[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by yellow_fleurs

Hi everyone, thanks for the warm welcome back. I am not sure what is going on since starting this Wellbutrin. I felt quite good for about a week and a half there. Like my depression had lifted, more energy, more interest in things. Of course my anxiety and intrusive thoughts were a bit worse, but I kind of expected that. Well, starting yesterday I started feeling more tired and now I feel like I am back at square one with depression. Can't concentrate, no interest in anything, feel flat, really tired and hopeless. I couldn't even bring myself to take out the trash. It's like emotional whiplash. I know I increased the dose less than a week ago so maybe I am getting used to it still. Or maybe this is a placebo effect thing, but I tend to have effects from meds pretty quickly. My psychiatrist said to call if I feel off so maybe I will.

On a positive note, while feeling better I took a lovely hike and saw some autumn leaves and pretty lake. Also caught up with a friend from a distance and carved pumpkins.

Hope you are all doing well. I'll try to catch up soon.

Hey, YF. Been on Wellbutrin mostly since 2007. I have never experienced what you describe. Might want to check in with that pdoc maybe.

It was virtual Scrabble club night in my city. I made a serious effort to chat and try and have a good time. It was a success! I had several laughs and got closer to the one woman who i seem to hit it off with. I feel healthier and more confident and optimistic.

In the daytime i had some low-grade anxiety about the form my doctor has to fill out for my disability income. I don't want to bug them, but i really needed some news. So i phoned and it's still not done but he did get my message last week and will have it done by the deadline of October 30th. I also made arrangements for them to send me a copy thru the portal. The receptionist was pleasant and i felt better after i called. Darn it, but i just hate anxiety!

@Soupe du jour: Sorry to hear you hurt your ankle. I read this thread over more closely and saw that you had already come up with my suggestion re lying low. You had even discussed it with Fern. Don't know how i missed it, but sorry for being careless.

@yellow_fleurs: Your hike sounds wonderful. Seeing the lake must have been fantastic. I'm really missing out this Fall. I haven't made an effort to enjoy it and it's going to be over soon. My Scrabble friend is a nature photographer so i've been enjoying it thru her eyes in the photos she posts on Facebook, but it's not the same.

Hugs to all who struggle!

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Must pick up N3 and S at the movies around 9 or 930. I'll be tired when I get back! I did get a shower so I feel refreshed.

I didn't pick them up until 9:45 and I didn't get home until 10:30 after dropping them off. I'm tired but I'm not ready to go to sleep. I don't want to sit on this couch anymore, but there's nothing to do online on my phone. I'd read, but then my light would be on and I'd have to get up and turn it off! Maybe I can move the light. I really need some end tables for my bedroom. I'm just feeling cheap. I don't want to spend all my extra money. Maybe I just need to give it up and go to sleep....

[Soupe du jour]

Whatever2013, thanks. Laying low is best for me. I also asked Hubby to take over some of the calls and management of services. I am not the best person to talk to.

Bpcyclist, I might add another Seroquel PRN. I woke up at midnight in a sweat with the feeling that my heart was racing. I took my blood pressure and it was an amazing 102/66 with 77 bpm. I know you're a little skeptical about home blood pressure monitors, but mine hadn't been that low for years. Is it because I just woke up at midnight? Or could that blood pressure medication really be helping so quickly? Or other? I'd think that if it was mostly related to what's in my head, it would be higher not lower. Weird!

I need my PRN on my bedside table, but it's not. I don't feel up to getting up and walking to the hallway. My ankle is still not so good. Hubby is not here. He is somewhere else in the house clearing stuff out. [I heard the garage door opening.] If I call loudly, he'll think there is an emergency, which there isn't. I need water, too. Maybe I will try to do a relaxation technique.

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by whatever2013

It was virtual Scrabble club night in my city. I made a serious effort to chat and try and have a good time. It was a success! I had several laughs and got closer to the one woman who i seem to hit it off with. I feel healthier and more confident and optimistic.

