[Mountaindewed]

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

Md have you ever been IP? it maybe beneficial if you get into a hospital you want. I'm not saying it's fun but it may be helpful.

Yeah I’ve been IP and it’s been pretty bad and I wasn’t even trans then. It could be really bad if I went in now.

Trans people get a lot of harassment just from everyday people. There are quite a few very unstable people in an IP mental health unit. I truly feel unsafe going IP but I will do outpatient.

[Daonnachd]

I met with my T yesterday. Among other things we went over my ECT narrative. She pointed out a couple of things I could change and helped me make decisions on a couple more things. So I'm down to the wire editing and rewriting. I've got ECT on Monday and want to be able to hand a hardcopy to my doc then.

Today I make the two hour drive to get a covid test at the hospital where I get ECT done. Then it's quarantine until Monday.

A'best to all yez.

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

Well they screwed up my meds again! Now it'll be up to 4 days before I can get them. I'm so frustrated. I don't even want to take the damn thing.

Can I help ? Do you want me to use my doctor voice and gripe at them ? I am happy to do it.

[Mountaindewed]

I called the hospital and they said to just come in anytime for an assessment and tomorrow would be fine. I talked with my therapist in email after the call and she said it’s fine to go tomorrow unless things get worse, then go tonight. and as long as I complete the program she and Pdoc will continue to work with me. She sent some info over to the hospital so they know about my case and how best to help me when I go in. If no ones forcing me to go today it must not be dire and I’ll hopefully just be able to do outpatient. My mom hid the cough syrup but I wasn’t going to take it anyways.

[Victoria'smom]

bpcyclist thank-you I'm waiting for a call back from my pdoc today or tomorrow. When the pharmacy gets the right order then they'll order it. They're pretty mad they don't have the right script

[Mountaindewed]

I honestly do think I have some underlying medical condition and I just wish people would stop assuming it’s mental health. I have a history of frequent infections and right now my lower stomach hurts so badly and I’ve legit not been hungry today. I think I need a medical doctor. I don’t understand how someone who has been stable with there mental health for over 5 years can just suddenly relapse for absolutely no reason. I think I’m legit sick.

[Soupe du jour]

I decided (Hubby agreed) to make next Tuesday my last session with my current psychologist. I sent her an email giving her notice. It was clear from her response that it was likely for the best. I probably won't bring it up to my psychiatrist, though. He'd be mad. I have two more appointments with him scheduled before Christmas. I believe I will likely ask for at least one or two with him, beyond that, where I'll log in from Czech Republic.

[Moose72]

I need to go grocery shopping, but i don't want to. I'm sitting on the couch watching Monk trying to get rid of a headache. I took Tylenol for it. Tomorrow is pay-the-visa-card day. The credit union's online banking site is having troubles though- it won't load for some things, so I may have to call and pay over the phone. I need to put on a sweatshirt too. It's chilly in here, even though I think it's 70. My mom is almost finished with the blanket- just two more colors and then the edge needs done in black. I can't wait to snuggle up on the couch with it. Attached is the blanket with the blue just started. There are green, yellow and white finished and the black between the colors. (Plus the black edge.).

[Victoria'smom]

Mountaindewed It can be both especially young people drs don't take seriously often. Have you ever seen a GI dr? Illnesses mh or not can hit hard and unexpectedly. Can you see your GP and ask for general bloodwork (to check white blood cell count) and a referral to both a GI Dr. and nutritionist.

[Mountaindewed]

I set up an appointment with my primary for tomorrow at 11:15 and my gynecologist for 2:30. My stomach hurts so badly and this is the exact reason I took the cough syrup last night. If my therapist doesn’t want to work with me anymore because I have something wrong then that’s her problem. It almost feels like I have sepsis especially since I have the mental confusion that started suddenly and the red spots. And I did just recently have a bacteria infection too. I have really bad chills too right now despite being under my weighted blanket.

[Victoria'smom]

I think you should also go to the OP evaluation. the good thing about them watching you is they will see your physical problems too.

[Mountaindewed]

I will do that after I see the doctors. Probably on Monday. But if it’s something medical like I think it is then I don’t know what the point is. They’d probably just be confused as to why I’m going to a mental health hospital when all my symptoms are medical.

My temp is slightly up and I can’t really get out of bed. I’m kind of out of breath too.

[*Beth*]

Md, maybe you have a physical illness, maybe you have a mental illness, maybe you have both. Maybe you are unconsciously somatisizing. I've seen people get severely physically ill from anxiety and get wound up with health anxiety. It's a good thing that you're seeing your GP and Gyn. But weren't you supposed to go to the OP assessment tomorrow?

