all the cheese I want as far as I can tell and a glass or two or some on cereal is fine.

I guess this just reset my system. I guess things must have been irritated in there and not eating anything for so long was the cure.

So glad it was worth it. The whole thing started 9 months ago today.

Nammu · Mar 28, 2020 at 10:54 PM

I really admire your dedication to sticking with that for 9 months. No way could I give up cheese for that long!

VerMOZZica · Mar 28, 2020 at 10:59 PM

Today I got some cleaning done. Then Took a shower and talked to my big sis on the phone. After that I watched the evening news and honestly it frightens me. We have to go grocery shopping tomorrow and that makes me really anxious.

I hope you are having a pleasant weekend and I hope you are all coping well with this situation.

BeyondtheRainbow · Mar 28, 2020 at 11:04 PM

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Originally Posted by Nammu

I really admire your dedication to sticking with that for 9 months. No way could I give up cheese for that long!

I didn't give it all up that long.

I was eating things but getting sick most of the time. I gave up food except rice and a few meats Jan. 3 so just about 3 months. I have eaten 2 blocks of cheese in the 3.5 weeks I've been on social distancing inside my house.

I wish I'd ordered more when we had groceries delivered.

I've had frozen pizza but am really looking forward to the end of the virus and real pizza from a pizza place. That's about my only goal now with the diet and that just is going to be a while. We aren't eating food prepared by others right now.

I just wish that I'd come out of this and been able to have all the fresh produce I want. Instead I eat what we have and it may not be so good for my elevated glucose levels in my last test. But you do what you can do. And at least I won't be living on white rice like last time I was tested.

NOS-NOS · Mar 29, 2020 at 12:45 AM

Drank a little tonight, no depression though. Just took my meds, it will be sleepy time soon. Today was ok, I did have a bout with depression earlier. I have to talk to my pdoc about maybe raising my antidepressant or changing it.

bpcyclist · Mar 29, 2020 at 01:44 AM

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Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

So if anyone is wondering I finished my elimination diet a few days ago. Apparently I am fine even with milk (which I thought impossible) although I don't think I'll drink as much of it as I used to because too much does upset my stomach somewhat. But I can have all the cheese I want as far as I can tell and a glass or two or some on cereal is fine.

I guess this just reset my system. I guess things must have been irritated in there and not eating anything for so long was the cure.

So glad it was worth it. The whole thing started 9 months ago today.

Cannot believe you did that!! Awesome job!!!!

BeyondtheRainbow · Mar 29, 2020 at 04:39 AM

Clarification: I made the diet sound like it went on for 9 months. It was only 3; I just was sick starting 9 months ago. I just wanted to correct this and not sound sound like a drama queen and my time to edit ended while I was sleeping.

Sorry everyone.

scatterbrained04 · Mar 29, 2020 at 04:59 AM

Trying to my best to deal with this whole pandemic situation. My anxiety has been pretty bad. Periodically bursting into tears. Currently I am still working, as I work in healthcare. Fortunately I work in a speciality where people tend to cancel their appointment if they're sick lol. I'm scared to go to work though, but also scared to not work and not get paid. I feel physically ill from anxiety every day while I'm at work. Keep spacing out, almost like how I've experienced derealization but not quite. We are seeing a very small amount of patients. I have had to cut all our employee's hours. Everyone in our practice have taken a pay decrease. Just trying to float this out. At least we are doing our part to keep our patients out of the ER by staying open.

I have to go to the grocery store today to get a few things. I'm anxious about it. I will go this morning when they open. I'd rather stay home. Keeping my son home. I will not allow him to go places with me.

Mar 29, 2020 at 05:44 AM

doing good so far today.

clocks went back yesterday, and thankfully all the clocks I have (alexa, computer, tv,) do it by themselves

still struggling with sleep but for me that's neither here or their now

Mar 29, 2020 at 06:58 AM

@BeyondtheRainbow: Congratulations! Three months is still a long time. Glad it worked out. You show a lot of pluck!

