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#461
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But, despite all the ivy league schools and earthly pleasure and triumph, all this ten trillion books we all constantly read, there was one particular book that was never, ever brought up. Never. They never talked to me about God or spirituality at any time. Never. I somehow located a bible and started reading it. Probably my grandad's. Age 8, maybe. No idea why, but always wanted to be close to God. But my parents were secular humanists. Functionally, I was raised to be an atheist. __________________ When I was a kid, my parents moved a lot, but I always found them--Rodney Dangerfield |
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#462
I go back and forth thinking they are just playing with my mind and don't intend to rent to me at all, to "You're being crazy. IT's all going to be fine". Last night, I took 100 PRN Seroquel and 5 PRN Haldol. This calmed me down so that I could sleep. I'm doing all this work to move and what if I have to move it all to a storage unit?
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#463
__________________ Wellbutrin XL 300 mg Loxapine 50mg Ingrezza 80 mg Ativan .5 mg 2x/day Propranolol 20 mg 2x/day Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) Mania (April/May 2019) |
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#464
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It’s obviously very important to you but I’m not sure it’s something they did on purpose to hurt you. __________________ Of course it is happening inside your head. But why on earth should that mean that it is not real? -Albus Dumbledore That’s life. If nothing else, that is life. It’s real. Sometimes it f—-ing hurts. But it’s sort of all we have. -Garden State |
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#465
Injection day. Lied to the nurse
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Called my ex (drunk) twice yesterday. I was honest with him for once... he had a kick out of it. I think I totally changed his perspective of me. I feel bad about that too because I told him I was bi and he took that as I am the most sexual being on this planet, kinda made a lot of jokes I laughed with him, but I don't appreciate it today. He keeps telling me he wants to be back with me. He's old, ugly, stupid, and most importantly insensitive. I only talk to him because I'm lonely and he's so attached he'll never leave me. Can't wait for winter. Get some good sleep for once. I keep half-joking with the neighbors that we'll get snow before we get rain (honestly, probably...severe drought here, never rains, and we're getting frost already). Oh, and I was ~30ft from a bear on some mtn Friday so that was fun. They are restless as hell right now. |
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#466
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I guess what I'm saying is that they probably had their reasons, and it sounds like you are close to God and it sounds like you always were to an extent regardless of your parents' behavior. |
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Location: Czechia
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#467
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#468
I think people should be allowed and encouraged to make their own discoveries and choices in life. What I wouldn't have wanted is for parents to tell me what and how to think/believe. Luckily for me, my parents were decent in raising me and showed me love. It's sad when parents don't. Love and general, but not over, guidance was a gift to me. When I chose to join the Catholic church, they did not discourage that even though they weren't particularly religious or even Catholic. I appreciated that. Never once did I blame them for not leading me to it in the first place. It was my personal journey, just as it's been my journey to change my beliefs a bit, since then.
There comes a time when we have to stop blaming and start living our own lives. Mindfulness of the present and journeys forward. Regretting the past too long is also a fruitless endeavor. Live! Live, damn it! Live! |
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#469
My husband and I may possibly have a new home near Brno, Czech Republic. My husband told the realtor of our interest. I confess that I encouraged Hubby to negotiate the rent price with them. I hope that doesn't make us lose the chance for it, but I believe a slightly lower rent would be fair. Some things in the house need a little work. Also, the gardens are a bit in shambles.
We visited about eight places in total over the last few days. It's been stressful, but I am fine. Hubby is more nervous. |
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#470
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#471
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You are strong __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~ |
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#472
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#473
Today, for the first time, I have tried to describe the bipolar experience entirely in Spanish. It's not something I was ever taught so it was difficult. ...but fun, of course.
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#474
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When we get home to the US, we are supposed to quarantine for 14 days, even though we don't have covid-19. That's the rule. Regardless, we will be super busy with home improvements and some packing. Hubby will also have to get back to work, still working from home. We hope he'll be laid off with a severance package. We already know that more employees at his company will be let go. It was announced a while back. |
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#475
You weren't taught how to speak Spanish? I'd imagine it would be difficult to describe being bipolar in another language!
__________________ Wellbutrin XL 300 mg Loxapine 50mg Ingrezza 80 mg Ativan .5 mg 2x/day Propranolol 20 mg 2x/day Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) Mania (April/May 2019) |
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#476
Jennifer .. I hope that things settle down so that your anxiety will just freaking quit!! I hate the ongoing anxiety its like I cant catch a breath. Im cheering for you
Soupe.. That is fantastic news you may have found a place! I would think there could be some wiggle room as far as Rent goes. Also many home owners that have rentals often prefer renting to people a bit older. Young kids can really trash a place quick and security deposits dont cover the damage. I do hope your husbands laid off and given a package __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~ |
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#477
I lived in Spain for two years, but never talked to anybody about bipolar disorder so there's the challenge. Some symptoms I know how to describe, but others I kinda talk around it and produce an indirect description.
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#478
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The house owners have three kids, so the house clearly shows that. Plus, they were a very messy/cluttery lot! They still need to empty the garage, attic, and parts of the patio of their stuff (some is junk). The whole house needs a good scrubbing and the bedroom we would want as the master was the kids', so would need to be "de-kiddified" (scrap the cartoon theme). They now live a few houses down the road. One patch of green would make for a nice little herb and veggie garden and others for flowers. We were told they raised turkeys there. Not our plan 😁, even though we obviously like birds. The views are beautiful hilly Moravian countryside with village homes in the distance. Down the road is an old Moravian Catholic church. Further down is a horse riding farm. [Beautiful horses!] Bike paths are everywhere, and there are forests to explore (all public access), and a tennis court nearby for free public use. It would normally take 20 mins to Brno, but there is road construction to widen the highway...which will eventually be helpful. Bus within walking-distance. Tram to Brno from bus ride. The village name translates to "Nut Tree", which is cute. Last edited by Soupe du jour; Sep 22, 2020 at 04:44 PM.. |
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#479
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I picked up some clothes for my son's school pictures. He asked for something fitting and nice. I couldn't help myself, lol. __________________ Bipolar 2 Currently on: Trileptal (300 x 2) Feeling: A bit hopeless |
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#480
Spent last night in the emergency room receiving two blood transfusions. My hemoglobin was deathly low at 5.5, whereas the norm is between 10 and 14 for women. I needed two bags to get back to an anemic level. Between not going in for physicals (my last one was four years ago), not taking iron, and possibly using Trileptal (which I read requires blood checks that my previous doc never informed me about), I shouldn't be surprised.
Made it through. The kicker is that I'm chasing my primary doctor. No one's picking up the phone or returning my message about the ER trip, which unnerves me because I'd like to get started on iron supplements as soon as possible. Also, I'm having difficulty tracking down my new pdoc because I need to know if I should continue with Trileptal. I'm just tired (Only got two to three hours, I think, of sleep upon returning from the hospital). Last night was weird. I'm still discombobulated from it. __________________ Bipolar 2 Currently on: Trileptal (300 x 2) Feeling: A bit hopeless |
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