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__________________ Wellbutrin XL 300 mg Loxapine 50mg Ingrezza 80 mg Ativan .5 mg 2x/day Propranolol 20 mg 2x/day Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) Mania (April/May 2019) |
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#45
Sleep still rough w Albert. He mostly lvs me alone if I am out w blankies in the living room, so doing that. Sees vet in a month. Maybe she can help. He clearly has at the very least an anxiety disorder. Just being gentle with him.
Mood good. Just tired. Hugs. __________________ When I was a kid, my parents moved a lot, but I always found them--Rodney Dangerfield |
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#46
Anxiety through the roof because of what is happening with my mom. Took klonopin early last night to help me through the evening, which was helpful.
Also uncomfortable about communicating with my brother and sister-in-law about it because we don't get along (actually I generally get along with my sister-in-law) and we only communicate when issues with my mother come up. I'm calling the new sub-acute facility today. I so hope they'll take her! If not, everything will be delayed (my mom wants to go asap), research started from scratch, and it won't be a place I already know, as I do this one. __________________ Bipolar 1 Lamictal: 400 mg Latuda: 60mg Klonopin: 1 mg Propranolol: 10 mg Zoloft: 100 mg Temazepam: 15 mg Zyprexa 5-10mg prn (for Central Pain Syndrome: methadone 20 mg; for chronic back pain: meloxicam 15 mg; for migraines: prochlorperazine prn) |
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__________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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I'm glad you had a good day too
__________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Looking for a new job because bookkeeper at the farm is not going to last very long. Family feud stuff going on and I heard they're going to be under before they can even get me set up. I applied to a few places close enough but far enough. I am now one full week sober! It is cold. I hope it rains tonight/tomorrow as expected. I think I broke a knuckle.
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Well I got the drains out. She said to come back next Monday though for a check up and also there could possibly be a fluid buildup and they would have to go in with a needle to get it out. But getting the drains out was much less painful then I thought. I thought it would hurt like hell but it was just a quick pinch. I didn’t realize how much pain was actually from my chest though. But at least I’m in my own bed now instead of on that dumb recliner. And I can sleep on my side and get around more easily. So I hope recovery gets moving quicker now.
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#52
Bad news. N1's girlfriend is here. (She's on the phone at the moment.) We were talking about N1. She's in the psychiatric emergency waiting to be admitted. She's a mess. Her girlfriend was filling me in on things. We took a pic of us together and sent it via snapchat to N1. Said "I Love You, my daughter and happy early birthday!" She won't have her phone once she gets admitted, but there is a computer there that you can get on- at least there was last time I was there. Of course, she may not be admitted at the same hospital, too. And last time, her insurance said she had to leave- early, it seemed like. Poor C, too, because this is a lot for her to deal with but I am SOOO glad she is around! C is a wonderful, loving person who is here for thick and thin. Apparently, N1 is into marijuana and extra-relationship sex, etc. I really hope they can give her a diagnosis this time instead of just "transgender". (Which has it's own diagnosis code.) I was supposed to be having my yearly review for the bipolar study I'm in right now over the phone but they called and I rescheduled for tomorrow because C is still here and I have to deal with this more than I need to do the study stuff right now. It IS rescheduled for tomorrow. I don't want to miss it because after this I get paid for my year of filling out questionaires and this year-end appointment. So I'm worried about N1, but I know she's in good hands- at least if they keep her for a week or more that will make me happy.
ETA/Update: We talked with N1 on the phone and she is still in the psych ER. Been there 15 hours and no sleep. But that's par for the course. She sounds better than i thought she would. C is bringing her a couple books- two books that have been in the back of their car for months that N1 hasn't gotten around to reading. They happen to be about transgender and are mine actually. I bought them just because I thought they looked interesting before I knew that N1 was transgender. C is getting her coffee from Starbucks and a video game machine (hand held one I assume) and a few other things. I am glad she and C have each other. C is such a nice person and a true friend and girlfriend! She keeps me in the loop which I like. Tomorrow is N1's 23rd birthday. We sent her a snapchat saying happy birthday and I love you. No news yet about where she is going to be staying. __________________ Wellbutrin XL 300 mg Loxapine 50mg Ingrezza 80 mg Ativan .5 mg 2x/day Propranolol 20 mg 2x/day Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) Mania (April/May 2019) Last edited by Moose72; Oct 12, 2020 at 01:12 PM.. |
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#53
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__________________ When I was a kid, my parents moved a lot, but I always found them--Rodney Dangerfield |
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#54
In two years I have never once cancelled an appointment with my therapist. I see her twice/week. I cancelled today for a silly reason, but there it is. I simply do not feel like setting up the whole teletherapy thing. Camera, mic, close the curtains so it's not too bright, being sure my hair is presentable, getting dressed just for a video session, pointing my computer in a direction that has a pleasant background, saying good-bye at the end when she suddenly disappears and I see a blank screen...all of it. I just couldn't do it today. It all feels like pushing a boulder up a mountain.
I feel bad, because I know she'll wonder why I cancelled when I never have before. And I hope I don't regret cancelling. I'm just so worn down from this whole covid BS. __________________ |
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Hi everyone. I haven't been here in a awhile, but finally got up the energy to check in. Hope you all have been doing well. I do think of you all and sometimes come and read the updates, but just haven't been feeling too well and lacking motivation. My moods are more stable since starting birth control, but now I am just tired and blah all the time. Can't seem to focus on anything, either. My psychiatrist thinks it's depression and started me on Wellbutrin. I did not feel well after the first dose, real tired and achy, but am going to try it out for a little bit longer. Not much else going on here. I am back home after staying with my partner for a few months. It was nice to have the company and see his cute dog, but I think my anxiety and low mood kind of put a damper on things between us. He's tried to be supportive, though. Wish I had something more interesting to update on, but that's about it for now. I am looking forward to catching up on how everyone has been.
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I've been having difficulties with impulsivity on the job lately, and it's leading to not the best decisions. I really hate the impulsive side of me. It's really self-damaging and makes me feel really bad about myself. I always worry about the long-term effects and if something is going to haunt me. It's really hard working when dealing with these Bipolar symptoms, and some days I want to give up. I was very close to resigning the other day, but I'm trying to push through until I can't anymore. I did take a few days off next week, so that will give me the opportunity to have a mental health day to myself. I had to take a klonopin (PRN) today, because I feel really nervous about my decisions and if the worst is going to happen. A few hours to go until the work day is over with.
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#59
I have not tried teletherapy. I have thought about it.
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#60
Listening to a new release (I think) by Bon Jovi. It's been a weird day.
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