Mar 29, 2020 at 07:24 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

Clarification: I made the diet sound like it went on for 9 months. It was only 3; I just was sick starting 9 months ago. I just wanted to correct this and not sound sound like a drama queen and my time to edit ended while I was sleeping.

Sorry everyone.

You did nothing wrong. There is no need to apologize..

Mar 29, 2020 at 07:52 AM

I slept from 12am until 7:30am with minimal waking up. I did wake up like 2 or 3 times last night, but not like before where I was waking up every hour or so.

I feel pretty damn good right now. I'm getting stuff done around the apartment!

I have to take out the trash, but I'm scared to touch the handles to open the dumpster! Maybe I will use a plastic bag to avoid contracting coronavirus. I suppose that could work, yes?

I mostly have a bunch of boxes, either from food (e.g., mac & cheese box) or stuff I ordered off the internet a while back. They need to be taken out!! But I suppose it'll be good to just get it over with and get some fresh air. Meh.

Wild Coyote · Mar 29, 2020 at 08:31 AM

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Originally Posted by scatterbrained04

Trying to my best to deal with this whole pandemic situation. My anxiety has been pretty bad. Periodically bursting into tears. Currently I am still working, as I work in healthcare. Fortunately I work in a speciality where people tend to cancel their appointment if they're sick lol. I'm scared to go to work though, but also scared to not work and not get paid. I feel physically ill from anxiety every day while I'm at work. Keep spacing out, almost like how I've experienced derealization but not quite. We are seeing a very small amount of patients. I have had to cut all our employee's hours. Everyone in our practice have taken a pay decrease. Just trying to float this out. At least we are doing our part to keep our patients out of the ER by staying open.

I have to go to the grocery store today to get a few things. I'm anxious about it. I will go this morning when they open. I'd rather stay home. Keeping my son home. I will not allow him to go places with me.

Hi!

I have no idea as to how people working in health care are continuing so courageous. I totally respect all you are doing to help patients and helping to take some stress off of the ER as well.

the episodes of derealization types of experiences aren't surprising considering the overwhelming degree of stress involved. Are you able to ground yourself? There are some grounding exercises on youtube if interested.

It's often even more stressful for the (practice manager?) management.

I imagine continuing to work in heath care at this time might require using every coping skill ever learned?

I am sorry you are going through this.

I want to tell you you are a hero in many ways and I thank you for your courage and your dedication. I hope you and your son are safe and continue healthy!

We are here for you!
With Love and Admiration

Wild Coyote · Mar 29, 2020 at 08:32 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

I slept from 12am until 7:30am with minimal waking up. I did wake up like 2 or 3 times last night, but not like before where I was waking up every hour or so.

I feel pretty damn good right now. I'm getting stuff done around the apartment!

I have to take out the trash, but I'm scared to touch the handles to open the dumpster! Maybe I will use a plastic bag to avoid contracting coronavirus. I suppose that could work, yes?

I mostly have a bunch of boxes, either from food (e.g., mac & cheese box) or stuff I ordered off the internet a while back. They need to be taken out!! But I suppose it'll be good to just get it over with and get some fresh air. Meh.

Glad you have slept!

Mar 29, 2020 at 10:09 AM

I realized last night that I have addictive tendencies. By no means am I a hardcore drug addict, and I'm not really feeling up to going into details, but it is something I need to work on.
Also have a growth on my lip that's bothering me. I see my primary in about a month so hopefully he'll be able to do something about it. It bleeds a lot if I play with it.
Am having some "issues" with my med combo, but if I stick to it the way my doc says to and add an Ativan here or there I'm mostly stable so I guess I shouldn't complain.
I have some things I need to resolve because I'm just coming out or at least having a break from mania and made some mistakes with some people.
I feel like a bad person.

fern46 · Mar 29, 2020 at 10:30 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by spikes

I realized last night that I have addictive tendencies. By no means am I a hardcore drug addict, and I'm not really feeling up to going into details, but it is something I need to work on.
Also have a growth on my lip that's bothering me. I see my primary in about a month so hopefully he'll be able to do something about it. It bleeds a lot if I play with it.
Am having some "issues" with my med combo, but if I stick to it the way my doc says to and add an Ativan here or there I'm mostly stable so I guess I shouldn't complain.
I have some things I need to resolve because I'm just coming out or at least having a break from mania and made some mistakes with some people.
I feel like a bad person.

