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Hi everyone. I’m new here. I’ve been living with bipolar for almost 20 years and I’ve been treated and stable for around 15 years. I have a great husband and two small kids. I’ve been working in my career (education field) for around 10 years. Life was becoming more enriched as years went on, however, I felt myself growing further apart from my husband over their years due to a conflict of interest. He also had been lying about drugs, unbeknownst to me. We are both two upper class hard working citizens and I just didn’t think he’d lie to me like he did. He had a lot of anger issues, the drugs (marijuana and nicotine) making it harder for him to cope and more extreme outbursts. Eventually, last summer I wanted to end the marriage. Since then he completely changed his ways. He’s been honest and working on himself like he’s never done before. Still, I felt distant and focused on my own career as a teacher and my upcoming internship in becoming a principal.
During around November I broke my foot and was out of work on medical leave for over a month. Things started to go downhill for me then. When I was about to return to work, I found that my assignment was changed and I was no longer teaching the students whom I’ve had and committed to earlier in the year. I got depressed and was feeling quite stressed and down. My entire team at work was changed, and I felt my life was taken away from me. Yet I tried to stay positive and keep on keepin on. A coworker friend reached out to me and asked if I wanted to meet for a drink or two. I welcomed it and we went out to catch up. We maybe had one too many drinks and he reached over and touched my arm and told me he liked me. I felt he crossed a boundary so later that week I texted him to gently remind him that he needs to stay in his lane and not cross boundaries. He wanted to know if I’d feel different if I wasn’t married. I lied and said yes not to hurt his feelings. He came to visit me in my classroom a week or two later with a gift and suggested we go out on a date. I thought he was crazy and told me husband. He asked if I wanted to get a drink again a couple weeks later. This is me playing with fire but also feeling confident in my integrity and commitment to my husband. I also like to drink and I’m looking for a fun time. And this guy was my friend, after all, whom I’ve always had a strong connection with. And my husband works long hours and it was a nice break to get a quick drink before going home and resuming the demanding work of making dinner and putting the kids to bed. We met a few times after that, and I don’t know how it happened but one of the times we ended up in his car talking and listening to music after one of our drinks. That’s when it started. He tried to kiss me and I pulled away and said no. He was so hurt and it crushed me. So I climbed on top of him and let it happen. We just kissed for the record, but it was intense. Well we started texting every day, trying to see each other one or two times a week. We tried to break up a few times, realizing it was wrong but always ending back together. After a month of this, I told him I loved him and he returned the words. Suddenly we wanted to see each other every day. We couldn’t go very long without seeing each other and I’d text him good morning when I woke up and goodnight before bed. Our spouses didn’t suspect anything. We met up in our cars and hung out for a couple hours here and there when we could. We were infatuated and started discussing maybe being together. I had to really question if this is what I truly wanted. I talked to my therapist in great detail and she is not fond of my current husband’s behaviors. I finally felt connected to someone and I loved someone more deeply than I’ve ever loved anyone before. I took the Meyer Briggs personality test (I’m INFJ) and I google who I was most compatible with, and it was my affair partner. I also google which personality I least got along with, and it was my husband. Still, I had a family. Yet I wasn’t doing well with my current husband. I’m somewhat of a faithful person, ok I’m a very faithful person, and I was afraid of eternal damnation and that I was truly heading down the wrong path. Although my therapist encouraged me that it’s better to amicably separate from an unhealthy relationship and show my children what a healthy relationship does in fact look like with someone else. This is not to say with my affair partner per say, but just in general. Anyway, after becoming obsessed with Near death experiences and reading the Bible I decided I needed to at the very least end my affair and tell my husband what happened. Also it is fair to say that all we ever did was kiss. I did not want to go further than that, ironically trying to uphold some sense of self worth, although it was very very hard to do that. We were always all over each other and so emotionally connected. This went on for 3 months. So I broke it off a couple weeks ago and told my husband. I didn’t give many details at all, but I did say enough. That we kissed and saw each other a few times a week. He wanted to know how many times we kissed and I said every time I saw him... He was crushed. That night was one of the worst nights in my life. I was devastated too and felt like I failed our marriage. Since than my husband is coming to terms with it and is grateful I told him. He doesn’t know this guy but he wants to threaten to tell his wife should he ever contact me again. My husband and I are working on our relationship. We are both trying harder than ever. In a way it’s been somewhat of a blessing. I finally feel like my husband sees me and values me more than he has. This was two weeks ago. All I can think about is the other guy. I think about him constantly all day every day. I yearn for him and it’s quite physical. I miss us and the way I felt and the connection we had. I loved him more than I ever loved anyone. Truly loved him and his soul unconditionally. He was my baby. I miss him so incredibly much. I’ve been stable having BP1 but between this and corona stay at home order, I’m going stir crazy. A side of me wants to separate from my husband, it seems I’ll never have the connection I want with him even though we are desperately trying. And my thoughts are so consumed. My husband works 60+ hours a week and is never around. I feel broken, I feel like a failure, I feel lost and confused. My therapist says I’m trying to do what is ‘right’ but my feelings are not aligned with my logic. I need support more than ever. I feel like a monster. I don’t want to stay in the dark. |
