do you consider yourself sick or ill?

I haven't might need to invest in some books thanks. Yeah I do blame myself. If only I hadn't admitted things were so wrong/bad

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Originally Posted by bpcyclist i consider myself to suffer from an incurable brain disorder or disease called type 1 bipolar. A disease of the human brain. Like cancer, or diabetes.

I agree. I think you have stated it very well.

Right now? Yeah, I do feel quite ill

Still hanging onto “sanity” and onto Love

With respect and gratitude to all

A very dear friend who has been officially dxd over many years with “severe treatment resistant depression” By multiple competent and experienced doctors.... was given the following advice ..

To treat their major depression as if it was chronic pain (or diabetes) ... at least I think those were the words



(someone save my life tonight.. is playing... no worries, I am “safe”

(not about anyone on pc)

I feel the same way.

Yes after I listen to others talk and share their thoughts and feelings I can really see how broken and sick and messed up i really am. I look back at my life and all I do is see how I've done everything wrong how I've hurt people because I'm so stupid and broken. I'm not normal like everyone else is. Why can't I find any joy or happiness every time I try all that happens is I get flooded with everything that's gone bad in my life and how I've been treated. I'm a failure

In this moment I am “a loser” since I upset Papa bear. this must STOP. I didn’t do anything wrong but like me he is “over sensitive”. Scared, sad and yucky UGH

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Originally Posted by Fuzzybear In this moment I am “a loser” since I upset Papa bear. this must STOP. I didn’t do anything wrong but like me he is “over sensitive”. Scared, sad and yucky UGH

My husband, like me, is hyper-sensitive. Many times we hurt each other unintentionally due to our sensitivities. Although, I'd say that I've become better at not taking things as personally as he does.

I think I understand. I think Papa bear takes things very personally which really are not. I tried to have a conversation with him about this only today.

Much love

Hey Laura? I am in my 50s and sometimes being on disability sucks big time. Most times though I'm grateful to have it. I can work a full time job for 2, maybe 3 months and then it's right back to the counselor every week and trying desperately to keep out of the hospital. I went on disability in 2008 when I was 40. That was a huge blow to the psyche. In the 20 years I worked, I might have been unemployed a grand total of 9 months. All of a sudden I'm sponging off of the government? Hello? Now I realize that it's what I have to do to make sure I keep myself mentally healthy. Yes, on occasion I find myself thinking "the government pays me good money to just sit around on my fat ***** all day". But I quickly stop that right then and there. I'm not on disability because I'm too dam lazy to work. I would love to go back to work and earn my own living. But i would also love to not go in the hospital. Given my druthers, and I can freely choose, I'll take staying out of the hospital thankyouverymuch. Doing what you need to do isn't a weakness. Doing something you would rather not do because it's what you need to do is actually being strong. Being weak would be ignoring your health for whatever reason(s) you don't want to be on disability. Recognize yourself for having the strength and courage to take good care of yourself. Make it a daily affirmation if you need to. Talk to your therapist about how you feel. Whatever it takes.

I have a mental illness (bipolar disorder) and a chronic disease (diabetes). I am not ill or diseased.

I'm pretty sure I only use "sick" for physical issues.
When episodic, I think in terms of "not well".

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Mr. Robot

Makes me sick to the heart, Oh I feel so tired. And the way the rain comes down hard, that's how I feel inside.

--The Cure

Hey Miss Laura,
I think that admitting how things actually are is a sign of ''strength'' and not ''weakness'''... even recognising how things actually are is a sign of ''strength''... then again, what exactly is ''reality''...

Since, if we do not admit, at least to ourselves, how things are... how can we take ''control'' and move away from any suboptimal things we are able to?

Being on disability is not being ''weak''.. it is doing something we do not want to do in order to become healthier. imo.

I like to think that I'm completely fine. When stable, I can quite easily convince myself that my problems miraculously disappeared. It's my hobby.

When I lose this superpower, I rather use "crazy as hell" than "ill".

I'm unwell, but not sick or ill.