I don't believe in bad people. I believe we can judge our choices as bad and a bad choice might be not reflecting on your actions or not being open to learning from them. Instead, you seem like you want to make some changes.

Everyone's opinion is different and valid, but from where I stand it sounds like you're considering making better choices for yourself in the future. I see that as good.

Wild Coyote · Mar 29, 2020 at 10:32 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by spikes

I realized last night that I have addictive tendencies. By no means am I a hardcore drug addict, and I'm not really feeling up to going into details, but it is something I need to work on.
Also have a growth on my lip that's bothering me. I see my primary in about a month so hopefully he'll be able to do something about it. It bleeds a lot if I play with it.
Am having some "issues" with my med combo, but if I stick to it the way my doc says to and add an Ativan here or there I'm mostly stable so I guess I shouldn't complain.
I have some things I need to resolve because I'm just coming out or at least having a break from mania and made some mistakes with some people.
I feel like a bad person.

HI spikes!

Many people, likely most people, have difficulty with self-compassion.
We don't grow up being taught this skill.

Here's a link you may want to explore. There are additional videos on youtube on this topic. This is Kristen Neff. Another respected speaker on this topic is Brene Brown.

Kristin Neff:

YouTube

Be kind to yourself!

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Nammu Crone Member Since May 2010 Location: Some where between my inner mind and the solar system. Posts: 71,285 (SuperPoster!) 13 53.6k hugs given	Mar 28, 2020 at 09:19 PM #1 Here's number 45 __________________ *Nammu* …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann

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BeyondtheRainbow Wise Elder Member Since Apr 2015 Location: US Posts: 9,226 (SuperPoster!) 9 9,383 hugs given	Mar 28, 2020 at 09:25 PM #3 I put up a link and requested the mods close the thread. __________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD. Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1700 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 1.5 mg clonazepam., 50 mg Seroquel

Nammu Crone Member Since May 2010 Location: Some where between my inner mind and the solar system. Posts: 71,285 (SuperPoster!) 13 53.6k hugs given	Mar 28, 2020 at 10:54 PM #5 I really admire your dedication to sticking with that for 9 months. No way could I give up cheese for that long! __________________ *Nammu* …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann

VerMOZZica Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Nov 2009 Location: This Unhappy Planet Posts: 23,808 (SuperPoster!) 14 1,707 hugs given	Mar 28, 2020 at 10:59 PM #6 Today I got some cleaning done. Then Took a shower and talked to my big sis on the phone. After that I watched the evening news and honestly it frightens me. We have to go grocery shopping tomorrow and that makes me really anxious. I hope you are having a pleasant weekend and I hope you are all coping well with this situation. __________________

NOS-NOS Member Member Since Sep 2012 Location: New York Posts: 235 11 16 hugs given	Mar 29, 2020 at 12:45 AM #8 Drank a little tonight, no depression though. Just took my meds, it will be sleepy time soon. Today was ok, I did have a bout with depression earlier. I have to talk to my pdoc about maybe raising my antidepressant or changing it.

Anonymous32451 Guest Posts: n/a	Mar 29, 2020 at 05:44 AM #12 doing good so far today. clocks went back yesterday, and thankfully all the clocks I have (alexa, computer, tv,) do it by themselves still struggling with sleep but for me that's neither here or their now

Anonymous41462 Guest Posts: n/a	Mar 29, 2020 at 06:58 AM #13 @BeyondtheRainbow: Congratulations! Three months is still a long time. Glad it worked out. You show a lot of pluck!