BPD

Hi,

I was recently told by my counselor that I have borderline personality disorder. Can a LCWS-R officially diagnose? (I have become skeptical of receiving and believing a diagnosis since I have tried so hard to get help, and have not really felt heard, and have given up and tried again so many times - it's not easy). She also has diagnosed me as having anxiety and depression. I've been diagnosed as having PTSD in the past too. It seems each person I've sought out help from has formulated a varied response, but has been similar. I've taken medication for insomnia as well, and for OCD.

I just am unsure how to receive the help that I need.

I attempted DBT, but was so uncomfortable and anxious, I dropped out. I would like to give it another try.

Right now, I am currently ending an 8 year relationship with my boyfriend because it just isn't working. He was told he has aspergers, so we researched BPD and aspergers and realized how incompatible we are when it comes to understanding emotions, it seems. I feel he doesn't care about me or see me. I feel neglected.

Today, his dad over the phone told him to come home. He asked why I don't have a job. And he told my boyfriend he did nothing wrong. (I overheard, but wish I didn't). I'm not the only one at fault. I'm not a monster.

I don't work, and haven't ever been able to hold a steady job. I have a really hard time leaving the apartment right now, and have always had a hard time leaving home and feeling okay in the world, especially alone.

I'm at a loss of what to do.

I feel stuck and lost in life.

Thank you for reading this long post, and if anyone has advice, I'd appreciate it! Thank you.

Hi, I'm sorry you're in that terrible place in life. I am definitely not an expert and I have been out of the mental health field for just over half a decade so my information is probably dated. I do recall that an LCWS could diagnose in my state, but it had to be confirmed by a Ph.D/Psy.D or MD. Best to check with an expert though. It does seem like you are getting a wide and inconsistent variety of diagnoses. I don't know for sure what you're facing, but I understand that those with BPD may inaccurately feel that they are being neglected or that people don't care about them.

I do hope you find some answers or at least some camaraderie and empathy here.

I've been commenting that I have a friend who has many issues, BPD probably being one of them. Like your situation, that was about as incompatible as could be. My emotional depth is very shallow so I had no idea where his emotional outbursts were coming from, nor could I comprehend the intensity of them. I am very good about picking up on social cues though and I could see it coming at least.

What else does the LCSW do for you?

I've consistently worked with her for almost a year (in May it will have been a year). She helps me, kind of, by trying to understand what I am experiencing and attempting to give me advice about how to get through what hurts me. She's tried to help my failing relationship but hasn't been able to help much. I do appreciate her effort and all she has done, I just am unsure how much help she can really offer me. She also mentioned once bipolar, but my moods can vary drastically minute to minute. I feel unpredictable to myself, even. I feel I have a lot of things going on, so it's understandable that receiving a diagnosis/diagnoses is a process.