[MuddyBoots]

Tons of depersonalization/derealization today with a scoop of paranoia. Took cats to the vet. They are healthy. Two weeks to my call back date, which is when I can call and make an appointment with my pnurse.

[Blue_Bird]

Originally Posted by Moose72

I need to go grocery shopping, but i don't want to. I'm sitting on the couch watching Monk trying to get rid of a headache. I took Tylenol for it. Tomorrow is pay-the-visa-card day. The credit union's online banking site is having troubles though- it won't load for some things, so I may have to call and pay over the phone. I need to put on a sweatshirt too. It's chilly in here, even though I think it's 70. My mom is almost finished with the blanket- just two more colors and then the edge needs done in black. I can't wait to snuggle up on the couch with it. Attached is the blanket with the blue just started. There are green, yellow and white finished and the black between the colors. (Plus the black edge.).

The blanket is really nice and looks like it will be cozy. I've been trying to learn how to crochet, it's difficult for me, I've been trying to learn via YouTube videos, but I learn better when someone in person shows me how to do something. I'll keep at it though, eventually I'll get the hang of it. I really want to make a blanket, a scarf, and a hat

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Sapien

Tons of depersonalization/derealization today with a scoop of paranoia. Took cats to the vet. They are healthy. Two weeks to my call back date, which is when I can call and make an appointment with my pnurse.

Ugh, I'm so sorry about the dep/der and paranoia.

Great news that your cats are healthy, though! Taking my cats to the vet is a terrifying experience for me. I do it, but I'm very phobic.

[*Beth*]

Way too anxious today. I'm concerned that the increase in Pristiq (AD), while decreasing my depression, is increasing anxiety...which can morph into a great, big mania - especially a dysphoric one.

I really don't know what to do, what steps to take, because I cannot live with that depression. I do believe I have learned enough coping skills in therapy to handle a mania. The depression, no. But anxiety is unbearable, too.

Then, too, I may be anxious because my husband has to take me to the grocery store this evening and I strongly dislike going shopping with him. We vastly disagree on what to spend money on. He gives me disapproving "looks." I'm going to work hard while shopping to put a wall of protection around myself.

AND I'm anxious because I guess most of the counties in California are going into lockdown again. I didn't catch when it will start. Everything is just weird, everybody is upset, I'm not sure the lockdowns are an answer because the cooperative people follow the rules, whereas the jerks don't.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Moose72

I need to go grocery shopping, but i don't want to. I'm sitting on the couch watching Monk trying to get rid of a headache. I took Tylenol for it. Tomorrow is pay-the-visa-card day. The credit union's online banking site is having troubles though- it won't load for some things, so I may have to call and pay over the phone. I need to put on a sweatshirt too. It's chilly in here, even though I think it's 70. My mom is almost finished with the blanket- just two more colors and then the edge needs done in black. I can't wait to snuggle up on the couch with it. Attached is the blanket with the blue just started. There are green, yellow and white finished and the black between the colors. (Plus the black edge.).

Sorry about the headache and the banking site troubles. I love Monk! I have most of the episodes recorded.

[daladico]

Originally Posted by BethRags

Way too anxious today. I'm concerned that the increase in Pristiq (AD), while decreasing my depression, is increasing anxiety...which can morph into a great, big mania - especially a dysphoric one.

I really don't know what to do, what steps to take, because I cannot live with that depression. I do believe I have learned enough coping skills in therapy to handle a mania. The depression, no. But anxiety is unbearable, too.

Then, too, I may be anxious because my husband has to take me to the grocery store this evening and I strongly dislike going shopping with him. We vastly disagree on what to spend money on. He gives me disapproving "looks." I'm going to work hard while shopping to put a wall of protection around myself.

AND I'm anxious because I guess most of the counties in California are going into lockdown again. I didn't catch when it will start. Everything is just weird, everybody is upset, I'm not sure the lockdowns are an answer because the cooperative people follow the rules, whereas the jerks don't.

@Beth sooooo sorry your anxiety is so bad
When I started a new AD in the past, it put my anxiety through the roof. Have you reached out to your pdoc? Sometimes they can adjust the dosage or add on a temporary anxiety med until the side effect goes away. Hugs my friend 💛

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by daladico

@Beth sooooo sorry your anxiety is so bad
When I started a new AD in the past, it put my anxiety through the roof. Have you reached out to your pdoc? Sometimes they can adjust the dosage or add on a temporary anxiety med until the side effect goes away. Hugs my friend 💛

Thank you .

Yeah, I'm taking an increased dose of Trilafon (AP). Supposed to help with anxiety. It does, somewhat. My pdoc was concerned about the AD-anxiety issue. Guess I'll check with how I feel post-shopping trip, I'll have a better idea then, haha.