Someone caring about me...

Someone caring about me does not automatically mean they will reject me. Although this has happened a lot of times, with my parents, therapist and some ''friends''... I used to always blame myself for this, for all these rejections. These cruel rejections and other things have caused severe depressive episodes (diagnosed but not treated properly - I was repeatedly rejected by professionals..irl) I'm reading a CBT workbook at the moment. I looked for a therapist online yesterday. The price of them is far out of my price range. Some of them might offer sliding scales (maybe).. I don't think I would trust them though. In this country it is rare to ..

Do you feel that you will be rejected by people who get to know you? Does this impact your mood and trigger severe depression or other episodes? Do you trust people? I mostly do not. I've been very disappointed by 2 people I thought were friends in the last week, not anyone in this bipolar forum. They cut me off in a mean way and I didn't think I had done anything. I wonder if I did something I am not aware of.

I also miss a couple of people from this bipolar forum who I was quite close to who have disappeared. I worry about them. I think that people here, at least those I engage with are ''real''... I also am ''real''...

You are real. The really real kind

Thanks fern

You asked: "Do you feel that you will be rejected by people who get to know you?" I think I may have written, here on PC in the past, that anyone who really knew me wouldn't want to have anything to do with me. (I don't even want anything to do with me. But I don't have a choice.) No, I don't trust people either. So I just keep it all to myself & live as reclusive a life as possible.

There has been only one member, here on PC, I think I could have perhaps developed something of an on-line friendship with. But he either quit or got the boot. I don't know which. Now I've locked out both my public message board as well as my private messaging system as well. I just keep to myself here on PC too.

I appreciate your presence here Skeezyks. I do trust a few people, not many though (been burnt so many times)

I wonder if I am guessing correctly who you are meaning (maybe, maybe not).. if its the same person, I miss his posts here.

I do suffer from severe depressive episodes.

I have a nasty habit of trusting the wrong kind of people

Have you looked at therapy with Anxiety UK? They offer discount for lower income households....

I've trusted the wrong people before now too ...

I haven't looked into that, thanks for posting

Hi Fuzzy,

Do you feel that you will be rejected by people who get to know you?

Yes. I am very uncomfortable with almost all people because I feel that I cannot be my true self. Because if they know "all" of me, they will reject me, sooner or later.

I feel that I can be my true self much more easily online.

Does this impact your mood and trigger severe depression or other episodes?

Oh, it certainly does! I'm working hard not to allow it to affect me so much, though.

Do you trust people?

No. I'd like to. I try to. But I figure that either they will choose to leave, or circumstances will be such that we are fated to be separated.

I strongly dislike thinking in such a way.

BethRags

I have no friends irl. This impacts my mood negatively. My DH is wonderful but can’t compensate for the lack of friends.

Pookyl

I am getting ready to move so how will I make new friends in a new place with Covid19 going on? I used to enjoy going out and just meeting and greeting people at the library, coffee shop etc...but now that everyone is wearing masks they all seem so distant. I'm not sure how I will meet people in my new environment never mind making friends.


My oldest friend betrayed me during this quarantine period (by text) and it has left me seriously traumatized. I now feel like I will never trust anyone again. However, she did throw up some red flags recently which I ignored.

I think I will be more guarded, but still open to friendship.

As far as people not liking me if they got to know me...I am an open book. I don't really have secrets. I have worked hard to be the same no matter where I am. Many people are duplicitous. That is...they show a good face in public...but at home it is a different story. I am not like that. So if people don't like me after the first conversation they probably wouldn't like me after the 20th conversation. I am kind of...how to put this...a bit irritable almost all the time. I have anxiety and it causes that. So if someone got to know me they might say I am too sensitive. I am trying to work on that.

I got sick of everyone in this town, anyway, so I'm glad I'm moving. I think I had the wrong kind of people in my life. That's key.


I like people who are concerned about others even when they themselves have problems. AND GUESS WHO THAT IS?

FUZZBEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Fuzzy always always always reaches out to everyone. Fuzzy delivers hugs and all kinds of other goodies.

If more people were like Fuzzy this world would be better for it. Thankyou Fuzzybear!

Thanks DechanDawa

I've been unpleasantly surprised by a few of those duplicitous characters. It is traumatic

Yes, and it seems IMPOSSIBLE to tell that they are being duplicitous. But with the added stresses these days I guess it is more difficult for those people to continue to use social filters.

True friendship is rare. The Buddhists say, "Treat everyone as a friend." Sometimes I like that idea. Be friendly. But don't get too involved.

I just want to validate you and let you know that you do not in any way deserve to be treated poorly. You are a sweet heart!