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Default Mar 15, 2019 at 07:32 AM
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How to forget, internally, past emotional negleting and physical beating memories than suddenly torments you after awaking from a life long live of depression and dissociation?
I know it takes time, but I don't have time. I have goals and crazy work. And no one to sue my wounds.

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Default Mar 15, 2019 at 07:49 AM
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My thinking. I have to train this thinking. I have a support system. Messed up but is there. People won't leave me again on my own.
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Or rejected me again.
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How to forget, internally, past emotional negleting and physical beating memories than suddenly torments you after awaking from a life long live of depression and dissociation?
I know it takes time, but I don't have time. I have goals and crazy work. And no one to sue my wounds.

I wish I knew the answers to this.

triggers come up for me every day (in general life, in conversation, even in toxic contact)

I think part of you is never going to forget everything- this is childhood, upbringing, an important part of life (that's never going to repeat itself) their's only one childhood, 1 family, I'd like to think positive memories/ happy memories will eventually replace the negative ones, but we both know it's not that simple
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I wish I knew the answers to this.

triggers come up for me every day (in general life, in conversation, even in toxic contact)

I think part of you is never going to forget everything- this is childhood, upbringing, an important part of life (that's never going to repeat itself) their's only one childhood, 1 family, I'd like to think positive memories/ happy memories will eventually replace the negative ones, but we both know it's not that simple
I am trying to norture my little inner child. Constantly tell her she is good and cant do stuff, but then outside approval is my addition.
Not forget but heal? Maybe with time?
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Reading the books about Childhood Emotional Neglect help me because they inform me about what i should have been given, what i should have been taught. They fill in the holes. Neglect left me feeling like swiss cheese - still tasty, but a lot of air! I should have been a brie!
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Swiss cheese.. I am a swiss cheese.
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I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, mulan Please don't give up. I'm sure you'll be able to get through all of this. I know you're strong! Take care of yoursel and of your inner child like you're already doing. You're a strong, wonderful person. You deserve to be loved and to live a good life just like everyone else does. Keep taking care of yourself. You deserve it! Yes, it will take time, but it can be done. I believe in you, mulan. You can do this! You're strong, I know that. I believe in you. Try to hang on. Stay strong, mulan. Stay safe and take care of yourself. You're awesome! You're strong! You're a warrior! Try to hang on. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. I'm so sorry you have to deal with all of this, mulan. Take good care of yourself. You're a strong, wonderful person. Please remember that
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I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, mulan Please don't give up. I'm sure you'll be able to get through all of this. I know you're strong! Take care of yoursel and of your inner child like you're already doing. You're a strong, wonderful person. You deserve to be loved and to live a good life just like everyone else does. Keep taking care of yourself. You deserve it! Yes, it will take time, but it can be done. I believe in you, mulan. You can do this! You're strong, I know that. I believe in you. Try to hang on. Stay strong, mulan. Stay safe and take care of yourself. You're awesome! You're strong! You're a warrior! Try to hang on. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. I'm so sorry you have to deal with all of this, mulan. Take good care of yourself. You're a strong, wonderful person. Please remember that
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I am trying to norture my little inner child. Constantly tell her she is good and cant do stuff, but then outside approval is my addition.
Not forget but heal? Maybe with time?


me too in a way

I like doing childish things and things I never got the chance to do at the appropriate age

sometimes people look at me strangely, but bleh.

I guess it is a little strange, sure, but if that's what you feel you need to do...
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me too in a way

I like doing childish things and things I never got the chance to do at the appropriate age

sometimes people look at me strangely, but bleh.

I guess it is a little strange, sure, but if that's what you feel you need to do...
Oh, I guessed I never stopped being a "child"... not having been a child!... at heart.

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Oh, I guessed I never stopped being a "child"... not having been a child!... at heart.


I recently went to build a bear and you could tell that the woman behind the counter who helped make the bears wasn't impressed

she didn't say anything, but I could tell by her attitude and her lack of enthusiasm she was thinking oh, my, god. how old is this person insisting that she wants to kiss the heartbeat before putting it in the bear?

I didn't get to kiss it

I was sort of embarrassed, I suppose, everyone around me was... 3, or 4, perhaps a few younger people, and I suppose I do understand why the woman wasn't impressed

still though. it made me feel a little out of place
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I am trying to norture my little inner child. Constantly tell her she is good and cant do stuff, but then outside approval is my addition.
Not forget but heal? Maybe with time?
I don’t think forgetting is a realistic goal.. but maybe to heal.

Outside approval is your addiction?

How do you nurture your inner child?

I wouldn’t want to do the “build a bear” ... I do have some stuffies for my inner cub though

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I don’t think you can ever forget. I’m very sorry for your pain and I’m sorry there’s no simple answer to easing it. Each day is a new day and a chance to make your life into what you want it to be. It can’t all be perfect.... You deserve some happiness and blessings though and I hope that’s what you find.
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I don’t think forgetting is a realistic goal.. but maybe to heal.

Outside approval is your addiction?

How do you nurture your inner child?

I wouldn’t want to do the “build a bear” ... I do have some stuffies for my inner cub though


I don't think I'd want to do it again either.

sure it was fun, but it wasn't what I expected
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