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#121
We are moving back this weekend. I can not go back to my previous T or Pdoc there company is maxed out on anyone with Medicare insurance. I’m set up with same company another town over but literally I am losing it, 6 years with my Pdoc and T and i just want to quit I didn’t by even know how to do T with someone else , where do I begin ? I refuse to walk through all the past trauma and assaults with a stranger T , I’ll quit it all now meds or T also the latest med for my Arthritis is a total fail.
23 weeks today and I have not been able to move on and sleep even the 2-3 hours a night without nightmares ptsd is ruining my life and now I have no one to turn to provider wise that I desperately need. Maybe I’ll go home and sleep for weeks or becoming suicidal and need Ip if I can hold on long enough. I’m so defeated and see no real hope. By the time I can even get into a new psych place my meds will run out, I should just ditch them now anyway. Sorry I am such a downer, I just see no light at the moment Hugs to you all Sorry my rambling makes no senec __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~ |
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#122
my goes out to you, Christina~ __________________ AWAKEN~! |
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#123
Christina, my heart goes out to you. I can tell you that I didn't think I could share with my new pdoc, but I managed to do it and found he is very kind and helpful. Please don't give up hope.
Christmas with my family was a fiasco. It was very painful. Thank you all for your condolences. I really appreciate it. My cousin's mother embarrassed me on purpose in front of a crowd of people at the restaurant we went to after the services. I wanted a hole to open in the floor and let me escape. My cousin didn't hear what was said but his wife did and now they are going to tell off the mother over me. She asked if I was wearing my real hair, if that was my real color and on and on until she actually asked me if those were my real teeth and if I wore my dentures all the time. It was like being a foil in Theater of the Absurd. My ex's death was hard because the obituary painted this abuser, thief and liar as a saint. I was infuriated and diminished. At least I can go on that side of the valley now without fear of being shot. What I haven't told you is that my son called me right before Christmas. He started screaming at me over the phone and told me so many vile and hateful things. I had no idea he hates me. It was a complete shock. He said I wouldn't hear from him again. No one can hurt me like he can. My heart is broken and I am left confused and shaken. How can he possibly hate me? I've been sick, too. The antibiotic didn't clear up the infection in my ears and I have been falling. I go back in two weeks, but I don't think I'll last that long, if I can get an appointment. In the meanwhile, Belle and I stick together. I am so blessed to have Belle and all of you. You are my family. __________________ I still dream and I still hope, therefore I can take what comes today. Jan is in Lothlorien reading 'neath a mallorn tree. My avatar and signature were created for my use only and may not be copied or used by anyone else. |
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#124
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#125
wishing you a better year ahead~! Happy Birthday, Kiya~! __________________ AWAKEN~! |
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#126
Hey y'all. Sorry I've been MIA. I had some labs come back right around the beginning of the year that my GP didn't like, cholesterol and glucose. So trying to eat better is on my list right now... but also came down with the flu this past weekend and I am so exhausted right now. Getting better, but still feel pretty awful.
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#127
sweet dreams, and a healing rest ~ __________________ AWAKEN~! |
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#128
Hello Friends,
I hope you are all safe and warm. It's so cold here, although the apartment is warm enough except for the floors, of course. I'm going to try to go see my GP over the ear infection. They are both infected now and have fluid. I've been sick with my colitis since Christmas. I'm down to where I can't tolerate dry toast. I guess I need to see if I can get an appt. with the specialist very soon. My sleeping has been erratic. This morning Belle decided it was time to wake up but I wanted to sleep some more. So, Belle stood on the side of my face with both her front paws. She won! Love you. __________________ I still dream and I still hope, therefore I can take what comes today. Jan is in Lothlorien reading 'neath a mallorn tree. My avatar and signature were created for my use only and may not be copied or used by anyone else. |
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#129
Hello all. Haven't been online much the last week. I went back to work Monday. By the time I got home at night I was too tired to even bother turning on the computer.
The arctic weather blasting the country worked its way to the Sunshine State yesterday. Temps are nothing compared to Northern states, but mighty cold for here. I spent time yesterday bringing all my potted plants in the house. Weatherman is predicting freezing temps at night here. I know for those of you experiencing negative temps as your high that doesn't sound like much, but remember this is a subtropical area. Our poor plants can't tolerate such low temps. The cold front that brought these temps caused both my fibro and arthritis to flare last week. I kept looking for the ice pick someone was stabbing into my left knee it hurt so bad. Since tomorrow is MLK Day I have a nice three day weekend. I plan to spend most of it in front of the fireplace enjoying the warmth! |
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#130
it's lovely to hear from you both~! (even if it's hard to know what's been keeping you down~ __________________ AWAKEN~! |
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#131
Jan I am sorry for what the women and your son put you through it's not fair
Christina I am happy you are going home but I wish you could get in to see your old pdoc I can't believe they can't find room for you. Liz did you get snow ? We heard Tampa got a dusting of snow. I can remember when I was in kindergarten it snowed in the Bay Area. Our parents got us up early to play in it but by lunch time it was gone. It's been real cold here to. We finely got rain but with all the wildfires we know have massive mud slides. People are missing it's real sad. I haven't been doing to well but oh well the cats are also keeping me up. I see the rhemy next week Kiya happy birthday hope you had a good day. If I forgot anyone I am sorry. Gus thank you for the beautiful pictures Hugs to all __________________ |
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#132
I am struggling with pain and depression. Feeling paralyzed and without motivation/energy.
I am sorry so many are having difficult challenges. Love to All! WC __________________ May we each fully claim the courage to live from our hearts, to allow Love, Faith and Hope to enLighten our paths. |
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#133
if only troubles were as short-lived as picked flowers~ __________________ AWAKEN~! |
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#134
I wish so much I could take all your aches and pains away, both in your bodies and in your hearts.
Now both my ears are all infected, but on a good note, my stomach is doing a little better. That's a major victory! We are under a severe winter storm warning, so I'm not going to try to go to the Dr. until Thurs., if they have an opening. Belle's tummy rumbled a lot last night so I rubbed it for her and got her up close to me so it would be nice and warm. She doesn't touch my nose anymore before she goes to sleep. She sticks her cold nose in my ear! I love you all!!!!!! __________________ I still dream and I still hope, therefore I can take what comes today. Jan is in Lothlorien reading 'neath a mallorn tree. My avatar and signature were created for my use only and may not be copied or used by anyone else. |
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#135
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#136
Cake, no snow this far south. Wickedly cold a few nights, but no snow. The poor citrus growers are getting slammed this year. First the hurricane blew a lot of the young fruit from the trees. Now they are trying to protect what's left from freezing. So glad my income does not depend on the weather.
There's another cold front moving through. Pain in my knees got so bad last night it kept me awake. Thinking of all of you. |
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#137
Thanks Cake!!
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#138
(((( all ))))
Am busy -doing about as usual. Ups and downs. Hurt shoulder and knee. Trying new book “Healing Thyroid “ which is much more than thyroid. Hoping against hope... Wishing you all well!!! (And warmth!!) __________________ Credits: ChildlikeEmpress and Pseudonym for this lovely image. alt="Universal Life Church | ULC" border="0"> |
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#139
my latest 'imaginary vacation spot', the pink sands of the Bahamas... __________________ AWAKEN~! |
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#140
Did too much yesterday and am paying for it today. I like to run all my errands on Friday so I don't have to go anywhere on the weekends. Didn't get home from work and errands until almost 8:30 last night. I'm wiped out today. Had plans to do things around the yard and house today. I suspect I'm going to spend the day curled up on the sofa.
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