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You cant justify your infidelity by explaining what it is your husband doesnt do or make excuses about why its ok for you to see another man. If you do not like that way things are with your husband you need to end it with him before getting into a infatuated relationship with anyone. Its the right thing to do. I want to be clear that I do not think you are a monster or terrible person. I am not judging you. People have affairs all the time for many reasons but the bottom line is its not the right thing to do and if your husband was doing what you do you would be devastated. __________________ "I carried a watermelon?" President of the no F's given society. |
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Work affairs are dangerous. It could cost you your job. And you are teachers in the same building, just wait when students find out. Ouch. Not worth it. And if his wife finds out she might come after you, you’ve no idea what kind of person she is.
I’d not base my personal life decisions on what I find on google. “If it’s on the internet it must be true”. Nah I’d also watch amount of alcohol, most of your affair events happened after you were drinking and if you are on meds it’s possibly mixing with it clouding your judgement. It sounds that you are experiencing infatuation. I’d speak to your doctor about danger of mixing alcohol with meds and speak to your therapist about all of this Oh I really doubt you love this guy you drink and kiss in a car more than anyone. It’s unconditional? Nah, It doesn’t work this way . I hope you continue working with therapist/doctor and maybe see couples therapist with your husband if you want to save your marriage. Or if you want to end it. Both are ok options. Affairs don’t end well |
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Something must be bothering you for you to post here about your affair. I would find out the source of your angst. Is it really your affair or just some underlying issue that is really bothering you? I feel that if your conscience is bothering you about having an affair, then may be it is time to step back and realize you are hurting a lot of people, including yourself. I understand you are not happy with your husband now but what made you marry him then? You must have thought he was the one for you before. I would think about this seriously before you ditch him. Your longing for this other man is mostly physical and the attraction to the unattainable forbidden fruit. I see how your illness can be playing a role in all of this- the impulsivity, the lack of moral judgment, etc. Please talk to your therapist or find one to sort out your situation. I find your post difficult to read but can relate because I am also ill with a similar disorder. Please don't throw away your husband for a sordid affair that only gratified your impulses and may be your hypersexual appetite. I feel you are wasting your energy and time with this other man. Your affair sounds rather impulsive and feeding a desire for the illicit. Please remember that you should not put yourself in such a situation again where a man can take advantage of you. I've been there too and know I allowed some men to take advantage of me and realized this later. This is due to my poor judgment also like yours. I would work things out with your husband and hope that he forgives you if he finds out. If I were you, I would be grateful for your situation- good career, marriage, etc, and work on controlling your impulses and desires by talking to your therapist about these issues and trying to solve them with positive solutions and behavior. Best wishes!
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I wasn't sure what to contribute at first, but after bpforever1 mentioned perhaps consulting with an another therapist, that was what I decided to second. Your current therapist seems to have a strong opinion in one direction. Not that she isn't necessarily right, but I still think another perspective could be good. If you really like your current therapist, you could ask her if she reminds you temporarily seeking another perspective. Just a thought.
Anyway, it sounds to me that you shouldn't be too hard on yourself about this. To my perspective, you showed great restraint. However, if you eventually conclude that your marriage is no longer beneficial, I would suggest a trial separation for that reason first. Not primarily for the sake of further pursuing the affair. I wonder if your affair has been a result of hypomania or not. It is hard to have insight into that, sometimes. |
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I'm not sure how you could be in love with someone you meet illicitly in a car for a few hours. You haven't spent extensive time with him or lived with him the way you do with your husband. You've never had to go through hard times or fight with him. So it feels great, but it is more likely infatuation than love.
