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#841
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Legendary
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#842
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And support. __________________ When I was a kid, my parents moved a lot, but I always found them--Rodney Dangerfield |
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#843
Enjoying my mood currently. I would call it lightly hypomanic. The only crappy part is feeling so alone. I feel quite desperate for attention. And i guess the drinking isnt the best either it has been a little out of control lately.
__________________ Bipolar 1 Borderline Personality Disorder Alcohol Use Disorder Meds: Depakote Welbutrin Abilify I didn't want any flowers, I only wanted to lie with my hands turned up and be utterly empty. How free it is, you have no idea how free. - Sylvia Plath |
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Silver Swan
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__________________ Wellbutrin XL 300 mg Loxapine 50mg Ingrezza 80 mg Ativan .5 mg 2x/day Propranolol 20 mg 2x/day Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) Mania (April/May 2019) |
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#846
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#847
Craving like hell. I hope no one was watching me on my walk this morning lol it must've looked weird because I was heading towards "someone's house" and kept turning around. My higher power gave me the strength to come back home though, so now I just gotta stay home until these urges pass. I'm thinking about moving to get out of this "drug den" (as we are known).
I'm feeling much more myself these past few days though. I almost want to say it's been easy to brush off SI/SH thoughts. I've been able to focus/retain things slightly better. I didn't realize just how much the drug/alcohol use was affecting me, I mean people kept telling me but I didn't really understand the extent, thought I was just always like that clean and sober or not. I'm kinda wondering if after a few months if I can taper off some of my meds. I gotta be my best self so I can take care of this guy! (I figured out how to add photos and now I'm a little obsessed haha) |
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#848
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In a word: move. __________________ |
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#850
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Helen Reddy was a huge pop star in the 70's, so her death is getting a lot of attention. For years I had a serious fear of the song "Don't Fear the Reaper" because it seemed that something bad happened after I heard the song. But I got tired of fearing that the song would come on the radio and I'd be doomed to a bad occurrence. So I decided to stop the connection. My decision has worked pretty well. ------------- EDIT: Hahaha! I typed the words "Don't Fear the Reaper", glanced at my post count, and the last three numbers were 666. Hilarious __________________ |
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#851
Smoky air and stinks like dirty smoke. The native American tribes in my county (there's an active NA presence here) have received a large grant to begin to do something about climate change in this county. I'm not sure what they're starting with, but I'm so glad to hear the news.
Slept a sleep that I've needed for months. Increasing the Trilafon (AP) is helping to calm my mind, although the repetitive musical sounds are still hanging on. Daonnachd, if you're out there, how goes it? __________________ |
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#852
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__________________ When I was a kid, my parents moved a lot, but I always found them--Rodney Dangerfield |
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#853
today I found out that my doctor's surgery are not yet willing to give me a new doctor. they tried to patronize me today re: my complaint, and tried to stick up for the doctor when ever they could.
for now, it's still ongoing. I've said that I'm not willing to work with someone who wishes kovid on their patients, and they are saying they are unwilling to give me someone else at this time so |
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Wisest Elder Ever
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#854
wow. At the dentist the other day he said I had **** because I said I could not ''smell'' the infected tooth he took out I was not going to post about that. I still think its off though I said NO, I have hay fever (which is already in my notes)
I can hardly believe that a doctor like the above exists. UGH __________________ |
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#855
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Or maybe the other local surgeries are even worse? (is that even possible...) If that doctor really said that, he is sadistic. IMHO. And should be stuck off.. - Sadistic - deriving pleasure from inflicting pain, suffering or humiliation on others. __________________ |
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#856
My kid isn't even HERE today and I’m anxious as hell. Like full on can’t breathe can’t stop my heart sick to my stomach ********. Not all day but a lot of it. I don’t really know what to do. There’s no specific thoughts that go with it though so I can’t even do like CBT or anything to confront the negative thinking.
Last night was horrible. I really felt like I was dying. I knew I wasn’t so I didn’t go to the ER but I sure felt like going just to beg for a benzo. I almost called a psych emergency line but then I realized the only thing that would be acceptable for me would be an emergency prescription for a benzo, but how tf was I supposed to pick it up? My dumbass pharmacy would be SURE to **** up the prescription. I don’t know what to do! It’s not bad enough to take time off, but I really feel like I’m losing it. __________________ Of course it is happening inside your head. But why on earth should that mean that it is not real? -Albus Dumbledore That’s life. If nothing else, that is life. It’s real. Sometimes it f—-ing hurts. But it’s sort of all we have. -Garden State |
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That is appalling. __________________ |
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#858
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It sounds to me like the way you feels definitely warrants some time off. Because what happens when the child returns? It seems you need some distance and space right now to reassess. CBT affirmations are a great idea, unless you are truly in physical danger. At least, that's the way I see it. The way you're feeling isn't a thought, it's a sense of being actually, physically threatened. Maybe a fight or flight reaction. __________________ |
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#859
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Legendary
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#860
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