[MuddyBoots]

Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

Yeah I just took a shower and there’s like this grayish goop stuff coming out and it’s all red and looks weird. My temp is 98.7. One degree above normal but I’ve been like 97.2 for the past week. I think I’ll go to the doctor tomorrow.

Just letting you know I had a benign tumor removed and after the surgery had grayish goop present too. Doc said the wound was healing great so at least that part is normal. I would be concerned about the redness however. Do go to the doctor though, if somethings wrong you caught him it early and if everything is good you have your worries eased.
I hope the rest of your recovery goes smoothly.

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

I feel a lot better mental health wise today. I was able to use my weighted blanket this morning for a couple hours and it helped my anxiety tremendously. My depression is still bad but the anxiety was what was getting to me. My pain still sucks and I still don’t know if I’m healing right. I keep getting these sharp shooting pains and it hurts to touch it. It’s tough not knowing if you’re going to end up in the psych hospital or in surgery. But I think I’m ok mental health wise I can deal with the depression. The physical stuff is concerning though.

Hang in there, MD. We are here for you!

[Soupe du jour]

I'm a bit stunned.

My psychiatrist emailed me yesterday increasing my base Seroquel XR dose to 700 mg, plus any needed PRN iR. Then a few minutes ago, I see an email from him at 4:30 pm today saying that he thought about my response yesterday, where I then told him about my second recent fall down the stairs, and subsequent injury. He told me to reduce my Tegretol XR by half, that my levels may be too high. Half is 600 mg (I took 1,200 mg). That's a huge quick reduction, I think!

I have blamed Tegretol (carbamazepine) for my past clumsiness a lot, but lived with it because of what it did for me years back. Namely, stopped a long bout of musical hallucinations and disconcerting symptoms that seemed seizure-like. I sure hope they don't return!

I'm obviously a little nervous about the reduction.

I meet with my psychiatrist this Wednesday via video appointment.

I have read that often as Seroquel doses go up, Tegretol levels can go up, too. Oddly, as Tegretol doses go down, the therapeutic worth of Seroquel as a moodstabilizer/antipsychotic often goes up (not down) . The two are not often prescribed together for those reasons, though some, like me, do take them together.

It is possible that my Tegretol level is too high, but I haven't suspected that because I haven't had double vision (diplopia). In the past, I usually experienced that when my Tegretol level was high.

[*Beth*]

Soupe du jour

I would feel anxious about such a sudden, large med decrease, too. In my experience, falls really scare pdocs into taking quick action.

Hopefully, what yours is going for is the Tegretol decrease = increased Seroquel potency. I'm taking a wild guess that that is his plan, rather than just raising your Seroquel dose and causing more side-effects.

Nevertheless, it's a dramatic drop in Tegratol. I'm sure you'll know within a couple of days if the new dose works for you. Fingers crossed!

[Soupe du jour]

Originally Posted by BethRags

Soupe du jour

I would feel anxious about such a sudden, large med decrease, too. In my experience, falls really scare pdocs into taking quick action.

Hopefully, what yours is going for is the Tegretol decrease = increased Seroquel potency. I'm taking a wild guess that that is his plan, rather than just raising your Seroquel dose and causing more side-effects.

Nevertheless, it's a dramatic drop in Tegratol. I'm sure you'll know within a couple of days if the new dose works for you. Fingers crossed!

Thanks, BethRags! I think you are right on the money. We'll see what happens. It's just a little crazy everything that is happening in my life right now.

I will say that if I could get better potency from less Seroquel XR, this new super hunger that's been developing may ease. I know that you fully understand that bugger of a side effect.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Soupe du jour

Thanks, BethRags! I think you are right on the money. We'll see what happens. It's just a little crazy everything that is happening in my life right now.

I will say that if I could get better potency from less Seroquel XR, this new super hunger that's been developing may ease. I know that you fully understand that bugger of a side effect.

Miserably understand it, yes. I think it was Christina who said the AP hunger made even her couch look like it might taste good

[Moose72]

I had the lasagna for dinner. I had 1/4 of the whole lasagna and put the other three quarters in three plastic containers that just were the right size. It's 8:00. I didn't wake up until 12-something today. Why do I sleep so late? What time did I go to sleep? After midnight. I have an alarm set for tomorrow. We'll see if that helps. Didn't set off the smoke alarm. However, my new cookie sheet/baking sheet has the black imprints of two square waffles from yesterday. Tried washing it- no deal. It's non-stick. Watching the Jack Benny show. Jimmy Stuart is the guest star. He looks sort of middle-aged. In an earlier episode, Wayne Newton was the guest star. He said something about his speaking voice, which was very high. Then he went on to sing two songs, both of which sounded just like a woman! His face looked awfully smooth so I wondered if he were a castrato. Or at least, a natural one. Very strange! I'm not sure what year this was, but the Jack Benny show seems to be from the '60's. I looked it up; it's from 1964. Wayne Newton - Wikipedia Apparently, he had children.