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Thank you @bpforever1. I appreciate you response. My husband and I believe that he may be on the spectrum. There is no emotional connection, especially after having children. I was friends with the other guy for years before the affair. I am seeking out that emotional connection with someone.. companionship. I feel alone and disconnected to my husband. His symptoms worsened after having children 7 years ago and he is not empathetic and obsessively task oriented. He's also physically abusive. I've been trying to get out of my marriage for some time, but don't want to leave him.
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Are you safe? You said your husband is physically abusive.
Is he abusive to you or children too? Could you get law enforcement involved? I think having an affair might be even more dangerous under these circumstances as he might become violent over this affair and possibly violent towards your affair partner too. Is there any way you can take children and leave? Go stay with some family? You might be in danger |
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At this point in your affair, you are still in stars-in-the-eyes, everything's-great mode. With your husband, I don't know how long you've been married, but the stars-in-the-eyes stage goes away. Its natural for it to do so. Marriage is hard work sometimes. New relationships are all sunshine and kittens. Before you do something you will regret down the road, stop and really think about what you're doing. You said your husband is abusive, well maybe you aught to divorce him. But don't do it thinking "I can be with my one true love!" because its not going to work out that way. With your husband out of the picture, your new man may very well get scared and run away now that you'd be available.
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Hello BlueSkyGirl,
Welcome to the BP Forum at PC! I hope you will find the information and the support you may be seeking. That said, I feel you are quite courageous in sharing your current situation. It sounds like there is a lot of pain involved and for everyone involved. The best you can do is to move forward with the very best of intentions for everyone in your family. I don't mean you should have ill intentions for your friend. I think it is possible to have everyone's best interest in mind. There really is not time to beat yourself up and/or to stall in determining just what is best for you and for your children. You have some major and some very meaningful work to do. In order to take some time to discern how to move forward with best intentions, it might be helpful to step back from your affair. If I was in your situation and was gifted with the amount of insight you have right now. I think I would have to stop, completely, and consider everyone involved. I would have to put the welfare of my children first, as they depend upon the adults around them to do what is in their best interest. You do mention distance from your husband due to "conflict of interest," abuse and emotional distance, if I recall correctly. I am most concerned about any "abuse." It's healthiest for us to learn how to safely end abuse in our lives. It is critical that your young children do not have any exposure to abuse. I suggest you first seek some contact with someone trained in abuse in order to get an objective viewpoint on the severity and the type of abuse you are enduring, as well as to assist you in considering your options. I have found that even an anonymous chat with someone trained in abuse can be an eye-opening experience . Some of these organizations can support you and can help you to devise a plan to protect you and your children if you fear for your welfare and safety . I do not know your location, so I am suggesting: National Domestic Violence Hotline Get Help | The National Domestic Violence Hotline Online chat available on the site. Telephone: 1-800-799-7233 The abuse issue needs immediate attention. I usually think it's critical to see a couple's therapist; however, there is potentially a complication when any abuse is involved. Many therapists will not see anyone being abused, together, with the alleged abuser.* I would likely then suggest connecting with a therapist on one's own. I see you are already involved with a therapist. I have no reason to think you need a different one, as long as you feel she is truly helping you to work your way through your confusion. *Sometimes, once the abuse has been thoroughly evaluated and people are completely safe, and after the abuser has completed some form of awareness/educational course on abuse (which often does not change their behaviors for very long, but can do so/can make a difference), some therapists will agree to meet with both parties. I was shocked when I had first learned more about abuse. I'd first learned when seeing this wheel, years ago: Abuse Defined | The National Domestic Violence Hotline (This is the Duluth Model Power and Control Wheel) A brief video explanation of each spoke in the wheel is available here: Understanding the Power and Control Wheel - Domestic Abuse Intervention Programs I hope you will be able to reserve your time and your energy to gain support and to sort out how to safely proceed -- as you move toward making some very big decisions about the future of your family. Don't hurry through any of this, beyond making sure everyone is safe. Many people I talk with so often say they wish they did not rush through their decisions regarding divorce. Some people think a divorce takes place within 6 months, whether or not a couple is ready to move forward with a divorce. This is a myth. Couples can take as long as they need in order to be sure they are making the best move for all concerned. I am hoping for the highest good for everyone involved. Love and Prayers for You and Yours ~ __________________ May we each fully claim the courage to live from our hearts, to allow Love, Faith and Hope to enLighten our paths. |
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How the heck did you keep it to "just kissing"?
