[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by Moose72

I just got an email from the apartment complex saying that there was "police presence" in the complex and they'll give information when they know more. I thought I heard gun shots! That was more normal in my old neighborhood! Once, I saw police outside an apartment in the same building as mine-lots of police cars- with a man with no shirt on with an assault rifle over his shoulder. Anyway, I would've thought that this place wouldn't have those types of problems. At least the complex is admitting it and dealing with it! I've been home except for around noon when I went out to get some Tim Horton's coffee and then later when I took the trash out. I had the TV on when I heard the gun shots so I turned it off, but I didn't hear them anymore.

Stay safe, Moose!

[yellow_fleurs]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

I am like a sloth today.. Everything is taking forever... But really why does it matter ? there is no place I need to be.

I started watching the TV show "House" last night I have the boxed set. Its a huge distraction, Feels like the whole world is on fire... literally and people raging against each other.. It costs nothing to be kind. Anytime I have to go out for groceries or meds etc I try to compliment 5 people. Everyone is stressed beyond measure and telling someone that I love there hair, Or a shirt, I allow people with kids or the elderly go in front of me checking out. Since most of us wear masks , people cant always see us smile at them so we need to be vocal. Last week I picked up a med and my Pharmacist has big beautiful bright blue eyes, I complimented her.. She said I made her day..

Small acts of kindness

I love that you do that. I am sure people can really use the kindness right now.

[yellow_fleurs]

Hi all! Doing okay today, although it does feel like someone replaced my brain with cotton sometime between yesterday and today and I feel slowed down. Also feeling generally achy again. Not sure if this is medication related or what, but wish my body and mind would decide if it likes this new medication or not.

I had a good therapy session today with the new therapist I am seeing for OCD. Although, she is also helping me with the depression a bit. She's good at helping me come up with things I can do and it seems like more of an action oriented type of therapy than I was doing previously which I think is good for me right now because I tend to get stuck in my head a lot.

Sending compassion to everyone.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

I am like a sloth today.. Everything is taking forever... But really why does it matter ? there is no place I need to be.

I started watching the TV show "House" last night I have the boxed set. Its a huge distraction, Feels like the whole world is on fire... literally and people raging against each other.. It costs nothing to be kind. Anytime I have to go out for groceries or meds etc I try to compliment 5 people. Everyone is stressed beyond measure and telling someone that I love there hair, Or a shirt, I allow people with kids or the elderly go in front of me checking out. Since most of us wear masks , people cant always see us smile at them so we need to be vocal. Last week I picked up a med and my Pharmacist has big beautiful bright blue eyes, I complimented her.. She said I made her day..

Small acts of kindness

That’s fantastic! I do small acts of kindness but I could be doing a whole lot more to do my part in healing the world during a troublesome time. Thank you for reminding me.

[Soupe du jour]

Anyone with a spouse, partner, or other roommate get frustrated when you want to start the day, but they are still sleeping or otherwise doing little? I'm experiencing this right now. Normally, I would get up anyway and start charging into things, but I can't so much because of my ankle. Oh gosh! An injured ankle is so disabling!

Our floors downstairs look good, all but some tape on caulk the installers said to keep on for two days. Stuff will be moved back in place there today, but we must wait until my husband's friend comes to help. I don't know when that will be. We need to send the stager photos of these rooms quickly after. We already sent her photos of the upstairs rooms.

My house is totally made over. The money it has required must be recouped along with profit! Must! I want us to fetch at least what the other similar houses are selling for, including ones with a so-called finished basement. Ours is not.

My husband sent the window/glass company a strongly worded email yesterday. They have been problematic, blowing us off way too long. Yesterday Hubby did a video walk through with the moving company price estimator. Pre-covid they would have come to our house in person. Tomorrow we have a deep cleaning crew coming, so the house must be ready for them. The day after, we go to my husband's eye appointment in Philly, which we'll combine with seeking two offers for my grandpop's guitar. Then the day after is the staging and final photography. By sometime next week, the ads may be up and the open house scheduled. But the windows likely won't yet be repaired. That burns me up!

The other day, I created a long list of special selling points for our house. I know the realtor does this, but I don't want her to miss any. I used to do marketing content writing, so confess a compulsion to do so. I only just created bullet points.

I'm suddenly feeling confused about my medications. I need to fill my pill boxes. Did I take the carbamazepine yesterday morning or night? Am I still supposed to take 50 mg Seroquel XR in the morning (plus any PRNs) but now 700 mg XR at night? Or did he mean for me to eliminate the 50 mg XR in the morning, but just take IRs as PRNs?

