[greentires4me]

i am in the mood to hate everyone equally!!!

everyone was grumpy on the full moon the day after pay day. then a stupid chick on my floor kept telling me off yesterday i just want to clobber her really there is no need for this BS in my mind. I kept my cool and calmly told her to mind her own business and grow up, we are adults only children slam doors violently for attention. She scoffed at me...but it was priceless.

I am doing laundry 41, 43, 45 mins on each drier....

[Unrigged64072835]

Oh geez, when it rains it pours...

Daughter and her boyfriend had a big blowout last yesterday. She got drunk last night. Today she tells us she is going to move to a smaller apartment and not taking him with her. I think they're going to break it off. I thought it would come sooner than later but this all really sucks. They're both really unhappy and don't want to speak with each other. Unfortunately they still "live" in our house, so I don't know what arrangements are going to happen. All I know is that we have contractors starting mid-August so they have to be out by then.

I just want to cry because I feel so bad for them. But I can't, the tears just won't happen physically. I'm also anxious for any drama they may have for the time being. My daughter can be blunt and dramatic.

[greentires4me]

I am pissed off I got 3 1/2hrs of sleep and I am not even tired to go back to sleep. I have 2 appointments today one with my psych nurse and one with my GP. I haven’t been to the hospital for mental health in two weeks. I am limiting my interactions with staff and the crisis lines. Also I am not telling anyone if I am feeling suicidal because it’s that on going saga that is happening because I am in so much physical pain not emotional or mental.

A little background I have pronounced S curve scoliosis with the last 5 vertebrae there is arthritis.

I also have akathisia from my abilify and my pdoc will not take me off of it but rather she keeps prescribing me injections because she thinks I am non med compliant which is a piss off. So she prescribed me abilify depot for 400mg I mean I gave my psych nurse some valid points and it seemed that she took my word for it and gave me a choice if I wanted to take it or not. I said no on the grounds that I was in physical pain not mental and having a shot into my hips wouldn’t be a good idea for my hip issues and spinal cord stuff. I love this psych nurse she is more in-depth then the last 20 I have had from my mental health centre and I have been there with them for 7 years.

Anyways I got some money from the government called GST better known as governmental sales tax. I have a dilemma: food or amazon gift cards or Netflix gift card or something I would like but not sure it’s practical.

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Daughter and boyfriend broke up when we went out of town for a day. Came home today because husband had an appointment. Daughter's ex is still trying to move his stuff out of the house. Husband wanted to make ultimatums but now he's taking a nap, and daughter is not here. So guess who gets to be the baddie? Just what I always wanted after having a day off.

Very unhappy about this situation.

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Angry right now--

I told both my daughter and my husband, "Maybe we should check to see what cones they use for the driver's test." Was ignored.

Now daughter fails the parking test because she couldn't see the poles that they used.

So pissed off.

[JessLynn]

Woke up angry again today -_- Every time I move something low key catastrophic happens and it's just FUCCCCCKKKKKKK

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Daughter and her other friend moved out Friday. Spent the weekend cleaning up what she left behind. We've spent a ton of money, sweat, and time so I'm glad it's done.

Was hoping for a quiet day off when I noticed a bubble of loose paint in the corner. Turns out to be a leak between our house and the neighbor's (we live in a duplex townhouse). The roof guy is putting in a new flashing for free, but if it doesn't work he'll have to contact the neighbors. I haven't seen them much since they moved in. I don't even know if they're still there.

In the midst of moving my desk (because my desktop just happens to be where the leak was) my monitor tipped over and hit the monitor stand, causing a big scratch in the screen. Warranty is crap so no way of replacing it. I'll have to spend a month or two without a display until I get some money back after all the moving stuff.

To make my day more wonderful, I had to reschedule an eye appointment, schedule an appointment for the cats, and was notified to do labs and make an appointment with my new doc.

All in one day.

Maybe it's not BPD. Maybe it's just too much crap.

[giddykitty]

Well, it has been discovered that I do not have bpd, but have dependent personality disorder. Since this board had been more active and I had been a part of it for some time, I thought it ok to share this here today. I noticed that the dpd board is pretty quiet, but that is my next stop.

A little stressed today. It's hard to explain. Trying to accomodate my guests, though they are pretty self sufficient. I just don't want to look lazy and so I'm trying to keep busy, but it bores and tires me at the same time. Well, that's work eh? But I'm sneaking on here in between a few tasks and trying to write this post...I'm not AS distracted as I've been in the past, but i guess i still struggle with what to share on here. i'm not really having any episodes, other than missing my husband when he is not around, so I'm kinda veering offtopic a bit, but trying to hone it in. I might continue to post here. I understand dpds and bpds make good friends. ha!

take care folks!