Update. Surgeries this coming week

The title says it. There's a colonoscopy Tuesday and reattachment surgery Wednesday. I did the covid-19 swab yesterday. This is great news for me!
However...
My anxiety is ramping up still and already is very high. I've tried everything I have that I can take and all I know I can do. I don't want to call or message with friends because I don't want them to know how freaked out I am. I'm worried without and above reason. It's so bad that my stomach hurts very badly. My headache is excruciating. I can only take Tylenol right now but it doesn't work, I tried three times. I'm not sleeping for two nights. I'm staying awake doing nothing until four or five then playing videogames. That does take my mind off things but only slightly. My neck hurts very badly too, because I had to stop taking my pain management supplement. I tried talking both benedryl and valerian root last night for sleep. Nothing. Took three times throughout the night and still awake. I'm shaky and tearful and worried. I am at least a little more positive knowing I can't have a bunch of visitors at the hospital. That makes me way worse with too many people around but nobody understands why that would be.

Here are some well-wishes for your colonoscopy and reattachment surgery! And I hope the prep goes down alright for the colonoscopy. Glad you're happy that you can't have a bunch of visitors.

I'm excited for you and wishing you all the best. I hope you're able to relax prior to the surgery. Looking forward to an update.

Managed to sleep about two hours. Anxiety is still very high. I think I can sleep more now

Here's to a good night's rest!

Yet I didn't sleep any more. I've gotten about 10 hours in a week. I'm an emotional wreck and I don't know what to do. I have so much to get ready but I can't get out of bed. Sometimes I feel better for ten minutes but then I'm right back in bed again for hours. Even though I know it's only a few more days, it feels like forever. I'm unsteady even when walking around my little apartment from lack of sleep. I'm awake worrying and being depressed. I'm scared thoroughly about this

At the hospital, pretty soon before you are taken back to the operating room, they will give you a white liquid in your IV. This is the "I-don't-care" med. This makes it so you don't jump up and run away in fear. It really works. I remember having it and I just thought, "They're going to cut my middle open... Oh well."

They like to use propofol and ketamine combination around here. I really wish they'd give the ketamine a little bit first. I had that for pain in the ER last time and they probably could have done the surgery with me wide awake on it. It kept me very awake but not at all alert. I did not care how bad anything ever hurt. I remember staring at the ceiling the entire time because it was so very interesting. My parents said I was drooling and babbling and talking to nothing like it was my old buddy.
I remember the propofol going in and thinking how strangely it suddenly tasted then they told me to count down from ten. I don't remember anything until I woke up. They could have cut me wide open and I'd never know it.
Oh wait, they did! And I didn't know it... Until I woke up.
(Made little joke there, didn't I?)
I got some sleep earlier, but 3pm to 9 isn't ideal. I'm going to try to fall back asleep and I've set many alarms to get things done in the morning before the wonderful journey of prep begins. I've had my last solid food until at least Thursday.

Yes that prep is a journey! Good way to put it. I do that too- set many alarms a few minutes apart so I can't fall back asleep. Im having a sigmoidoscopy. The prep consists of two enemas but I have to go clear liquids for a while. I also have to skip my metformin and my blood thinner for a while. They have to still call me and tell me when to hold the Eloquis.

Clear liquids until they say again, but likely Thursday here. Somehow coffee is ok? I'm not having any because of what it does. They took about a foot of my sigmoid. They're going in through both my bottom and through the ostomy. I've had almost 10.5 hours of sleep in total and going back to sleep again for a while

Yes, coffee is ok. It has to be black though- no cream or sugar. My appointment is 10:30 a.m. so it will be pointless to drink coffee. I have to be npo before I leave so there's no point in eating or drinking at all. Im just going to have dinner the night before early and leave it at that. Then I have to do the enemas the morning of. Ive never done one of those. The instructions I got from the doctor say to wait 15 minutes after each enema to "go" but the box says "New and Improved- faster!" Meaning I wonder if I'll make it 15 minutes! I'm missing the upper half of my large intestine. I had necrotizing enterocolitis as a 2-day-old preemie and they had to remove the dead portion. So I had a colostomy and a feeding port when I was a newborn.

That's a lot for a parent to go through. Likely you don't remember it, and I hope other than tests that's all there was after it I ate a meal at 2pm and didn't wake up at dinner time or feel hungry until now, when I can't have any food. I had jello earlier but that's really not doing it. Oh well

No I don't remember when I was born. I was on a respirator for a while but I made it through the surgery without. There's a photo of me right after with lots of lines and tubes coming out of me.

Did you get the lemon flavor or the cherry for your gallon+ of gross drink? Where I am, they want you to drink half before bed and half so many hours before you leave for the procedure unit.

They're having me use an OTC laxative combination, mixing with Gatorade. I'm supposed to drink 14 doses of the mix-in and take a double dose of the other. So, sixteen laxative doses in one day. I'm fairly loose mostly already so it shouldn't take it all but I'm going to anyway. At least I do have a colostomy bag to prevent running to the bathroom.

Thoughts and prayers Sorry Shaped. That prep sounds better tasting than the gallon one. The gallon one was manageable but not great when I did it in October. i hope it all goes well.

Thanks. I did some other prescription powdered one a long time ago. It was very awful. I remember that taste today, like salted corn starch water and almost as thick.
I got weak at one point and slept in the floor. I don't know if I fell down or passed out or lay myself down. I remember being very tired and dizzy. There's no bruises. But I woke up around 11:30 and had a glass of water. I feel better now. I'm supposed to be at the hospital, waiting in the surgery center parking lot to be called in at 6:45. That's how they're doing it now. That's how it was with the swab.
At least I don't feel hungry. Physically exhausted. Mentally empty. Anxiety isn't as high as it was but it's still up there. My intestines hurt now. My pain levels from not having kratom in days is very high again, as to be expected. I want someone to snuggle but that's not an option with quarantine. I want to hold and be held and to be told it's going to be better soon.

Colonoscopy over and done. Tomorrow's the real work

Glad you made it through the colonoscopy!

Reversal was done yesterday. I'm whole again! Surgeon tried 3 hours to do it laproscopic but had to open me up and that took about two more hours. I'm staying in the hospital for several days and pain is almost unbearable at times but we have got a combination of drugs helping with that some. I did have an allergic reaction to the antibiotics the gave me in OR but only skin reactions. I've been sleeping a little on and off but I wanted you good people to know I'm doing better

I'm so glad it is over and that you are healing. I hope they figure out the pain meds thing.