If you haven't already, will you resume BP therapy in person when the office reopens?

Me: probably not. I dislike this post apocalyptic world. Maybe in 2021.

My therapy office isn't even open right now. They haven't figured out the logistics for reopening yet. My therapist even said its reopening won't happen until late August or possibly September/October.

I'll do on the phone as long as possible. Then yes I will do in person.

I prefer Zoom. I feel so much more comfortable. I think I am more ... myself. Less inhibitions.

I don't think I'll be this way back in the office. Plus I hate driving there. The driving scares me a lot.

My office is open but I'm still doing video/phone sessions. I will be doing that for the foreseeable future. I'm higher risk and my mom who I essentially live with is higher risk and so we don't take risks. My therapist says that's fine unless I start having serious symptoms and he needs to see me; in that case I think it will just have to be in person and I'll isolate from my mom somehow (I have my own house but it's across the driveway from hers). But at that point I'd be on the verge of IP and 2 weeks of quarantine after that so it probably wouldn't matter.

It would help a lot if we could get a whole video session. Instead we get about 10 minutes and then the software fails and we have to change to phone. But I like seeing him and knowing he's still there where he belongs (or something security related) so we do the divided sessions.

My upcoming appointment with my new psychologist will be held face to face.

Next appointment will be In person, mask to mask.

I don't plan to resume in person anytime soon. My therapist actually moved offices right before the pandemic and her office was actually pretty far from my place, but I followed her so I could stick with her. Video is more convenient and I feel safer with it, but it would be different if I had a problem with the internet connection or something. I do miss seeing her in person and feel weird that we will be terminating over video at some point, probably, because I might move in the fall.

In a New York minute! Unfortunately, it's looking like teletherapy is it. I don't foresee a time when we'll be meeting f2f. If I were to guess, I'd say spring of 2021 - maybe. If ever again.

I don't know:

on the one hand, I have been through a total of 9 therapists (9) and none of them is helping me, leading me to believe that therapy isn't really the answer

on the other hand, if I don't, who will I have to talk to?

seriously, I think most of the time the reason I do it is to vent my frustrations and something other than a wall or a door.

I honestly don't know. their's still time to think about it though

Yes. The clinic I go to just started bringing back in-person sessions. I saw my pdoc in person yesterday and it was really nice to see her again after all this time. Was great to have an in depth conversation with person for the first time in a long time. Will be the same with therapist since they work in the same clinic.

I would rather stick with the online sessions. It was a long drive and I have a gas guzzling mini van. Also, I can show my T things I wouldnt take to her office. Finally, and I think this is important, seeing me in situ, at home, even in the office where I spend most of my time gives her more of a realistic glimpse of my life. I could even introduce family members to her. I think it's definitely better. The one downside is that she seems to be rescheduling more, probably due to hysterical patients who cant deal with the pressure of the covid lifestyle. Im struggling too, so that is definitely a disadvantage, but I think its just the covid.

Yes absolutely. These video sessions have been so emotionally draining for me and I think its been the main issue I’ve been having during the pandemic. I plan to move 3 hours away next spring and the thought of not seeing her in person deeply bothers me.

They are getting ready to open the office. At least the last I heard which was a week ago.

I prefer telehealth but I’ll go back to in person appointments when necessary.

I asked her today what she prefers. I figured I was being pretty selfish by having meltdowns every time she once again said there was no for sure date when she’d be back. And if I don’t want to go to work and neither do teachers what makes me think she does either? And she did tell me that she honestly doesn’t want to go back. I’m not sure if she’s choosing not to go back right now. She answered my questions but then nicely said “but don’t get concerned about it.” I think she was politely telling me that it is none of my business.

Perhaps you need to tweak your perception or re-evaluate your reasons for attending therapy....

I wrote a list of goals I had in mind when starting and my T and I worked on a time frame for each topic.

(Of course crisis affects the game plan, can't account and prepare for everything, with BP and BPD being so unpredictable.)

In fact I've never walked into a Ts office without a game plan, usually it throws them off guard initially, but they get on board once the shock wears off that a patient has a functional brain, is well versed, has a plan and even a type of therapy in mind... I find random ramblings and navigating the dark to be huge time wasters for me, and personally I just can't stand them.

I also set ground rules, but that's just the control freak obsessed with the steering wheel in me rearing her remote control shaped head.

It helped focus my therapy and provide us with direction as I have a journal and friends I can complain to. I need therapy to provide ways to manage, learn and move forward on my MH journey...

Lockdown didn't really affect my sessions much, only in the beginning, we have mask to mask sessions now.