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If he is physically abusive to your young children, you need to call police and child protective services immediately, and you might need take your children and proceed to domestic abuse shelter right now. I see that you already had CPS in your home. Why aren’t you pressing charges? Are you afraid of him? Call domestic abuse hot line Get Help | The National Domestic Violence Hotline Please seek help for your children. Is there a family member who could take them for now? Where are your children when you drink with that man? Are they alone with a physically abusive father? I’d say affair is the least of everyone’s troubles here Where do you live? We can locate resources for you |
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Hi @BlueSkyGirl!
Your posts evoked a strong emotional response in me for a number of reasons. First, how I interpret it, you are incredibly lonely and being lonely next to somebody actually feels loneli-ER than being actually alone or a single mom. Second, you sound naive for the professional position you are in - a person aspiring to be a school principal would be expected to know that the MB inventory is bogus (as has been pointed out before in this thread). But there is another way to interpret those MB/Google results - it is not that they are true (they have no basis in evidence), but your endorsing them means that they tell you what you want to hear. To given you an example, as a teen I would throw a coin when I faced a dilemma. It is not that I did what the coin toss "advised", but I listened to my internal reaction to how the coin landed. That is a perfectly sane way to use all sorts of predictions, divinations, etc. that are not evidence-based (MB not anymore so than coin tossing) but that are tools to get through to how we really feel. So you, at your current stage in life, want to be with the coworker and not with the husband. But going back to your sounding unexpectedly naive - that is endearing and ultimately portrays the same - loneliness and feeling betrayed by the leadership at school who pulled the rug under you and took away the very thing that allowed you to run away from loneliness and problems at home. Three, you are actually quite correct in labeling the affair at this stage infatuation, but at the same time you mentioned love on more than one occasion. It is too early to speak of love, but infatuation it is. Four, that you did not go beyond kissing might mean that you are subconsciously holding onto this delightful and adrenaline-rich stage of infatuation - kisses on the brink of more might actually be far more intense than intercourse. So I do not think it is your willpower or "morals" at play - it is your being in love, not with the man, but with the exhilarating that is such a potent antidote to the dread you face at home, with an emotionally distant (or incapable) husband, demanding kids etc. You report feeling that making dinner and putting the kids to sleep feel like work, not joy, so there is - with the job situation after you broke your leg - nothing to bring you job except for that exhiliration. Five, the husband's reaction - telling the coworker's wife - seems to be in line with his aggressive traits. It is rather scary. To sum up, as you are affluent and would be able to survive on your own and as your husband seems to endanger your children, the best bet seems to be an amicable, speedy, and decisive divorce. After the dust settles, you might want to reconsider the relationship with the coworker, but by then you might have sobered up and would no longer see him through a happily distorted lens. Whatever you do, know that your courage in opening up to strangers has not gone unnoticed and nor has your ability to convey the emotional dread of your day-by-day life. __________________ Bipolar I w/Psychotic features Zyprexa Zydis 5 mg Gabapentin 1200 mg Melatonin 10 mg Levoxyl 75 mcg (because I took Lithium in the past) past medications: Depakote, Lamictal, Lithium, Seroquel, Trazodone, Risperdal, Cogentin, Remerol, Prozac, Amitriptyline, Ambien, Lorazepam, Klonopin, Saphris, Trileptal, Clozapine and Clozapine+Wellbutrin, Topamax |
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Hi @BlueSkyGirl!