In the daytime i had some low-grade anxiety about the form my doctor has to fill out for my disability income. I don't want to bug them, but i really needed some news. So i phoned and it's still not done but he did get my message last week and will have it done by the deadline of October 30th. I also made arrangements for them to send me a copy thru the portal. The receptionist was pleasant and i felt better after i called. Darn it, but i just hate anxiety!

@Soupe du jour: Sorry to hear you hurt your ankle. I read this thread over more closely and saw that you had already come up with my suggestion re lying low. You had even discussed it with Fern. Don't know how i missed it, but sorry for being careless.

@yellow_fleurs: Your hike sounds wonderful. Seeing the lake must have been fantastic. I'm really missing out this Fall. I haven't made an effort to enjoy it and it's going to be over soon. My Scrabble friend is a nature photographer so i've been enjoying it thru her eyes in the photos she posts on Facebook, but it's not the same.

Hugs to all who struggle!

I am so happy to hear Scrabble went well, Whatever. That put a big smile on my face. Yay!

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by Soupe du jour

Whatever2013, thanks. Laying low is best for me. I also asked Hubby to take over some of the calls and management of services. I am not the best person to talk to.

Bpcyclist, I might add another Seroquel PRN. I woke up at midnight in a sweat with the feeling that my heart was racing. I took my blood pressure and it was an amazing 102/66 with 77 bpm. I know you're a little skeptical about home blood pressure monitors, but mine hadn't been that low for years. Is it because I just woke up at midnight? Or could that blood pressure medication really be helping so quickly? Or other? I'd think that if it was mostly related to what's in my head, it would be higher not lower. Weird!

I need my PRN on my bedside table, but it's not. I don't feel up to getting up and walking to the hallway. My ankle is still not so good. Hubby is not here. He is somewhere else in the house clearing stuff out. [I heard the garage door opening.] If I call loudly, he'll think there is an emergency, which there isn't. I need water, too. Maybe I will try to do a relaxation technique.

Yeah.. Okay. You are doing a great job, Soupe. Proud of you. Here for you always and forever.

Pressures fall over night, usually. Also, that med could definitely be helping a bit. I do totally relate to that bp fear when I am racing and manic that I must be hypertensive, but that is not always the case.

I do like the extra Seroquel idea. I do think you prolly need it to shut the lid on this thing now. Today. Right now. We just cannot have you going IP right now.

We have all been there, Soupe. I was totally manic just last week. You are bravely and responsibly facing your illness. You are my hero. Hugs! Be careful. No major decisions. Seroquel. K?

Check with you later.

[daladico]

Day 7 complete med change:

Pdoc increased my new antipsychotic yesterday (actually doubled the dosage), and I can totally tell it’s working! Crazy how fast it can kick in! Feeling good but no longer super amped up like yesterday 😂

Andddd I’ve lost 5lb since decreasing my prior antipsychotic a week ago 😱🙌 the old antipsychotic made me feel hungry ALL the FREAKIN time... it’s wonderful to not have that right now!

Feeling really hopeful that this new combo will continue keeping me more stable (/not constantly cycle) with less side effects ✨

Thinking about you guys & sending out good thoughts to you 💛

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by bpcyclist

I am so sorry, Beth. I had no idea Lamictal could be so problematic. Do you think it is worth all the trouble?

Hugs and love!

I've have to get through the withdrawal because I was having dystonia and tremor of my jaw and arms. A super drag. Both have improved since decreasing Lamictal. Maybe my body will have adjusted to the lower dose by today.
x fingers crossed X
Hugs and love to you, too

[Soupe du jour]

I'm having great difficulty walking because of my ankle. I was mostly useless this morning and last night with final preparations for the carpet installers. They are here now. Hubby had to run a long errand. I don't like being home alone. I don't mean that I'm afraid of the carpet installers, just unhappy that I may have to manage something at some point and just ill at ease because of the noise. Apparently they are just throwing the old carpet out of our windows, from the second floor. I don't know why workers do this. Laziness? It can easily damage stuff (windows, roofing, gutters, siding). I also gave one of the guys a firm warning that our neighbor's 4 year old daughter often walks around in our front area, unattended. Her frequent curiosity may inspire that even more. It would be HORRIBLE or even tragic if they hurt her!