[MuddyBoots]

I hate my new pnurse. Just had an extremely stressful call with her because she’s “worried about my safety” when I’m doing better than I have been in years. She thinks she’s a therapist. Just send the scripts over and leave me alone. And she still wants me to take seroquel in the afternoon, when I haven’t been and am DOING FINE. I don’t need all these meds with no benefits and tons of side effects shoved down my throat.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Soupe du jour

Anyone with a spouse, partner, or other roommate get frustrated when you want to start the day, but they are still sleeping or otherwise doing little? ...

Yes. That's one of the reasons my husband and I don't live in the same house.

With regard to your medication, it sounds like you definitely need to consult your pdoc.

emotionally, I have not had a very good day- mainly because I spent most of it, sat on my bed, watching tv doing absolutely nothing (that, and eating roast
chicken potato chips) so another day gone, another day wasted.

physically, my day's been okay. my body's been actually been behaving (I have pain in my back and legs) but this is mormal for me anyway

[Gabyunbound]

Hi everyone

I'm a healthcare worker and have been doing telehealth since COVID. Now we're going back to the hospital as of Monday. We have a small office, so only so many people can be back at work on any given day, so I'll probably only be there about twice a week (still haven't gotten my schedule) and the rest of the days continue to do telehealth.

I'm nervous. For various reasons. One is that I've gotten very comfortable working from home, it's safe and cozy; changing my routines is very hard for me. Another is that I HATE driving and will have to go back to doing so, and in rush hour. And third, cases have and are still increasing in my state, as they are in so many others, and I'm afraid of a surge overwhelming the hospital. Which leads me to the fact that I'm afraid of getting COVID.

We're taking all kinds of precautions, including wearing surgical masks in the office, in the halls, and with patients, in other words all the time, and eye protection with all patients as well. I was feeling fairly safe about this until this latest surge. As far as the ED (we work all over the hospital, it's a long story explaining what I do), you don't know what they're coming in with until they're sitting in front of you in triage. I really admire those who work in Emergency Departments; they are, truly, on the front lines. Everywhere else in the hospital, at least you know what you're dealing with from the outset.

So I'm anxious about for all sorts of reasons. The positive, is that I will once again have in-person contact with patients and other providers, and I have missed that.

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by Sapien

I hate my new pnurse. Just had an extremely stressful call with her because she’s “worried about my safety” when I’m doing better than I have been in years. She thinks she’s a therapist. Just send the scripts over and leave me alone. And she still wants me to take seroquel in the afternoon, when I haven’t been and am DOING FINE. I don’t need all these meds with no benefits and tons of side effects shoved down my throat.

You sound a bit agitated, Sapien. Are yo feeling irritable or agitated possibly? I am just musing about a teensy mixed stuff maybe. Like a touch of. Like, maybe, sorta, kinda, dysphoric mania maybe stuff or something. What do you think?

[MuddyBoots]

Originally Posted by bpcyclist

You sound a bit agitated, Sapien. Are yo feeling irritable or agitated possibly? I am just musing about a teensy mixed stuff maybe. Like a touch of. Like, maybe, sorta, kinda, dysphoric mania maybe stuff or something. What do you think?

Thanks for the input! I am a bit irritable, but I don’t think I’m necessarily mixed/manic. Just frustrated. I will keep an eye on it though to be safe.

[Moose72]

My bathroom smells like cleaning chemicals. So does downstairs near the laundry room.

I paid my gas and electric bill today and it was 1/3 of what it used to be!

I'm watching "The Help" on Netflix.

[Mountaindewed]

I saw my Pdoc today. First in person session in 8 months. Man did I spill my guts. About going off and then on my Wellbutrin. The melatonin. The SI. How scared shitless I am about the election. How I don’t think the US can survive another 4 years of Trump. How ****ing scared I am it’s the end of the world. The scary stuff I read about herd immunity. How messed up emotionally and physically my surgery made me. How I feel that at times my chest still looks feminine. I don’t think I’ve been that honest or talked with him like that before. I haven’t even been honest like that with my therapist lately.

So he’s taking me off my topamax and the Wellbutrin. Putting me on something that starts with an M that helps with moods and sleep. Forget the name. And extended release Xanax. I thought it went very well though.

