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In 2.5 hours... DBT... and I'm starting to get nervous. For some weird reason, the Zoom format is making me more nervous than in person would (and I'm agoraphobic).
I don't want to go, but I need to go... I will end up back in PHP or in the hospital again if I don't do IOP or at least try to do IOP... and I haven not slept... tis 6:30 a.m. and I have not slept. And IOP is in 2.5 hrs and is 3 hrs long. Till noon. And then I can sleep? Maybe, if I'm not too anxious still... I just need to go to IOP and get it over with and it will get easier. Opposite action, right? Isn't that what they teach in DBT? That's one of the skills from PHP. PHP was also DBT based, so I was reminded of some of the skills I learned years ago. But PHP was only 2 weeks long. IOP is 5 weeks, and goes through all the skills. The goal is to get all the way through the 5 weeks without having to go back into PHP or the hospital but the PHP therapist did make it clear that stepping back up to PHP or the hospital is not a failure if
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I would feel like a failure though if I did have to step back up though. I keep bouncing in and out of the hospital and I really want it to stop. I want to be done with the hospital. I want to either be not depressed or just be done. I don't want to go back to the hospital again. Ever. So its IOP... and it is now 7:15 a.m. so IOP is in 1.75 hours now.and I need to calm my nerves somehow... __________________ Diagnoses: PTSD with Dissociative Symptoms, Borderline Personality Disorder, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Fibromyalgia and Chronic Pain |
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So sorry you're anxious. Starting a group is anxiety provoking. I just started one. The zoom format is weird, but you get used to it. I hope today goes better for you
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Technical difficulties are not fun when you are already anxious...
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I kinda wish I could do an IOP again. It just seems so... cathartic.
Anyway, I'm sorry you were having trouble getting motivated to go. Sometimes it helps me to do some deep breathing exercises when I'm having a ton of anxiety like that. Although even on days I'm really anxious and do the deep breathing, sometimes I still don't go to things I have to do, such as school. __________________ "Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!” |
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Now that I have done it, tomorrow will be a lot easier. I've "met" the therapist and other people in the group. I kind of understand how it is going to go for the day, with what I did manage to gather with lagging and such in the beginning, and trying to figure out mic and sound difficulties at the same time.
Difficulty for tomorrow starting to arise, though... didn't sleep last night. At all. Tis now 2 a.m., group is at 9 a.m. and I am not tired yet in the least. Crap. __________________ Diagnoses: PTSD with Dissociative Symptoms, Borderline Personality Disorder, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Fibromyalgia and Chronic Pain |
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I've never done IOP (never been inpatient, I hate hospitals (I always have) ) I'm interested in how this goes for you. I think DBT can be very helpful. (I haven't had DBT either, in this forest, multiple hospital admissions are required before this is offered )
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Thanks childofchaos, I also think it would help me (and almost anyone really). Sometimes I remember to read about it a bit. Sometimes not. I find groups IRL difficult (anxiety) (including on zoom etc, in fact I think I might find that worse than the ''old'' style of group )
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yea, the anxiety really gets me... php was irl, but iop is on zoom. iop is easy enough once it starts. i'm agoraphobic so it's easier to not have to leave the house.
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