Borderline PD symptoms description

Hi, I found this website, I think its mostly UK based though but they have an email facility for crisises.

http://www.bpdworld.org/

Hi peaches. I had a conversation with my T and she did say a personality disorder is not something that is set in stone or that you have to fit word for word in the criteria. There are varying levels of BPD, some people have some of the traits and some have them have different traits to other sufferers and some have them to varying extremes. I have a friend that has been diagnosed, she doesn't cut or make suicidal threats but she is terrified of being alone and has extreme ways of thinking. I don't fit the anger unleashment, at least not on others but I do at myself. I'm not a habitual cutter or self harmer, I just resort to it when things go very bad. You may just have some of the traits and if they are interfering with your life, it would be worth getting the right therapy to help.

wow that was the best description of BPD...and basically described my entire life existence in a nut shell. wow

if I could thank you for that post 1,000 times I would...

Also, I have never been officially diagnosed with BPD, but was diagnosed with clinical depression my freshman year of high school. I have always felt that I am far too complex to be simply depressed. I feel as though BPD is a very accurate diagnosis, but I have to see a therapist before I can make such a judgement I suppose.

I was wondering though, if anyone would happen to know, if those with BPD have trouble accepting criticism. I have had this problem for almost all of my life. I always take things so insanely personally and get overly defensive and often become livid/enraged when I feel people are "attacking" me...when they may only be giving simple criticism. I can't handle any rejection/disappointment out of others...it makes me FREAK OUT. I am constantly seeing things in black and white - kind of like that love/hate thing with relationships, etc. I have serious anger problems too. But anyways, do people with BPD have that problem with criticm I was talking about? Thanks everyone, good luck to you all!!

Need your explanation pls...... I heard somewhere that had mentioned about 'high functioning bpd and low functioning bpd' also why shouldn't put bpd person in hospital for safety as it may worsens for wellbeing? thanks!

omg, I think I've found what I am - so much jumbled up, but everything fits that description at the top..................now, what do I do?

Cenaco, I haven't been diagnosed either, but the detailed explanation on here is spot on. I definitely have issues with criticism. Outside of it actually happening, I think I could be OK and learn from it. But if it actually happens, my bottom just drops out and if I don't retort back with some sarcastic remark, I may just shut up and not be able to talk at all. The feelings are so dramatic at that very moment that I almost have a physical reaction. I have erupted into tears at work because I unexpectedly received criticism (in a gentle way I might add). It's worse if it's unexpected - literally, uncontrollable emotional and physical reactions.

This is me. This is SO me. Wow. I don't know what else to say. I feel validated. I'm not quite as terrible as I thought I was because there is a reason! Not sure yet, but I think I may have just realized why... OMG, breathe, breathe.

Can one develop BPD in their 20's or from a trauma that occurred in their 20's?

Validation does feel good! And while I do not focus on the diagnosis, I first felt relief that it is not just 'me'. Something in me that makes me defective. There are reasons and I can be helped. Powerful!

I think your question is a good one, and one to explore in your therapy. I also think that we are vulnerable to trauma, suseptible to becoming part of it, as a result of how our early childhood development and attachment was experienced.

I have the above descriptions but only on a mild extent.

I think Jessica, that one can display some borderline traits or show all or most of them to a mild degree. I have been diagnosed and I can certainly say im nowhere near as extreme as the disorder is often portrayed but enough to interfere with certain aspects of my life. You definitly don't have to be matching all the criteria to a high extreme to suffer with aspects of this disorder.

never mind and just forget my questions as if it isn't any validations to anyone, thanks.

loupop, I'm sorry, maybe post it below?
I don't have any hospital experience myself, but I do think that being hospitalized for one's safety is a good idea.

I read "get me out of here" by Rachel Reiland and she begins her journey in a hospital. It is a good book, if you like to read.

wow thank you so much
helps me understand been borderline
and my feelings are not alone or crazy

Echo, I got the book that you have mentioned, so I'm going to read it today.
Wondering if 'hypersensitively' to many things is partly of BPD? I was highly strung over the last few weeks!

loupop99, I don't know what kinds of things you are refering to that you feel like you have been hypersensitive to, but I experience this too and I think it is part of me and my difficulties. Sometimes it feels like a tension that needs to be broken, and when it is broken I can relax and few things get me stirred up.
If I can be aware of when it is beginning I can sometimes find the what it is that started it all. Something I am trying to keep from surfacing, from my awareness, from having to think about it and feel it...

wow describes me so well ...

I've been doing a lot of searching for answers/explanations and this says it all. I am printing it off now for my T, as it is exactly in line with what we were talking about at my last session... Thanks Echoes.

Wow...my initial diagnosis was Bipolar Disorder & Depression now my new doc says she thinks my old doc made a mistake and that I might actually have BPD. I'm have an appointment with psychiatrist but that description of BPD sounds JUST like me. Thanks for sharing.

You must have read my autobiography!

Thanks bipolarbearV/

Echo,

I am new here and just dipping my feet in to this site. Thank you for the post but it is missing some important aspects to BPD. It is not only the person with BPD that give up easily, but the professionals as well. I have doctors who wont give me a yearly pap, even the clinic refuses medical treatment although I have been going there since early childhood (now 40). I have a psychiatrist who I trusted who wont see me. I was arrested for failing to stop at stop sign because I appeared agitated and told him I was going to file a complaint against him (although completely clean record and not even so much as a traffic ticket in ten years and was not disobediant or threatening). I was ousted out of law school after the first year because I couldnt manage to connect with the younger student body for study groups (evidently essential to the study of law).
I am not trying to use this forum to whine about my life. I am simply trying to explain that it is not only about our perceptions as those with BPD, but it is about how others perceive us. Many people with BPD are odd looking or acting to society. Authorities and healthy society members automatically presume us to be some sort of irritant before we even have a chance to prove that we are intelligent, caring, honest, civic-minded, and rational. The so-called "short temper" has much to do with the saturation of inequitable treatment and (in my case as many other BPDers) being bullied for decades. I now am agoraphobic because I cant even see a police officer without having a panic attack. I was once going to be a lawyer protecting people with disabilities, now I am spending my days in my cocoon collecting disability and dreaming about what remote island I am going to live on if I cant make my mortgage payment next month. (okay, I ended up whining a bit).
The point is this.... Symptoms of BPD are not simply internal or behavioral. One can recognize BDPers by the effect their presense has in any social situation or by how society treats them. If you are consistantly being, rejected, bullied, abandoned, betrayed, ignored, and marginalized, then your feelings of persecution may not be delusional and may be attributed to BPD; and this treatment has likely been there way before you "got angry" or saturated.

Just my two cents,

Enigma