[Daonnachd]

I wonder if the people who remember Mandela dying in prison in the 80's are actually remembering the death of Steve Biko. Also of South Africa, I know he died in prison, just not sure what year. That could explain that particular instance. No matter, it's an interesting effect. (Can't think of the best word for it. Effect will have to do.)

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

This is the definite edition of what a Mandela effect is

The Mandela effect is an unusual phenomenon where a large group of people remember something differently than how it occurred. Conspiracy theorists believe this is proof of an alternate universe, while many doctors use it as an illustration of how imperfect memory can be sometimes

There are a ton of different ones. A person can spend all day going down the rabbit hole by looking them up.

It started because tons of people remember Nelson Mandela dying in prison in the 80’s. Like really really remember it funeral and everything. But he died in 2013 and that’s how the Mandela Effect got started.

Right...my daughter told me about that once. It's fascinating! The "Berenstain Bears" was one of the effects.

[Mountaindewed]

Berenstain bears were my favorite books when I was a kid. So I knew it was always STAIN instead of STEIN. The fruit of the loom cornucopia one is a head scratcher though.

[Daonnachd]

I don't feel right but I don't know what's wrong.

[Sunflower123]

I think most people here know I care for my brother who is in poor health and my 85 year old mom who is in cognitive decline. She was cooking bacon and walked off and forgot it last week. I got there in time to put out the fire. My brother, who is a paranoid schizophrenic, screams in pain when he walks. I got him an appointment with a good foot doctor Tuesday. In addition, there are some major things that need to be repaired with the house that I’m trying to juggle. My sister is MIA.

Guys, I feel like I’m bending under the responsibilities. Some days I feel adequate and other days scared witless. I called my therapist tonight and asked her to start telehealth each week instead of bi-weekly. I’m at my wit’s end and I’m afraid it will start impacting my mental health. Then we’d really be up the creek.

I promised mom I would always take care of my brother. I hope I can keep that promise.

Thanks for listening. Feeling overwhelmed and inadequate tonight. I’ve got to stay strong because I’m the only rational mind here.

[Nammu]

Jennifer

[Victoria'smom]

I'm scattered, I want to work, I feel trapped, like I'm going to have to run and hide any second, I can't afford my AD this month, so when I run out it'll be horrible, I have to find a good audio book because I literally can't do anything else. I would love to go to art school or trade school but don't have the money to do something like that.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I think most people here know I care for my brother who is in poor health and my 85 year old mom who is in cognitive decline. She was cooking bacon and walked off and forgot it last week. I got there in time to put out the fire. My brother, who is a paranoid schizophrenic, screams in pain when he walks. I got him an appointment with a good foot doctor Tuesday. In addition, there are some major things that need to be repaired with the house that I’m trying to juggle. My sister is MIA.

Guys, I feel like I’m bending under the responsibilities. Some days I feel adequate and other days scared witless. I called my therapist tonight and asked her to start telehealth each week instead of bi-weekly. I’m at my wit’s end and I’m afraid it will start impacting my mental health. Then we’d really be up the creek.

I promised mom I would always take care of my brother. I hope I can keep that promise.

Thanks for listening. Feeling overwhelmed and inadequate tonight. I’ve got to stay strong because I’m the only rational mind here.

Jennifer, that is a lot. It's natural that you'd feel overwhelmed and inadequate at times. Be kind to yourself. Seriously.

[WildcatVet]

Awake at 4:00am today, fed all the pets, fed the chickens and cleaned their coop, dusted and vacuumed, washed up last night's dishes. Now on to laundry. A bit manic today???

[daladico]

@jennifer that is a TON on your plate. If you haven’t done so, ask your mother & brother’s insurance plans (or primary doc) if there are any extra resources to help out with their care. Your mom would not want you to live your life feeling like you are going to break. You are amazing. As Beth said, be kind to yourself. Hugs to you 💛

[Blue_Bird]

I had a scary moment last night related to my eating disorder. But I'm feeling better now. Maybe I needed that scare to get me on the track to recovering.

Took a walk today. Trying to walk more and get outside more often.

My first day of group is this Friday, I'm looking forward to it.

My sister is stopping by this weekend to have coffee and pumpkin pie with me.

[Soupe du jour]

Sounds so nice, Blue_Bird. I did similar today and it helped me, too. I even enjoyed some pumpkin pie this week, but confess I ate it myself (my husband doesn't like it).

My endo biopsy is done. It did hurt, but for only a couple seconds. I told my gynecologist that today may be the last time I see her. I've been going to her for maybe 22 years. She said that under normal circumstances she would have wanted to give me a hug goodbye, but these are sad times, in that respect.

I texted our realtor that my house is mostly ready to go on the market. We just need to give it a weekly style deep cleaning and tidying. She said that she can start showing it this Saturday. It's really happening now!

[*Beth*]

A gorgeous autumn day. Chilly! I'm loving the cooler temperature, and I'd love it even more if I had hot water . Maintenance came on Friday to do something with the plumbing in my apartment complex (which is small). Now I don't have hot water. I'm hoping someone alerts the manager so I don't have to .

A teletherapy appointment this afternoon. It's always good to see her.

