Well, it's a done deal, y'all ... I filed for long-term disability with employer yesterday.

(Insert another crying jag here - It's a BIG 'un!)

I know it's the right decision, but it didn't make it any less difficult.

I had a bad evening yesterday.

ended up firing off an angry email to someone, about how they've been treating me and my rights (it made me fuming all evening)

of course I had no sleep (I can't remember the last time now, beyond memory range) and this morning not much o.

guess I should be greatful though- no to low pain levels and I did watch my favorite tv show this morning after breakfast

wish I was more useful though. defenetly feel that my life's been for nothing

[lizardlady]

Originally Posted by Pfrog

Tough decisions lay ahead!

Trying to not overthink those doomsday scenarios playing in my mind!

I think it's harder to make tough decisions when none of the outcomes are are all that great!

Pfrog, I think of that kind of choice as deciding whether you want to be poked in the left eye or the right.

[lizardlady]

Originally Posted by Pfrog

Well, it's a done deal, y'all ... I filed for long-term disability with employer yesterday.

(Insert another crying jag here - It's a BIG 'un!)

I know it's the right decision, but it didn't make it any less difficult.

Sorry Pfrog, posted previous message before seeing this one. Cry as much as you need hon. We are here to be with you.

Thank you, @lizardlady ...

[lizardlady]

Knees and hips hurt like crazy when I woke up. Thought it was arthritis. Rest of my body joined in. This a flare not arthritis. There's a tropical disturbance down near the Keys that's got to be causing this. I hate hurricane season.

I'm sorry, @lizardlady ...

Those weather systems are like a vice-grip on the body!

They are NOT our friends!

[~Christina]

Big hugs Pfrog

Liz im sorry your hurting so much, I hope it eases ,, We got heat indexes of 100-106 so I'm hurting like hell

RV I hope tomorrow is a better day for you

For all my chronic pain buddies ...



Sometimes a little humor helps ...

I showered today, so that's me hurting all day

I didn't even do my nails today. i was going too, but I had been through enough pain with the shower

[lizardlady]

RV, sorry you are hurting.

Pfrog, love the humor!

Christina, thanks for the hugs.

sleep=0

activities today=0

blah. it's going to be like this again all weekend. nothing on

I have made a list of 5 necessary chores that need done around the cottage each week.

I haven't had the energy to stay on top of these while working full time.

Not to mention the pain and fatigue!

Starting Monday, I'm going to tackle the chore I've assigned to that day.

It most likely will take most of the day with several breaks along the way, but ...

This is the plan I've implemented so we'll see how it goes.

today I feel a bit sick.

nothing serious. honestly: I think it's because my hair is going in my mouth (lol, I know, I need to actually get off my backside and do something) again though: another day of very little motivation

nothing but eat dinner later. that's the day

Originally Posted by Pfrog

I have made a list of 5 necessary chores that need done around the cottage each week.

I haven't had the energy to stay on top of these while working full time.

Not to mention the pain and fatigue!

Starting Monday, I'm going to tackle the chore I've assigned to that day.

It most likely will take most of the day with several breaks along the way, but ...

This is the plan I've implemented so we'll see how it goes.

I hope this works for you.

great at planning myself, suck at sticking to it

Pfrog is wondering should I go ahead and apply for SSDI too, or wait until the LTD claim with employer is finished processing.

Pfrog is also wondering if she will need an attorney that specializes in SSDI to help her through that process.

Pfrog gets an overwhelming and often crippling anxiety when facing a lot at one time.

Reading the documents becomes difficult and my focus gets fuzzy and disjointed.

Then everything starts falling apart.

It's always been that way, as far back as I can remember.

It scares me I will mess up and miss something very important.

[lizardlady]

Pfrog, what about contacting your state vocational rehabilitation program for help and guidance? The program is designed to help people making the kind of transition you're facing.

As for having trouble wading through reading stuff I have a few suggestions
It helps me to take notes on what I read. It means I have to understood the stuff enough to write the note. It helps me, especially if I'm flaring , to tackle small portions of the reading. If I try to just plow through it all becomes gibberish. Lastly, is there someone you trust that you could ask to also read the material? Some times a second set of eyes helps.

nothing to see here.

fed up, depressed, in pain, doing nothing all day..

Whew, Boy!

That social security application for disability is a long one!

Got it done for the most part though.

Thought of a couple of things to add overnight.

Hope it's sufficient.

out of breath and feel like I am going to fall.

pain is soooo bad