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Grand Magnate
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Location: Milky Way
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#701
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__________________ Bipolar 1 with psychotic features PTSD "Phew! For a minute there I lost myself." 'Karma Police' by Radiohead |
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Member Since Jul 2019
Location: Downtown Vibes, California
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#702
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Ugh, I'm so sorry, Christina. The clinic I go to started out with an option for either phone or internet sessions (T and pdoc). Two months in it was either internet or nothing. Same reason - phone sessions didn't pull in enough revenue. I am able to do telehealth (it works most of the time ), but I wonder what happened to the people who couldn't? I guess they just got dropped. It's horrible. What will you do? __________________ |
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Silver Swan
Member Since Jan 2008
Location: USA
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#703
I bought chicken wings at the grocery store today. Wanted to make hot wings. So when I got home, I set them out for 20 minutes to warm. Turned on the oven to preheat and waited. I cut the wings in half into the drumstick and "wing" portions and baked them. Then after 45 minutes they were done so I dunked them in buffalo sauce and put them back in the oven on broil. The smoke alarm started going off so I got on the step ladder and blew on the sensor which stopped the alarm from going off. BUT, it would just go off again and again. Then I took the chicken out of the oven and it had burned! Alarm still going off. I opened the balcony door and took the chicken outside. I got out both fans and blew one in by the door and the other blowing out in the window. I ate the chicken and when I came back in the heat had turned on because it got so cold in here. It was about 50 degrees out. I put a coat on and sat outside and ate the chicken wings. Meanwhile, the apartment had cooled down so the heat turned on. I cleaned up the dishes and the air was clean enough that the alarm didn't go off again. How am I supposed to cook if when I turn the oven on the smoke detector goes off? Its not that there is anything burning in there (except the chicken wings!- they were cooked perfectly except the burned part).
I tried to get N1 to come over here and get her mail that I have for her but she never showed up. Didn't call or anything. No call no show. Meh. Now I'm freshly showered and in pajamas. Gotta do laundry tomorrow. Friday, I need to pay the rent. I just paid the rent! But that was for October and when I pay November's I'll be caught up. I also need to pay my credit card on the 4th. I used it to pay my gas and electric bill so I won't have to pay it for another month. I still have to pay my internet bill. That's more expensive than my gas/electric now that I'm in a smaller place! I hope I can use the money I'm saving well. __________________ Wellbutrin XL 300 mg Caplyta 42 mg Ingrezza 80 mg Ativan .5 mg 2x/day Propranolol 20 mg 2x/day Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) Mania (April/May 2019) |
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#704
My doctor did my disability form! I just have to phone the insurance company to make sure they got it (fax). So this whole dreadful episode is virtually over. One good thing that came out of it is that i reviewed my finances and learned a lot and developed a better savings strategy. I like crunching numbers!
@Blue_Bird: Glad to hear you sounding so positive! Your Halloween celebration sounds like it was fun. I guess that's the advantage of living in supportive housing. Tho we have a Christmas party and Summer BBQ here at my condo building. Happy to hear you are looking forward to the holidays. I like Christmas jazz music. @Moose72: Sorry to hear of the issues with the fire alarm going off. Do you think cleaning your oven would help? @Wander: Yes, it's unfortunate that the psychiatrists are so eager for us to be on benzos. Makes one wonder if they're in bed with the pharmaceutical companies. Ack! Hugs to all who suffer! |
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Elder
Member Since Jun 2015
Location: Czechia
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#705
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The wingers sound good. I think they can even handle a little bit of burning and still be tasty. |
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Elder
Member Since Jun 2015
Location: Czechia
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#706
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I hope your savings strategy is very successful. I wish my husband would come up with one. |
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Member Since Dec 2019
Location: Washington
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#707
Woke up out of a deep sleep. Now cant seem to settle back down. My son is doing well. I'm doing ok. Just watching TV and movies. Things are mellow for me finally. So good to see my son smile and laugh.
Hope everyone is well. Hugs to those struggling! |
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Monster on the Hill
Member Since Sep 2020
Location: by the river
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#708
There’s so much I want to do today! I want to go out, but I have to wait for laundry to get done first. I want to go for a run too, and write a new song I’ve got IDEAS. My soul is inspiration.
I really need to move though. I talked to my neighbor on a walk yesterday and he wanted to know why we don’t hang out anymore (he was a drug buddy). I just saw blood all over my arm, but now its normal? |
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Member Since Feb 2006
Location: Napa Valley
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#709
I'm going to pick up meds today and while in town I'm going to sell a bunch of books to the used book store.
