[lizardqueen13]

I'm having a rough few days. I got triggered somehow. I have that sinking, death-like feeling. Like the world is closing in, or the floor is falling, or just all the energy is blown out of me and all I feel is hopelessness and dread.

I have been putting in so much work over the last few months once I found out I have Complex PTSD. It has been so hard. I'm in trauma therapy, trying out EMDR, neurofeedback, DBT, reading countless books, trying so hard to be in the present and recognize when I'm in flashback mode.

Sometimes I don't know what's the point to all this. It feels like my life is in shatters and I'm not going to pick up the pieces no matter how hard I try. I feel like I got destined to have a miserable, lonely life. One where I don't achieve anything I have been working so hard for my whole life. I just don't feel that feeling that "life is a gift". Life is a slog for me. And if it's like this forever, really...what's the point to this work? I realize I may be having a flashback as I type this. But I'm not sure...maybe it's the truth.

Does anyone have some positive progress stories to give me some hope?

[Skeezyks]

Hello queen: I'm sorry you are feeling so... defeated...? (I don't know if that's the right word. But I know the feeling.) I'm afraid I don't have any particular positive success stories I can share. But hopefully others will & you will find coming here to PC to be of some comfort & support.

I see this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to PsychCentral! I hope you find the time you spend here to be of benefit. May I suggest you introduce yourself over on PC's New Member Introductions forum? Here's a link:

https://forums.psychcentral.com/new-...introductions/

Also... here's a link to the Complex PTSD forum in case you haven't been there already:

https://forums.psychcentral.com/complex-ptsd/

There's a lot of support that can be available here on PC. The more you post, & reply to other members' posts, the more a part of the community you will become. Plus there are the chat rooms where you'll be able to interact with other PC members in real time (once your first 5 posts have been reviewed & approved.) So please keep posting!

[MtnTime2896]

I have more time periods of limited flashbacks and intrusive memories. Other times it's a damn storm and hell on ****ing earth. Brainspotting has been helping me some, though.

I'm sorry you're going through this. PC is a good place to resort to. Hopefully you find your way.

[Wild Coyote]

Welcome to PC.
I hope you find the information and the support you may be seeking.
Please make yourself at home. Jump in wherever you feel led to do so.
I hope to see you around the forums.

WC

[Open Eyes]

I have been putting in so much work over the last few months once I found out I have Complex PTSD. It has been so hard. I'm in trauma therapy, trying out EMDR, neurofeedback, DBT, reading countless books, trying so hard to be in the present and recognize when I'm in flashback mode.

((lizardqueen)), first, welcome to PC and the PTSD forum. I can see you are trying very hard to understand what complex ptsd is, what that means to you and you want to find the fastest way to get rid of the symptoms you are experiencing. I cannot say enough that "patience" is very important to maintain as it will take you time to slowly work through all that you have in your history that has contributed to your struggling with this challenge. I am sorry you experience triggers that end up getting you into a low state and it can be extra frustrating when you don't quite understand what triggered it and why. You have to give yourself time and be patient while different things start to surface and eventually you will have a better understanding of what it all means. Please understand that what you are dealing with took place a long time ago and it's going to take you time to slowly understand it all and I know that can be frustrating and tiring and even scary.

Sometimes I don't know what's the point to all this.

I hear you, have felt that way myself and I am certain other members can relate to having that same feeling. The only way you are going to get to understanding is when you finally understand all the pieces and it's going to take time for you to have them all as when it's complex ptsd, that means you experienced things that you were too young to understand or even know not only what it meant, that it was toxic and dysfunctional and the personal affect whatever it was actually had on you and what in the now can aggravate it.

Each person is different depending on what their history was for them. Patience with self along with self care and taking time out if need be is a must as you slowly work through it all.

(((Caring Supportive Hugs)))
OE