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#1
My therapist doesn't like me drinking, cutting, or fighting with friends and family to achieve that goal. She wants me to find two new positive ways to feel within the next two weeks.
Things that already somewhat help but I refuse to do 24/7: Singing/playing piano, writing, skiing, running in traffic, hiking in bear country (especially in fall when they're restless), and climbing **** (houses, trees, cliffs, etc) What helps you? |
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#2
When you say "to feel" do you mean generate sensation? Or something like generate positive emotions?
In your list of things you refuse to do you already have things I would've recommended so I'm kinda stumped. One thing not listed though, is making art. You could get yourself a block of postcard blanks and create art in place of cutting. Then you would have images to share with others, too. I'll keep thinking on this. __________________ >< |
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#3
More like generate emotion
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I don't think I experience numbness/emptiness. If anything, I'm constantly striving to be more mellow and less "intense" (as they usually put it). I'm usually doing at least 2 things at once, with 3 more spinning in my mind "to be done".
Is it medication that causes you to feel empty or what I call "flat"? __________________ |
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I doodle a lot (though it's frustrating bc I black out for a couple seconds a lot) so I suppose I could try actively drawing.
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Often times when I'm feeling numb or empty I try to force myself to do something other than dwell on my own thoughts, like take a short walk, or call someone. I think numbness, for me anyway, is usually a response to feeling powerless in day-to-day things, like maybe a friend seemingly taking advantage of you because they know you won't say anything, or something similar. Again, this is just my experience, but maybe that makes sense to you? I just took my seroquel for the night and my brain has begun to significantly fog.
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#9
Push my body physically. I don't experience numbness, but when I need a shift an intense workout helps. Even if you don't end up with the high, you still did something great for your body, so it's a win. I also like water for these purposes. A swim or just the shock of a cold shower help me reset.
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Cold water...shower, pool, whatever. I think there's a reason why psych hospitals used to use baths or wrap people in cold sheets. As primitive as it sounds, cold water can really change the track of our thoughts. Even a cool-ish shower can be helpful, I find.
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Listen to music or audiobooks to escape. I totally understand the feeling of emptiness. I'm dealing with that now. Once I refocus on these activities, I can move this feeling to the wayside.
But, it's difficult given the atmosphere. It's really difficult to focus. __________________ Bipolar 2 Currently on: Trileptal (300 x 2) Feeling: A bit hopeless |
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Thanks everybody for the suggestions
Yeah, I can't focus for ****, but that's been all my life so I just don't do things like watch movies or read books. Really the only thing different I did today was draw, which I guess was fun but not really. Still went for my walk/run (run 2 miles, walk 3), talked to my mom, gardened (I think that helped the most, but again, not that much). Next time I shower, I'll make sure it's a cold one. I do get "intense" emotions, but that's usually just rage and that's like 10% of the time and not really what I'm shooting for. What if it is my meds? I'm on 400mg Seroquel, 37.5mgRisperdal every 2 wks, 600mg Tegretol, and 30mg of Temazepam. I still have psychotic symptoms and mood swings (but not like manic or depressive episodes, more like a couple hours of intense rage, excitement, or despair a day and the rest is just meh). I'm thinking of asking to have my Risperdal shot lowered to 25mg and see what that does. Good idea or no since I'm still hearing voices and seeing things? Could it be because of past/current substance use? I drank twice (got drunk but not blackout drunk) in the past week but went on a 5 day binge three weeks ago, have been clean from MJ for three weeks (moderate user previously(, and clean from opiates for almost 6 weeks (heavy user previously). If it is that, how long do you think before I start feeling normal? |
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#13
Substances can always be a factor. Has anyone ever talked to you about Clozaril?
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I was actually on Clozaril for a couple years a few years back. Worked, but made me "flat and fat." I realized my doc was obsessed with the stuff and gave it to anybody who didn't like Abilify or Latuda. Also, my pharmacy doesn't do clozaril because of all the work involved so I'd have to drive an extra half hour each way to pick it up. I could go on and on, but let's just say I'm not willing to give it another try.
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#15
Tried the cold shower. I feel guilty for the things I did before the shower and in general so I'm feeling something. I feel more alert too, I guess that's good.
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