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Default Aug 22, 2016 at 04:52 AM
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last Sunday nite (14th August) I attempted suicide, was assessed by RAID, they said they would update the CMHT that are suppose to support me, but it's been a week, and I've not heard from them, and I'm starting to feel depressed and stressed again, I have rung them this morning, and now I just have to wait, for the call back
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Default Aug 22, 2016 at 08:24 AM
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Today I don't have the energy to try to change how I'm feeling : anxious, angry, so I think I'm going to focus on distress tolerance. My emotions are totally appropriate for the circumstances . I'm dealing with at least three situations that are very challenging for a emotionally sensitive person.

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Default Aug 22, 2016 at 11:53 AM
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Today was my 50th birthday and it was up and down. I'm nursing a sick dog so that was a worry but i got myself some pretty flowers so that was nice. I feel good now.
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Default Aug 23, 2016 at 02:25 PM
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Yesterday was ok. Was kinda anxious going grocery shopping but it went fine. Today is also good so I'm happy for that.

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Default Aug 23, 2016 at 07:27 PM
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I was very tired today because I haven't been sleeping well. Still couldn't take a nap, though. Just kind of laid there. Otherwise it was a typical day.
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Default Aug 23, 2016 at 08:02 PM
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I'm doing ok, had a low key day after my daughter's pediatric psych appointment .

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Default Aug 24, 2016 at 04:07 AM
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Learnt about my vegetarian bunk mate's negative past, understood why he grew up to think in his way.

Then, I thought about my past, growing up in an environment that I can't self-defend against childhood bullies and being left alone to face these mess myself. It seem to me that I'm a useless and degenerate person who still struggles emotionally in face of adulthood.

I realize something odd, I don't have a sense of identity. I'm just somebody who is a passer-by, being nothing more than just a spectator in the eye of another person.

I live my life along with the flow of time, meeting different kinds of people in life as I grow up. People come and go, even for a day of your life.

I live a life myself, whose mind is wired abnormally, and so complicated that it's hard to express yourself to the outside world that you would rather be locked up for the rest of your life

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Default Aug 24, 2016 at 10:40 AM
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Feeling really irritated and would love to have someone looking out for me for once but that's not going to happen so I'll carry on.

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A friend of mine started drama with me and I almost got triggered. Was able to keel calm and diffuse the situation. Now I'm in a bad mood and don't feel like talking to them for awhile. I feel that I'm destined to never have any friends.

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A friend of mine started drama with me and I almost got triggered. Was able to keel calm and diffuse the situation. Now I'm in a bad mood and don't feel like talking to them for awhile. I feel that I'm destined to never have any friends.

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That's true. I'm just feeling down today.

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That's true. I'm just feeling down today.

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Had a protein shake and a banana. I'm sorry you're down too.

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I didn't eat so I'm going to try to now. Don't have an appetite but know I need to.
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Default Aug 24, 2016 at 02:01 PM
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There's no point to anything. I'm tired of feeling like I do. Just tryna lie to myself, create hatred so I won't feel so bad. Hatred is energy, depression is a black hole. I will overpower the blackhole. Or I will die. Either way I win.

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I didn't eat so I'm going to try to now. Don't have an appetite but know I need to.
I get that way sometimes. Hope you feel better.

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Default Aug 24, 2016 at 03:29 PM
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have the day off work today which worked great for taking the kidlet to his therapy appointment. I also renewed my driver's license so I feel the day was pretty productive.

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My daughter was home most of the day so we spent a lot of time chatting about stuff. It was good to talk to her.
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Default Aug 25, 2016 at 01:15 PM
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feeling very hurt and upset

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Default Aug 25, 2016 at 02:25 PM
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"You hope hatred might someday replace the pain.... but it never goes away. It makes a man hideous. Inside and out."

That's how I feel.

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