As to my mental state: I feel good. __________________ >< |
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#710
Drenched in Philadelphia! It's real fun walking through puddles with a medical boot on my foot.
Tomorrow is another rainy day. I'm worried about flooding. Our staging and photography are tomorrow. Won't have the benefit of natural light. Yesterday I had my psychiatrist appointment. He asked about my foot/ankle. I mentioned how swollen and bruised it had been. In response, he asked to see my foot. What?!?!? I said I had the medical boot on, and with laughter I turned my laptop towards my elevated leg, and added "Do you really want me to take it off, including my sock?" Luckily he said no. After telling my husband the story above, he wondered if maybe pdoc has a foot fedish. Last edited by Soupe du jour; Oct 29, 2020 at 11:52 AM.. |
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#711
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I have accomplished nothing in the whole day (blah blah blah) and I'm not even going to eat well tonight- I'm having a plate of turkey breaded dinosaurs which is exactly a healthy meal a 24 year old woman puts on her menu not childlike at all well, I guess I enjoy them, so their is that |
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Member Since Jun 2016
Location: Where the sidewalk ends
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#712
I’m doing not too well today. But I did see my therapist in person. So that’s good. I felt like the session went well. We talked about the Pdoc appointment on Tuesday. Also in person. I said that went well. She asked me if he had talked to me about the melatonin or not. And I said “well actually... he told me that you emailed him.” And she said something like “oh yeah how did that make you feel?” And I said something like “well I wasn’t going to bring it up unless you did because I usually just keep stuff like that to myself, but it kinda annoyed me.” And she said “yeah I figured it did” then we talked about how it was a safety issue.” And I said “Now I don’t know what to tell you and what not to tell you.” But she could tell I was pretty pissed. I said I was not a typically angry person but how I was angry this morning and at my mom which I’m not usually and she thinks it’s because I was annoyed at her instead of my mom and my mom is a safe person. I honestly think the remeron is ****ing with my moods today. But at least I got a decent session in. I said my chest felt like it was in Vietnam and T paused for a split second and said “I bet.” My mom laughed and said she probably had no idea what the eff I was saying but therapists are trained not to judge. I just feel like a moody mess today.
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Member Since Sep 2019
Location: Portland
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#713
Devastating family news. Beyond devastating. Shattered.
__________________ When I was a kid, my parents moved a lot, but I always found them--Rodney Dangerfield |
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Member Since Jul 2019
Location: Downtown Vibes, California
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#714
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Member Since Jul 2019
Location: Downtown Vibes, California
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#715
BPC: Actually, I am asking that you please share with us what has happened that has affected you so profoundly. I would like to provide the best support possible.
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Silver Swan
Member Since Jan 2008
Location: USA
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#716
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__________________ Wellbutrin XL 300 mg Caplyta 42 mg Ingrezza 80 mg Ativan .5 mg 2x/day Propranolol 20 mg 2x/day Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) Mania (April/May 2019) |
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#717
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Bottom line? Both my former partner and precious daughter are both, full-on, totally legit sociopaths. Super, super dangerous. Beyond dangerous. Massive amount of money missing. Daughter stated actually she does not really love me. At all. It is true. Totally. Her brain is not capable of connecting with another entity via what we commonly experience as love. Her brain, mom's brain, are both utterly, completely broken. No ability for empathy. Zero. All scam, all the time. Completely criminal thinking. Nonstop. Mom definitely not the violent type, just totally criminal. Mastermind. Genius. Super elite. Daughter? I suspect is smarter still. I do get a sense, a powerful one, that she may very well also have the violence gene. Dangerous Super duper dangerous. Scary. More later. Too tired. __________________ When I was a kid, my parents moved a lot, but I always found them--Rodney Dangerfield |
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Location: USA
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#718
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#719
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Smoke detectors can be set off just from the change of temperature. Before I ripped mine off the ceiling it used to go off whenever I took a shower and the apartment got warmer. Ridiculous. I realize they can save lives, but they sure can be a pain. __________________ |
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Silver Swan
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#720
I don't know how much I owe tomorrow for the rent. I know what the RENT is, but there's another charge for utilities and the total is for the total rent owed not just my portion. So I'm going to have to call tomorrow and figure this out. I wish it weren't this complicated! My total is NOT what I need to pay. Why??? Ugh.
It's getting dark now. It's only 5:45. In a few days, it will be even darker at this time! Does this mean the sun will come up an hour earlier now? __________________ Wellbutrin XL 300 mg Caplyta 42 mg Ingrezza 80 mg Ativan .5 mg 2x/day Propranolol 20 mg 2x/day Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) Mania (April/May 2019) |
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