[Mountaindewed]

I’m doing ok today I guess. I am worried I have something going on though. There’s this cyst and then this morning I found bright red blood and I have pain and itching. Last night I had stomach cramps. I have all the signs of vulvua (sorry timi) cancer and I’m kind of nervous. I set up an appointment for my gynecologist tomorrow. I forgot my mask for the first time because I am so worried. Luckily I had just closed the car door when I realized. Usually though I put it on before I get out of the car. I think I was getting a couple curious stares from people in the parking lot wondering if I was going to put one on. But whatever. I remembered. I went to a thrift store today I haven’t gone to in awhile and they were asking $30 for sneakers and $60 for a used jean jacket. At a thrift store! I really wanted the jacket but I can buy them new for less. I know places are struggling but that seems like straight out price gouging. If that’s even a thing in thrift stores. I did find a baseball hat with the tag still on it for $4.

[*Beth*]

Hi Md, Remember that you have pretty bad health anxiety. I'm glad you're seeing your gyn tomorrow, just to put your mind at rest.

I used to shop at recycled clothing stores and thrifts, but I never do anymore because the prices they charge for anything decent is laughable. I can go to Macy's and find tons of clothing on sale that is much cheaper than the thrift stores are.

[Innerzone]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I think most people here know I care for my brother who is in poor health and my 85 year old mom who is in cognitive decline. She was cooking bacon and walked off and forgot it last week. I got there in time to put out the fire. My brother, who is a paranoid schizophrenic, screams in pain when he walks. I got him an appointment with a good foot doctor Tuesday. In addition, there are some major things that need to be repaired with the house that I’m trying to juggle. My sister is MIA.

Guys, I feel like I’m bending under the responsibilities. Some days I feel adequate and other days scared witless. I called my therapist tonight and asked her to start telehealth each week instead of bi-weekly. I’m at my wit’s end and I’m afraid it will start impacting my mental health. Then we’d really be up the creek.

I promised mom I would always take care of my brother. I hope I can keep that promise.

Thanks for listening. Feeling overwhelmed and inadequate tonight. I’ve got to stay strong because I’m the only rational mind here.

That is QUITE a lot on your plate!! You'll be in my thoughts. I'll echo what others have said ... be kind to yourself, see if help is available... Oh! And just take it a moment at a time. Lots of

[wildflowerchild25]

I’m not doing so hot. I’m getting more and more upset over my trauma. The feelings are coming fast and furious. Intrusive thoughts. Anxiety. Panic. I can’t look at baby pictures of my son. Only from 4+ after my late husband was gone. And if I see him in any pictures, it’s worse.

I’m getting worse with RS. I was already dissociating when we’re cuddling. Now it’s more like fear. I have developed a startle response whenever he or my son come at me without warning. That started happening awhile ago. I feel sick to my stomach.

I’ve never dealt with this level of fear and anxiety before. I don’t know why it’s all coming up now. I mean it was ten years ago. This is something I just don’t have experience with, so I don’t know how to handle it at all.

I told my therapist, once. She said I should allow myself to sit with it for 20 minutes and then stop. But I don’t know how to stop.

I’m sorry this is not bipolar related at all.

I went for a ride today – it was nice weather and I enjoyed the time out of the house. I’ve had kind of a overwhelmed feeling lately and it helps calm me.

You may or may not know what I am talking about, but I won’t give any details in fear of promoting it. Occasionally I browse Facebook with my mom. I don’t use Facebook or have friends there but my mom does and there has been an influx of them all joining a social media that supports conspiracy theories and far-right content. It’s known for its antisemitic content as well. It concerns me a lot that some of my family are part of this group trying to promote and be a part of it. I don’t use a lot of social media so it isn’t much of a real concern for me to see or deal with that content, but I guess the problem has existed well before the platform existed. With or without it, these people are going to believe and share what they want. I guess it’s just a bit scary for me to think people willingly subject themselves to these ideals.

I know it’s really in the grand scheme of things nothing at all to care about – but it’s the underlying things that scare me. Politics are polemic and can be argued, but it doesn’t make you a bad person. Giving a platform for support of hate just seems to contradict the values of human decency and social mores. Misinformation and disinformation is already an issue in itself, and on top of that now we are going to have a platform with growing popularity to demonize entire ethnicities, religions and countries. I’m just sad to see this is still who we are as a nation.

I am sorry for bringing up this topic here, but I do feel it is a major factor in my mental health and has a place to be said here for that reason – let’s not argue politics, I’ve seen enough of that everywhere else and even here. I thought decency and core values were universal but I am seeing there just as divisive and everything else. It’s the epitome of my disillusionment of the fabric of society.

[Nammu]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

I’m not doing so hot. I’m getting more and more upset over my trauma. The feelings are coming fast and furious. Intrusive thoughts. Anxiety. Panic. I can’t look at baby pictures of my son. Only from 4+ after my late husband was gone. And if I see him in any pictures, it’s worse.

I’m getting worse with RS. I was already dissociating when we’re cuddling. Now it’s more like fear. I have developed a startle response whenever he or my son come at me without warning. That started happening awhile ago. I feel sick to my stomach.

I’ve never dealt with this level of fear and anxiety before. I don’t know why it’s all coming up now. I mean it was ten years ago. This is something I just don’t have experience with, so I don’t know how to handle it at all.

I told my therapist, once. She said I should allow myself to sit with it for 20 minutes and then stop. But I don’t know how to stop.

I’m sorry this is not bipolar related at all.

Sounds a lot like ptsd. It can surface years after the fact. When a part of you truly feel safe enough to feel the feelings

[Daonnachd]

There's a lot going on for so many of us. I hope the evening allows us to rest and renew.

I'm home from my ECT now. Wow, my head hurts.