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Is it normal to desperately want to get some work done, but not have the motivation to literally just get out of bed to turn on my computer..?
I want to work and I want to get things done, because I don't have much time tomorrow, but I literally lack the mental energy to tell myself to stand up and walk those three steps to get to the computer and everything is just so overwhelming right now.. This has been happening to me a lot more often lately and I really don't know how to deal with it, has this ever happened to any of you? To get so demotivated, you literally can't bother to just get out of bed.. Last edited by BPDSora; Feb 24, 2020 at 07:28 PM.. |
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Absolutely, BPDSora, many of us here at PC can relate to this! I, personally, have had clinical depression in the past, & experience small bouts of depression now. I may be longing to fulfill a particular goal, visualizing myself succeeding at this desired accomplishment, but feel so exhausted emotionally, mentally, spiritually, & physically, all I can produce is tears. Does this resemble your experience? By the way, thank you for posting this. It helps many of us feel less alone to be able to share our similar experiences.
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I'm really sorry you had - and still have - to go through the pain caused by depression.. What you wrote is probably the most accurate description I've ever read of how I feel.. It's like, even the smallest goal ever becomes unreachable when I'm in that state of mind. Also, thanks a lot for writing that last part, I've been having a really bad day until now and that part really made me smile! |
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Oh yeah....this isn't the least bit unusual for me. I tell myself that I have "the brain flu" right now....and so nope, not doing anything but resting and recovering.
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I'm really sorry you have to go through this.. |
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"Also, the constant feeling that I don't have the right to rest because it's all just me being lazy"
.......oh my yes. I know THAT demon well. One thing that has helped me over the years, especially for thoughts like that is, looking at why I am thinking such things about myself. Almost every time, I can trace it back to what someone else has said to me. I look at my brain as a garden - and my thoughts are either flowers or weeds. Most of the weeds had been purposely put there by someone else. When I started this visualization process, the garden was pretty much all weeds. So I started ripping out those weeds, and planting flowers, instead. How? By looking at those thoughts as they came across. For example - "I'm tired and don't want to do anything today." Thought - "I'm being lazy". Why that thought? Because this person accused me of being lazy all the time. Ok,...WEED. Rip it out! Flower in it's place - it's OK for me to feel unmotivated. It's OK for me to not do anything today. So.....try to learn to give yourself permission to do whatever you feel is best for yourself. If you feel the need to rest, literally tell yourself it's ok. You're allowed. It's not easy to fight our own minds, but it can be done. __________________ Diagnosed: Prolonged PTSD (civilian) BPD Dissociation |
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