[Soupe du jour]

Moose, great news about the gas/electric bill! I hope that in the new place you can save enough to treat yourself to more things. We all need to!

Mountaindewed, the majority of the nation is scared, with just the exception of a small group of very misled people, and some that just don't care or pay attention enough. I hope that as you heal from your procedure, the situation feels much more right and comfortable.

Sapien, sending hugs.

[Soupe du jour]

I don't like arguing with my husband, and especially not in front of others. [His friend is here.] But he is a jerk sometimes. I sent a text to the stager saying one thing, then a few minutes ago he says "She's not going to use my art!" Well, in my text to her, I implied that she could. Now I'm in a position where I've misled her because Hubby suddenly vetoed the idea. This is far far from the first time. He can get so stubborn and unaccommodating! Almost like a big baby!

It was nice that Hubby went to the grocery store earlier. I wasn't up to it with my ankle, plus it was nice to be alone for a bit. I know that in Czech Republic I will need to find "alone time". He'll likely still be home most of the time, plus I realize I will depend on him a lot in the beginning, because of the language issue.

A couple weeks back, my psychiatrist basically ordered me to talk to my therapist about having a "family meeting". Well, I talked to her and specifically mentioned pdoc's order. In the end, predictably, she pretty much agreed with my thoughts on the situation. That there's nothing much more to say. She asked me a few questions, the answers of which were things I've mentioned several times. I'm not saying that she doesn't listen, but I think she's at a loss for how to guide me through this stressful period. I mentioned that my mood had been elevated enough for some notable med changes by pdoc. Her response, which is common from her, is "The last time we talked [meaning 6 weeks ago] you seemed pretty stable to me." Umm, so what was I supposed to say to that? Everything has actually been peachy keen and I'm lying to you about it all? This is a major reason why I do not seek her when having psych issues. I instead contact my psychiatrist. He knows me. She really doesn't, and there's no sense working on her getting to know me given my forthcoming departure. She doesn't "get it"! Plus, when I have sought her in between sessions, she always says she doesn't have time to fit me in. My psychiatrist always does.

The stager just responded to my text. I asked that my husband now be the main contact, that I am stepping back a bit. By the way, I am doing much better today than I had been. I guess the med changes have helped.

[*Beth*]

I'm getting awfully jumpy about the election, too. Trying to keep it level, take a 1/2 day at a time, and remember to breathe well, not hyperventilate.

Something happened, I can't recall what it was, and my therapist said I'm just a touch manic. Actually, I feel good mentally/emotionally, but my physical self is being a bit weird in that my mind is racing, a lot of tumbling thoughts, some sounds. And of course, the usual music. Yesterday I was talking with my husband and I felt like I was babbling on, couldn't seem to stop talking. I so dislike when that happens. I think I sound unhinged. Normally, I'm a good listener and that's how I feel most comfortable.

The weather is gorgeous, mid-70's. 2 major wildfires in SoCal, though. If we have anyone down south, check in & let us know how you are (LaLaLand...are you out there)?

[wildflowerchild25]

Definitely way behind on thus thread. Nothing much to say on my end, except I am fed up to HERE (imagine my hand at my forehead) with my son. He just DOESN’T LISTEN. I truly think he has adhd. So much so that I have set up an evaluation with his pediatrician. I know it will go nowhere, though, because he is not having problems in school. However, this year is like no other. He’s remote three days a week. During remote learning he is usually online for maybe half an hour, then sets off to finish his work on his own until the next class starts. Because he is so smart he finishes quickly, so he ends up having plenty of downtime. The absolute ideal situation for a child with ADHD not being required to sit and be concentrating for long periods of time. His in person days are the same because it has to remain consistent with the remote learning schedule. So in school he gets plenty of time to relax, chat with his friends, etc.

But at home...I mean it’s constant. Forgetting, losing things, distracted constantly unless I’m on top of him directing him, forgetting things we’ve said a million times. I can look directly at him and speak making eye contact and he can’t tell me what I just said. It’s not an attitude problem (though he has plenty of that too). It’s like he just functions differently from other kids. His brain is different.

Like when he doesn’t listen, which expresses itself as me telling him not to do something, him saying ok, and then doing it again a few minutes later...I know he’s not doing it to be a jerk. He literally forgot that fast.

So, I’m starting at the pediatrician, but because I’m not considering medication until/if it starts affecting him at school, I’m really just looking for a family therapist who specializes in adhd who can help us with his behaviors at home. I found a lot of good ideas on the internet but I myself am overwhelmed at the prospect of implementing them.

