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Regardless of what you were told about not needing medication, from what you're telling us about your outbursts, it sounds to me like a mood stabilizer would help you. Anyway, it's great that you'll be seeing your new therapist soon. __________________ |
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catches the flowers
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Starting on Friday the temperatures are going up to the 100's for several days. The heat is discouraging.
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Sounds like a lovely way to spend an evening.
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I'm really tired of the 100 degree days. I want actual Fall weather. I'm a Philly native transplant to L.A. and Fall's my favorite season. It's disheartening not to have an actual Fall.
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Nearly started crying about two hours ago. I felt like **** mentally when I woke up and I tried to suck it up for work but my student is in rare form today. Verbal abuse, defiance, threats....just before lunch break he began cursing at me and threatening me. Seriously, any other day, any other time, I’m fine with it. I don’t even care. I just chalk it up to the kid’s dx and move on. But I left for lunch and I was nearly in tears. I thought spending a half hour by myself would reset some but no, I only felt worse when my break was up. I truly felt like I was going to break down in a crying heap if I had to face him again.
Thankfully, my team is very supportive. I went straight to the floor supervisor and told her I absolutely cannot handle him for the rest of the day. Switch me out, PLEASE. She took me to our assistant director and explained, and the assistant director made some staff changes so I could spend the rest of the day away from him. It’s nearly the end of school now, and I managed to survive. The depression is not abating yet, but it’s only been four days. It feels like forever though. It’s only intensifying. Starting to get the images here and there. Definitely SH urges. __________________ Of course it is happening inside your head. But why on earth should that mean that it is not real? -Albus Dumbledore That’s life. If nothing else, that is life. It’s real. Sometimes it f—-ing hurts. But it’s sort of all we have. -Garden State |
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My mom and N3 and I got everything finished as far as N3 is concerned. My mom and I got the kitchen packed. Turns out I have extras of cleaning supplies so my mom is going to store them for me in her basement. She went home to eat lunch and take a nap but is coming back later when we will tackle under the bathroom sink! I already went through it to get rid of stuff- now I need to pack what's left. We have a week and a day to be 100% teady to move!
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I hope the SH urges are nothing you're going to act on. __________________ Wellbutrin XL 300 mg Loxapine 50mg Ingrezza 80 mg Ativan .5 mg 2x/day Propranolol 20 mg 2x/day Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) Mania (April/May 2019) |
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That's rough. There's basically no Fall in L.A. We used to have pretty nice Falls up here, but since these overwhelming fires it's all different. Instead of the trees turning pretty colors they mostly just turn brownish. And of course, there are still 6 weeks of warm/hot weather and fire watch. __________________ Last edited by *Beth*; Sep 23, 2020 at 05:52 PM.. |
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I guess the preop appointment went ok today. He wasn’t quite as friendly as he was last time which freaked me out a bit and made me think he didn’t want to do the surgery or work with me in general. I think a lot of doctors are just tired and feeling a bit burned out. I’m trying not to take it personally but it’s tough. He says I am really big so I’m gonna need a really involved mastectomy with grafts that may or may not take. He says the biggest risk for me is if the grafts take and he says I’m gonna be in his office “a lot” whatever that means. But it’s still going to be an outpatient surgery with an easy recovery time and I told him I do not want to be on opiates and he was totally cool with that.
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I'm really enjoying this cooler weather. Its not sunny today but that's okay I still do not need the AC running ..
My body is adjusting to the Seroquel, I don't have the hand tremor, much at all thank fully, That was getting on my nerves but the Cogentin has taking care of most of that. I'm really enjoying my painting, Its calming, Altho I think it looks terrible ( expected, I'm my worst critic) Steve assures me it looks great. Speaking of Steve .. He's finally back on his feet He's been working outside daily since Saturday, He's almost finished adding the final touches to the porch. He is having to take breaks often to catch his breath.. If it were another sunny day he will have finished the last bit of painting on the side steps, He finished the stain yesterday. But hopefully tomorrow will be sunny and he can get it all done with. Hope everyone is having a good day __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~ |
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Oh yay! So glad things have turned around for you and Steve! It’s about time. Give the dogs a cuddle from me.
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Thanks ! Yes this has been a looooong haul with him so sick.. Earlier my one dog Sirius came running out of the bedroom across the living room at full speed and jumped on my lap He forgets he's 65-70 lbs .. LOL Hes such a dork Meanwhile our other Dog Dexter just watched with such a bored expression, He is not one that likes to jump in laps thankfully ,, Hes 65-70 lbs too LOL Is Sir treating you well??? __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~ |
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Well my mom came over again and I'm now mostly packed! This weekend, people are coming for the organ, piano and washing machine.
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I got home and collapsed in bed. I was so physically and mentally exhausted. All I could think about was SH and the big S. I just needed to be alone in a ball on my bed so I wouldn’t do anything crazy. I turned Seinfeld on for background noise and closed my eyes. I’m not sure if I fell asleep, but at least I could breathe when RS came home. I couldn’t bring myself to make dinner so we had fast food. Oh well.
Good news is my student is suspended for the next two days for all the threats he made. So even if I continue feeling like **** at least I won’t have to deal with constant abuse. We have Monday off so maybe by Tuesday I’ll be refreshed and out of this funk. __________________ Of course it is happening inside your head. But why on earth should that mean that it is not real? -Albus Dumbledore That’s life. If nothing else, that is life. It’s real. Sometimes it f—-ing hurts. But it’s sort of all we have. -Garden State |
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Been a really good productive day. I ran all my errands then I fixed the cruise control on my suv. Cost $14 vs the $200 the shop wanted. I also washed the motorcycles and put a ceramic coating on them. Good overall day and nope I don't feel manic lol.
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