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Hello everyone,
I am just kind of venting and seeking maybe some advice, family and friends really do not understand. I recently made a post about wanting to stop all my medications because of my dr keeps adding meds and changing them all the time Literally only one appointment this entire year has not involved a med change of some sort. (was directed here). My dr had added seroquel (have not taken it) and it pissed me off because I did not think that I was going into mania. Sleep had been slowly dwindling down and now its been 2 full days no sleep, racing thoughts/ maybe well the only way I can describe it is its like endless banter half the time its not even a flowing thought its just random sentences or words, I am struggling with extreme anger again every little thing pisses me off, and feeling paranoid. Feeling kind of defeated because I still do not understand what is happening to me, and struggle to identify hypo manic / manic episodes or if that is even what is happening to me! Does anyone have any tips, how do you see it coming Or if that is even whats going on? The worst part is I still do not know if I want to continue pumping poison into my body. I have a dr appointment on Monday. maybe I will go back to therapy. I quit going in July. Dr mentions it ever appointment. I had been going for 16 years, I was 13 when I started this whole journey and still do not understand so whats the point? Maybe I am doomed to this party in hell for an eternity. Sorry I know this is long. Any helpful advice would be so welcomed! Thank you! Mana __________________ ”Be kind to everyone you meet, for everyone is fighting a hard battle” -Plato |
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Hey, Mana. So very sorry you are struggling. I have pretty profound bp 1. I am no longer able to identify when I enter hypomania. I become excited and euphoric and am soon gone. I check in here a few times daily at least and my beloved pals say: "Dude. You are getting manic. Again." Very helpful to me
So. You are manic now. Sleep. Racing. Confusion. Agitation. Dysphoria. Mania. Mania is a psychiatric emergency. If not treated immediately, inappropriate emails, running naked down Broadway, punching or stabbing someone, and other unpredictable and dangerous outcomes may be likely. Jail, state hospital do result. It must be treated pharmacologically now. Are you capable of helping yourself w this today? Let us know. I support reentering therapy. Let us know how we can support you further. Hugs! __________________ When I was a kid, my parents moved a lot, but I always found them--Rodney Dangerfield |
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Your description - "endless banter" - perfect words to use for the racing thoughts of mania. I will remember to use those to describe to my pdoc the next time I have those thoughts.
I can't say, of course, whether you're a permanent party guest. In general, though, BD is considered a life-long illness. And remember, it is a brain disorder, it's not something you "do wrong." Personally, I have never viewed meds as poison. I see them more as a way to protect my mind and body from the stress of the illness I have. cyclist is correct...there is an immense amount of support to be had on this board. And with reference to support - I agree with your idea. Therapy can be so helpful for those of us with bipolar disorder. __________________ |
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I cannot offer advice
I was told a few things by different drs most of that stuff i do not believe since i believe everyone is worthy and deserving especially those who try to respect others and work on themselves... i live in a different forest i send respect, hugs and support __________________ |
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Of course. It can happen for spurts. But it just is not the nature of the bipolar illness for most of us. It is an ever-shifting set of neurobiologic circumstances. Hang in there! You will get through this! __________________ When I was a kid, my parents moved a lot, but I always found them--Rodney Dangerfield |
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__________________ Bipolar 1 Lamictal: 400 mg Latuda: 60mg Klonopin: 1 mg Propranolol: 10 mg Zoloft: 100 mg Temazepam: 15 mg Zyprexa 5-10mg prn (for Central Pain Syndrome: methadone 20 mg; for chronic back pain: meloxicam 15 mg; for migraines: prochlorperazine prn) |
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I have a similar deal going on with my pdoc. I don't take anything normally and then go back to a low dose AP when needed until things calm down. That system works for me so far, and I like it a lot. I'm glad you found something similar that works. For me at least, it keeps me from worrying about needing to constantly shift the recipe for success and I take comfort knowing there's always a plan to address temporary blips. |
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Took them last night basically got knocked out for 6 hours was surprised that I was not completely out for hours, but 6 hours is better than no hours. So I am not complaining. I do not expect things to immediately improve but I know what I need to do. Thank you all for talking a little sense into me. I am oblivious when I get something in my mind. I just need to accept that I cant just skip out and not listen.
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