So the first thing I am going to do is set up a routine/schedule chart. I’m going to figure out what morning, afternoon, and evening routine should look like. I am going to give him a couple of essential chores that need to be done every day, such as putting his clothes in the laundry bin and picking up his toys from the floor. I think this will be a good start. Ease into it. I will also implement a reward system of some sort. I think a $10 apple gift card will be good, because I never let him buy games or add ons but he can if he has a gift card.

I’m going to try.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Soupe du jour

Moose, great news about the gas/electric bill! I hope that in the new place you can save enough to treat yourself to more things. We all need to!

I am hoping that having to pay for sewer and trash in addition to water won't be MORE than what I'm saving on gas an electric. I've never had a sewer and trash bill before.

[Soupe du jour]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

Definitely way behind on thus thread. Nothing much to say on my end, except I am fed up to HERE (imagine my hand at my forehead) with my son. He just DOESN’T LISTEN. I truly think he has adhd. So much so that I have set up an evaluation with his pediatrician. I know it will go nowhere, though, because he is not having problems in school. However, this year is like no other. He’s remote three days a week. During remote learning he is usually online for maybe half an hour, then sets off to finish his work on his own until the next class starts. Because he is so smart he finishes quickly, so he ends up having plenty of downtime. The absolute ideal situation for a child with ADHD not being required to sit and be concentrating for long periods of time. His in person days are the same because it has to remain consistent with the remote learning schedule. So in school he gets plenty of time to relax, chat with his friends, etc.

But at home...I mean it’s constant. Forgetting, losing things, distracted constantly unless I’m on top of him directing him, forgetting things we’ve said a million times. I can look directly at him and speak making eye contact and he can’t tell me what I just said. It’s not an attitude problem (though he has plenty of that too). It’s like he just functions differently from other kids. His brain is different.

Like when he doesn’t listen, which expresses itself as me telling him not to do something, him saying ok, and then doing it again a few minutes later...I know he’s not doing it to be a jerk. He literally forgot that fast.

So, I’m starting at the pediatrician, but because I’m not considering medication until/if it starts affecting him at school, I’m really just looking for a family therapist who specializes in adhd who can help us with his behaviors at home. I found a lot of good ideas on the internet but I myself am overwhelmed at the prospect of implementing them.

So the first thing I am going to do is set up a routine/schedule chart. I’m going to figure out what morning, afternoon, and evening routine should look like. I am going to give him a couple of essential chores that need to be done every day, such as putting his clothes in the laundry bin and picking up his toys from the floor. I think this will be a good start. Ease into it. I will also implement a reward system of some sort. I think a $10 apple gift card will be good, because I never let him buy games or add ons but he can if he has a gift card.

I’m going to try.

Wildflowerchild, I hope your son doesn't have ADHD or ADD. My husband has ADD and it is problematic for him. Was in his school years and is at his job. But I confess that some of what you described sounded a lot like normal kid. Or at least what I viewed as normal kid behavior for me. I am not a mother, so you can fault me about that in not knowing "kids of today" (or a mother's perspective), but I used to be a kid, so I have a little experience, albeit in the 1970s and 1980s. I realize 2020 is a whole other animal.

Please do be careful to be certain about any psych diagnoses for your child. Adderall or Ritalin, or the like, should be used only under extreme circumstances, in my book. Please also don't let your own stress incorrectly color your perception of your child's behavior. I also don't think there is any one "normal" behavior. What is your son's personality like?

How are the wedding plans going?

I checked in with my doctor and he still has not done my form. Reception said they will let him know i asked again. He doesn't work Fridays so he's only got two days to get to it. Tomorrow is payday so i'll know something has gone wrong already if i am not paid. Feeling anxiety but there's nothing i can do. I tried to play Scrabble but i am so upset i made a huge mistake. I'll listen to music.

@wildflowerchild25: It must be so hard to be a parent! It sounds like you are doing all the right things tho. You're being conscientious and responsible. You are doing your best and that's all you can do.

@Soupe du jour: Sorry to hear your therapist was so disappointing. At least you'll get to leave her behind. Glad you're feeling a bit better and that you've handed business with the stager over to your husband. Probably for the best. Hope you continue to improve.

@Moose72: Glad to hear about your savings on your bill and hope it covers the new bill. I foresee a day when we will all have to pay for our garbage by weight, due to the environmental crisis.

Hugs to all who suffer!