[*Beth*]

So our weather took a sudden turn from stuffy-warm to real autumn chill and wildly windy. I am so grateful for the cooler weather, but the sunlight is lower and the usual feeling of dread/gloom/grief/loss (I guess it's depression? But it feels like vicious anxiety, too) has crept in a bit today. It's by no means really bad, yet. I can handle it, at this point. This year will be especially challenging because of not seeing my pdoc and T f2f. Oh, well...back to "telemedicine is better than nothing."

I miss my children, they're so into their own lives - which is wonderful! - it's just that I miss them. And I sure don't see any grandchildren coming along. With the exception of my older sister and my BIL all the older people in my family are dead. It's at this time of year that the losses feel acutely present.

Anyway. I could ramble on. Off to watch the World Series.

[Sunflower123]

Checking in. The Sonata worked the first night. Some residual drowsiness but nothing I can’t handle.

I’ve been in a 3 day Dreambuilders workshop designing a life I would love to live and it was really clear to me that among other things I want to live in the same city as my daughter. It looks like a move might be in my future. I like the thought of a fresh start and being close to the mountains. It might be just what the doctor ordered.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

Checking in. The Sonata worked the first night. Some residual drowsiness but nothing I can’t handle.

I’ve been in a 3 day Dreambuilders workshop designing a life I would love to live and it was really clear to me that among other things I want to live in the same city as my daughter. It looks like a move might be in my future. I like the thought of a fresh start and being close to the mountains. It might be just what the doctor ordered.

Wow! That's great! Its a huge step but I know you can do it.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

Checking in. The Sonata worked the first night. Some residual drowsiness but nothing I can’t handle.

I’ve been in a 3 day Dreambuilders workshop designing a life I would love to live and it was really clear to me that among other things I want to live in the same city as my daughter. It looks like a move might be in my future. I like the thought of a fresh start and being close to the mountains. It might be just what the doctor ordered.

The possibility of a move to be near your daughter sounds wonderful.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Moose72

I had the lasagna for dinner. I had 1/4 of the whole lasagna and put the other three quarters in three plastic containers that just were the right size. It's 8:00. I didn't wake up until 12-something today. Why do I sleep so late? What time did I go to sleep? After midnight. I have an alarm set for tomorrow. We'll see if that helps. Didn't set off the smoke alarm. However, my new cookie sheet/baking sheet has the black imprints of two square waffles from yesterday. Tried washing it- no deal. It's non-stick. Watching the Jack Benny show. Jimmy Stuart is the guest star. He looks sort of middle-aged. In an earlier episode, Wayne Newton was the guest star. He said something about his speaking voice, which was very high. Then he went on to sing two songs, both of which sounded just like a woman! His face looked awfully smooth so I wondered if he were a castrato. Or at least, a natural one. Very strange! I'm not sure what year this was, but the Jack Benny show seems to be from the '60's. I looked it up; it's from 1964. Wayne Newton - Wikipedia Apparently, he had children.

Wow, I thought Wayne Newton was much older than he is...actually, I didn't even know he was still alive

[yellow_fleurs]

Hi everyone! I am doing okay. Feeling pretty decent again today. Wasn't too productive overall, but I did get in my ballot. I was waiting until my mind cleared up a bit and I had more energy because I didn't want to mess up the ballot (and also didn't feel able to drive). Also caught up with my partner and we watched a show together virtually. I did make dinner tonight which is something I am trying to be better about. I didn't get to do a hike this weekend since my toe was bothering me, but maybe I can get out this week. Also need to put socializing in safe way with a friend on my to-do list this week. Hope everyone has a great week!

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by yellow_fleurs

Hi everyone! I am doing okay. Feeling pretty decent again today. Wasn't too productive overall, but I did get in my ballot. I was waiting until my mind cleared up a bit and I had more energy because I didn't want to mess up the ballot (and also didn't feel able to drive). Also caught up with my partner and we watched a show together virtually. I did make dinner tonight which is something I am trying to be better about. I didn't get to do a hike this weekend since my toe was bothering me, but maybe I can get out this week. Also need to put socializing in safe way with a friend on my to-do list this week. Hope everyone has a great week!