Update: I just hobbled to the front door and saw that they put a whole bunch of old carpeting and padding on our neighbor's side of the garden (even on flowers) that we share with them. I had to ask them to move it from there and not put any more there. I showed the property line. I also warned the other worker about the little girl. Good grief! I'm sort of transitioning to the point where I almost want to cry.

I just heard the little girl and rushed (to my best ability) to tell her to stay far away. That it is dangerous.

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by daladico

Day 7 complete med change:

Pdoc increased my new antipsychotic yesterday (actually doubled the dosage), and I can totally tell it’s working! Crazy how fast it can kick in! Feeling good but no longer super amped up like yesterday 😂

Andddd I’ve lost 5lb since decreasing my prior antipsychotic a week ago 😱🙌 the old antipsychotic made me feel hungry ALL the FREAKIN time... it’s wonderful to not have that right now!

Feeling really hopeful that this new combo will continue keeping me more stable (/not constantly cycle) with less side effects ✨

Thinking about you guys & sending out good thoughts to you 💛

Have you ever kept a mood chart? Might be a decent idea for yiu to help keep an eye on your lability stuff. I do it every day. Keep notes. I think it helps me. Hugs.

[daladico]

Originally Posted by bpcyclist

Have you ever kept a mood chart? Might be a decent idea for yiu to help keep an eye on your lability stuff. I do it every day. Keep notes. I think it helps me. Hugs.

Yes I kept a mood chart for many months when I was first diagnosed and it really helped! I now log it all directly in my daily planner, as it got to be too much having it separate for me- I find I’m more consistent with it in the planner. logging moods & keeping track of med changes is so worth it!

[Mountaindewed]

I am so ****ing depressed I think I’m scaring my mom. I feel just so dead inside. I can’t eat anything I’m losing weight I just feel mentally and physically drained. All this talk about the vaccines for Covid getting ****ed up and people dying from them and then all the election crap is just really really taking a toll on my mental health and I am truly concerned for myself. Post op depression is real.

[Fuzzybear]

Someone posted in one of my threads..
If I have not seen it, (or heard it) it does not exist for me.
Still working on that
And it makes me think of the 3 mean monkeys, in the ‘’family’’ of origin, so Great at Denial . They were only able to notice “bad” things about me.. none of the good

[Fuzzybear]

now it’s Feeding Time in our cave
it’s time for some Fun

At six o’clock their mummies and daddies will take them home to bed
Because they’re tired little teddy bears

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by daladico

Yes I kept a mood chart for many months when I was first diagnosed and it really helped! I now log it all directly in my daily planner, as it got to be too much having it separate for me- I find I’m more consistent with it in the planner. logging moods & keeping track of med changes is so worth it!

What does the curve look like the last threeish days, say?

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

I am so ****ing depressed I think I’m scaring my mom. I feel just so dead inside. I can’t eat anything I’m losing weight I just feel mentally and physically drained. All this talk about the vaccines for Covid getting ****ed up and people dying from them and then all the election crap is just really really taking a toll on my mental health and I am truly concerned for myself. Post op depression is real.

Have you phoned your pdoc to tell them this yet? Please do so now, if not already done. Hugs.

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

Someone posted in one of my threads..
If I have not seen it, (or heard it) it does not exist for me.
Still working on that
And it makes me think of the 3 mean monkeys, in the ‘’family’’ of origin, so Great at Denial . They were only able to notice “bad” things about me.. none of the good

I honestly cannot come up with a single bad thing about Fuzzy. Not one. Yay!

[MuddyBoots]

Originally Posted by bpcyclist

I honestly cannot come up with a single bad thing about Fuzzy. Not one. Yay!

Me either Fuzzy is the best!

[*Beth*]

FUZZY!!!

[MuddyBoots]

Okay now I’m strongly believing it was the tegretol that was making me have all those crazy emotions. Ive been charting my moods and since I stopped it the chart is looking much better and I’ve only had to note voices a couple times instead of the notes section being full of ridiculousness. I mean, there are still mood swings but it’s not going from 0-10 and back every 30 minutes. Definitely something I need to remember to tell my new pnurse next week