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#881
I am feeling pretty low right now. I woke up feeling like garbage. I slept 10 or 11 hours last night.
Don't want to do my pdoc appt. I thought it was at 9:45am, but it is actually at 10:45am now. But I think I am in for a huge overhaul. |
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#882
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I thank you for trying to reassure me on the other topic, but history has examples where such assumptions didn't yield expected results. I hope they will. Goodness! I hope so, for the sake of our country. For the sake of the world. I will take some prn Seroquel. I am just beside myself! |
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There is a time and a place for both certainly. We cannot simply turn a blind eye and cut ourselves off and shut off our empathy, but we can always remember the way home when our hearts and minds feel pulled in various directions. The root of your heart always stays home. It is unconditional and you are always accepted there. You can feel your way back even in crisis. The more and more we return to the heart, the more and more we carry the essence of it instead of fear into our interactions with others. Change that stems from this heart centered place is lasting. I think you are amazingly brave and your heart is tremendous. I feel there is a home for you no matter where you land. |
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Respect and kind thoughts to ALL. FWIW it’s worth I have usually managed to skip those posts but I was very triggered last night and while my triggers belong to me, sometimes I feel a sense of injustice. Or something. And it increases my
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Hugs and much respect to you blue. I hope you feel better soon. I’ve been feeling pretty down (understatement) lately too ... I love the idea of an overhaul but not sure what that would be for a bear __________________ |
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__________________ When I was a kid, my parents moved a lot, but I always found them--Rodney Dangerfield |
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But, history has very clearly shown us that all authoritarians ultimately fail. The Japanese Empire. Hitler. Stalin. Pol Pot. I could go on all week. Iran and Saudi Arabia? They will totally and absolutel fail. It is just a matter of time. Human being thirst for freedom of faith and freedom of speech/the press. They will not be denied. Trump and his totalitarian sycophants and pathetic suckups will be destroyed--either peacefully or not remotely peacefully. I hope for the former. And as I have said before, I am a lifelong Republican. Trump is certainly no Republican. He is evil in his moral core. "The true essence of a dictatorship is in fact not its regularity but its unpredictability and caprice; those who live under it must never be able to relax, must never be quite sure if they have followed the rules correctly or not," Christopher Hitchens. Prayers for the United States of America. If he wins, I do believe there will be a civil war. Hope I am wrong. __________________ When I was a kid, my parents moved a lot, but I always found them--Rodney Dangerfield |
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Maybe it will help things move along, blue. Hope you have a nice visit with him. And still hope you can find a new pdoc.
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Thanks BirdDancer, Fuzzy, and bpcyclist
I was prescribed Trileptal, 2x a day. I hope I do not develop any negative side effects from it, but knowing me, I probably will. If the Trileptal works, our plan is to wean off the lamictal. I said a flat out "NO" to lithium, though. I would like to use that as a LAST resort. Looks like my AP is staying the same though, so idk if that is good or not. |
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I'll be going back to partial hospital to try clozapine, intake is this upcoming wednesday
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Thing is, even when I was on 200mg of XR for a month (which is admittedly still a relatively small dose), I was still completely and totally wiped out. I was falling asleep driving to work, and I felt like I didn’t really “wake up” until like 1pm, which was well over half of my work day. Plus, I’m eating like five meals a day now. I’m so hungry. I mean, I’m also craving snacks which is a sign of pms for me (I’m all screwed up because of high prolactin, thanks haldol). So I don’t know where one begins and the other ends. But the hunger I attribute to seroquel, because with pms I’m not usually hungry, I just feel like eating. I hate it. Sigh. I don’t really like my IOP pdoc. He doesn’t seem to take me seriously, plus he doesn’t know my history so he could just think I’m being difficult when I tell him that most medications haven’t worked for me. I don’t know. I talk to him next week sometime. __________________ Of course it is happening inside your head. But why on earth should that mean that it is not real? -Albus Dumbledore That’s life. If nothing else, that is life. It’s real. Sometimes it f—-ing hurts. But it’s sort of all we have. -Garden State |
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#896
So, still no access to pharmacy. Protesting has forced most stores to close down. These are crazy times I tell ya! *facepalms
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I am sorry . in “these times” I personally feel that it is preferable if we try to be supportive to all... but “these times” is not my “forte” as the step witch so kindly pointed out
No acknowledgement whatsoever is desired or required for this post. I have been..literally... surviving from day to day. And it is MY stupid fault for being a Highly Allergic Individual and a survivor who wishes she was a thriver but no idea of how to “achieve” that...of severe abuse and neglect which she Should never have let herself be hurt or “damaged” by .... ever. Why. Why is fuzzy too fuzzy for this world and maybe in this moment is “not quite sane” What is that? I do not know. “up to Geordy land. (sp) I liked that shrink damn it. (knopfler) Toiled for a pittance and a black load How the young and old.... Sorry if this is triggering not my intent. It’s what is playing randomly. I must NOT engage with papa bear I am “safe” Regards Fuzzy 5.15 am __________________ |
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He said that “my head is not very happy”
And it is MY Fault For crying out loud fuzzy... get over being fuzzy __________________ |
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Oops. Yeah. Sorry about all of that. I have been seriously considering asking a GP for lamictal to try to “achieve” more stability. But I Am very worried about the lamictal rash. So for now I feel it is safer to be “independent of the “services” which is Strongly Encouraged in these parts. And “quite frankly” I am being very polite and reasonable in this post.
I wish it was just that there was one or two not so great apples In Real Life ..... I have also thought of moving house or even country. But obviously that is even less of an option than “usual” “in these times” which I guess some might previously have accused me of being in denial of. IRL. If I had spoken to them. But I do not. Like another person I have found it more helpful not to trust them. Or even speak to them at all ...But that could change. Not sure how but maybe. __________________ |
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