Your posts evoked a strong emotional response in me for a number of reasons. First, how I interpret it, you are incredibly lonely and being lonely next to somebody actually feels loneli-ER than being alone or a single mom. Second, you sound naive for the professional position you are in - a person aspiring to be a school principal would be expected to know that the MB inventory is bogus (as has been pointed out before in this thread). But there is another way to interpret those MB/Google results - it is not that they are true (they have no basis in evidence), but your endorsing them means that they tell you what you want to hear. To give you an example, as a teen I would throw a coin when I faced a dilemma. It is not that I did what the coin toss "advised", but I listened to my internal reaction to how the coin landed. That is a perfectly sane way to use all sorts of predictions, divinations, etc. that are not evidence-based (MB not any more than coin tossing) but that are tools to get through to how we really feel. So you, at your current stage in life, want to be with the coworker and not with the husband. But going back to your sounding unexpectedly naive - that is endearing and ultimately portrays the same - loneliness and feeling betrayed by the leadership at school who pulled the rug from under you and took away the very thing that allowed you to run away from loneliness and problems at home. Three, you are actually quite correct in labeling the affair at this stage infatuation, but at the same time you mentioned love on more than one occasion. It is too early to speak of love, but infatuation it is. Four, that you did not go beyond kissing might mean that you are subconsciously holding onto this delightful and adrenaline-rich stage of infatuation - kisses on the brink of more might actually be far more intense than intercourse. So I do not think it is your willpower or "morals" at play - it is your being in love, not with the man, but with the exhilarating that is such a potent antidote to the dread you face at home, with an emotionally distant (or incapable) husband, demanding kids etc. You report feeling that making dinner and putting the kids to sleep feel like work, not joy, so there is - with the job situation after you broke your leg - nothing to bring you joy except for that exhiliration. Five, the husband's reaction - telling the coworker's wife - seems to be in line with his aggressive traits. It is rather scary. To sum up, as you are affluent and would be able to survive on your own and as your husband seems to endanger your children, the best bet seems to be an amicable, speedy, and decisive divorce. After the dust settles, you might want to reconsider the relationship with the coworker, but by then you might have sobered up and would no longer see him through a happily distorted lens. Whatever you do, know that your courage in opening up to strangers has not gone unnoticed and nor has your ability to convey the emotional dread of your day-by-day life. __________________ Bipolar I w/Psychotic features Zyprexa Zydis 5 mg Gabapentin 1200 mg Melatonin 10 mg Levoxyl 75 mcg (because I took Lithium in the past) past medications: Depakote, Lamictal, Lithium, Seroquel, Trazodone, Risperdal, Cogentin, Remerol, Prozac, Amitriptyline, Ambien, Lorazepam, Klonopin, Saphris, Trileptal, Clozapine and Clozapine+Wellbutrin, Topamax |
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Hey @BlueSkyGirl: You say you wanted a neutral response and that you didnt want to be shamed and belittled. Who is doing that to you? I know I am blunt but I am not trying to shame anyone.
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The first post states that you have a GREAT husband. Yet in the course of this thread it’s revealed that he physically abuses you and more so young children and child protective services are involved and visit your home. There is something amiss here. In what way is he great.
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I am also puzzled as to why your description of your husband has changed drastically from your first post until now? You describe a very unhealthy home life. This could be very damaging to your children. If your husband is away while working a lot of overtime, who is with the children when you are out investing in another relationship? Why would a mother of young children keep her children in an abusive home life? Additionally, why would a mother of young children pursue yet another romantic relationship when there's a huge mess right in front of her that needs to be addressed? Why would a woman who is deathly afraid of her husband's temper/abusive nature tell him about her affair when neither she nor her children are protected? I agree, something is awry. You can deem this some kind of a judgement of you if it helps you to escape your responsibilities to your children. I see it as more of a wake-up call. From what you have told us, I simply must say: You have a responsibility to protect your children. It appears as though your judgement is impaired. This can occur for a number of reasons. The exact reasons can be sorted out later on. It's extremely important you make sure that you and your children are safe. If your home life is as you have described, get help. Protect your children. Now. Love and Prayers __________________ May we each fully claim the courage to live from our hearts, to allow Love, Faith and Hope to enLighten our paths. |
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I’d call your doctor’s office. Even during pandemics you should be able to reach someone and possibly talk on the phone or have telemedicine session with your psychiatrist. Impaired judgment could be caused by medications that perhaps need to be adjusted/doses tweaked/medications managed differently etc In addition I’d ask your doctor how those four meds interact with alcohol you consume.
I dated someone who was on anti depressants and when he mixed it with alcohol his judgement and decision making would be completely impaired. You are on four different meds, I worry that something is going wrong here and maybe meds don’t interact with each correctly and you really need help (beyond therapy). I say it with the best intentions of helping you and the kids to get out of potentially dangerous and chaotic situations |
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