PTSD Attack

It absolutely is an attack. I get an emotional attack, crying fit.

In an extremely stressful situation, (getting divorced, Father’s Day weekend, husband was taking kids up to visit other kid. He invited me several times to come along (he doesn’t want divorce) , i decided, having nothing to do, also Having been “disowned” by my mother, this time for good, and having defriended my toxic friend C, that I would go along the very last minute. I vowed to keep my mouth shut and just be a go along in the back seat. The ride there was fine. After that, my memory of the whole event is cloudy. I had a crying fit meltdown the next morning after having woken up at 5:30, hung out in the lobby surfing the internet for ways to get my *** home, pronto.

I melted from there, yada yada, until I was doing shots of vodka in the parking lot given to me by my husband. He said to ‘get my *** into that restaurant’.

I yelled at them all to just go eat and leave me alone in the parking lot. I walked across the place to a grocery, crying, looking like God knows what. I bought antihistamine and took 50 mg. It calmed me down by the time they came out to eat and I recovered from the attack by the time we got to our son’s family bar-b-q.

Needless to say, I did not make a great first impression on the new family. But, my family was very impressed how I managed to “pull off” acting like no drama had happened! My husband kept saying I was “flawless”. “You must be the best actress in the world.”

You got it together, at least superficially. I suppose there's cheers for that.
I'm sorry about the symptoms you experienced. I know those all too well.

We are great actresses. It is how we manage to live in. I can turn it on and off as needed. It is a survival tactic as far as I am concerned. Everyone thinks I got all together.