Thanks for the update, yellow_fleurs. I'm happy you're feeling decent (good/ok) again today. It's always good to hear from you. You've brightened my day today

I hope you have a great week too

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Soupe du jour

@Fuzzybear, I'm with Daonnachd on this. You are blaming yourself far too much for other people's feelings/stress. Plus, everyone has nightmares from time to time. Even perfectly content people. Nightmares don't have to have causes.

FuzzyBear, I hope you don't mind me sharing a story from my youth. I thought of it after reading your and Daonnachd's posts. It is a true story. Here it is:

“When I was a child, my siblings passed blame on me for almost EVERYTHING. Sometimes (or occasionally often times) I was the culprit. Then one particular day, my mother came to me with an angry look and said “Did you do ‘such and such?!?!'”

To that I sighed, exasperated by the hundreds of accusations, and said “Mom…Ya know, if I did even HALF the number of things I’ve been accused of over the years, I must really be quite AMAAAAAAZING!” I think I was only 8 years old at that time.

I guess that exclamation rang true enough, and my mom began to laugh. And I began to laugh."


I think something quite similar applies in your case, except you seem to be the one often blaming yourself, versus others blaming you. Or if others also blame you for things, the exact same situation applies. Either way, FuzzyBear my friend, such extreme amounts of blame are just not warranted.

Thank you Soupe du jour, and thank you for sharing the true story from your youth.

I got thru the day somehow. I'm going to bed now so hopefully today is over. Just Monday and Tuesday to last thru before i get some news about my disability benefits. Sigh!

@Jennifer 1967: That sounds like a great plan, to move to be close to your daughter. A new start will be exciting! Your workshop was worth it, to clarify that for you. Way to go!

Hugs to all who suffer!

I just finished watching "the wall", a british game show which I have been watching and enjoying for a few weeks

now I am sat here with christmas music on and burping constantly (drinking too quickly again)

my main hope for today is to eat well. I didn't last night, the food was too dry.

so I hope tonight will be better.... maybe..

[Soupe du jour]

Our upcoming land lady contacted us about a couple of rug questions for the house we'll rent in Czech Republic. Honestly, having to think about the new house there is unwelcome given all still needed for our one in the US.

The dining room and living room flooring guys just arrived. With that installed, all flooring in our house will be ready, save some tile grout cleaning and a little re-caulking I want done in our bathrooms. We (I) will do that ourselves/myself in a couple of days, unless my foot/ankle prevents it. I heard Hubby talking to the guys. I know he likes them already as they pronounced his name in a way he likes. He seems to love how Spanish speakers pronounce it. Not exactly how Czechs do. Even nicer. The guy is even giving Hubby hugely good advice about a particular piece of furniture of ours. I said the same thing, but stubborn Hubby seems only convinced by him. In any case, thank you!

I skipped my morning dose of carbamazepine (Tegretol XR) per my psychiatrist's order. I do not expect any withdrawal effects for at least a couple days. Hopefully not even then.

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by Soupe du jour

I'm a bit stunned.

My psychiatrist emailed me yesterday increasing my base Seroquel XR dose to 700 mg, plus any needed PRN iR. Then a few minutes ago, I see an email from him at 4:30 pm today saying that he thought about my response yesterday, where I then told him about my second recent fall down the stairs, and subsequent injury. He told me to reduce my Tegretol XR by half, that my levels may be too high. Half is 600 mg (I took 1,200 mg). That's a huge quick reduction, I think!

I have blamed Tegretol (carbamazepine) for my past clumsiness a lot, but lived with it because of what it did for me years back. Namely, stopped a long bout of musical hallucinations and disconcerting symptoms that seemed seizure-like. I sure hope they don't return!

I'm obviously a little nervous about the reduction.

I meet with my psychiatrist this Wednesday via video appointment.

I have read that often as Seroquel doses go up, Tegretol levels can go up, too. Oddly, as Tegretol doses go down, the therapeutic worth of Seroquel as a moodstabilizer/antipsychotic often goes up (not down) . The two are not often prescribed together for those reasons, though some, like me, do take them together.

It is possible that my Tegretol level is too high, but I haven't suspected that because I haven't had double vision (diplopia). In the past, I usually experienced that when my Tegretol level was high.

Are you feeling okay this morning, Soupe? How is your balance right now?

Thinking of you. I have vertigo. It puts me on the ground. Hugs!! Be careful, please.

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by BethRags

Miserably understand it, yes. I think it was Christina who said the AP hunger made even her couch look like it might taste good

I once ate an entire lemon cake after a big run once on Zyprexa. Yum!!