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Default Oct 21, 2018 at 01:08 AM
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"I never want to see you again"- my Mom
"Cant you just be normal"-my sister
"Dont leave your parents, you'll hurt them"-peacemakers
"Depression is just a lack of trust in God"-teacher

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Default Oct 22, 2018 at 04:44 AM
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You're lazy.
Just get over it.
You're weird for having a panic attack, it's just in your head. - my "best friend"

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Default Oct 22, 2018 at 09:46 AM
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EAT!, you son of a ***** kid! You look like you just came out of Auschewitz!
You have a nose like Carl Malden!
It for the best he died, he was very sick.
I had you in order to stay married to your father, to keep him around.
You’re a *****. You were born a *****.
I’m not as attracted to you while pregnant than before you were pregnant.
I don’t want THAT!
Your son’s the bottom of the barrel.
You might as well take him back, you are miserable with or without him.
I don’t care about anything but what’s best for me.
You never were going to be happy with anybody.

But what I’ve said to myself is by far much worse, too bad to write here.
And worse than what they said is what they didn’t say and what they did.

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Default Oct 22, 2018 at 02:40 PM
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"why can't you just die on the ward, make it easier for me"- mom

" clearly you're possessed by demons, and I can't trust a word you say"- mom

" you deserve all the trauma you get", some random lady who I knew at one point in my life

" abuse isn't trauma," my friend laura

" does trauma make you feel good and it easier to cope?" a girl called amy
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Default Oct 22, 2018 at 02:40 PM
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" well if you want to go to london to kill yourself, just do it and stop coming to my office", a therapist I saw a few years ago
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Default Oct 22, 2018 at 02:41 PM
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" your grandmother won't want you at her funeral"- mom

" you are not welcome in this family"- mom
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Default Oct 22, 2018 at 03:21 PM
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"You are nothing. You're just a parasite living off of us." - father
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Default Oct 22, 2018 at 11:32 PM
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EAT!, you son of a ***** kid! You look like you just came out of Auschewitz!
You have a nose like Carl Malden!
It for the best he died, he was very sick.
I had you in order to stay married to your father, to keep him around.
You’re a *****. You were born a *****.
I’m not as attracted to you while pregnant than before you were pregnant.
I don’t want THAT!
Your son’s the bottom of the barrel.
You might as well take him back, you are miserable with or without him.
I don’t care about anything but what’s best for me.
You never were going to be happy with anybody.

But what I’ve said to myself is by far much worse, too bad to write here.
And worse than what they said is what they didn’t say and what they did.
gosh that sounds real tough. I gotta say your brave

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Default Oct 22, 2018 at 11:34 PM
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"why can't you just die on the ward, make it easier for me"- mom

" clearly you're possessed by demons, and I can't trust a word you say"- mom

" you deserve all the trauma you get", some random lady who I knew at one point in my life

" abuse isn't trauma," my friend laura

" does trauma make you feel good and it easier to cope?" a girl called amy
ha! some people are so clueless!

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Default Oct 22, 2018 at 11:50 PM
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You don’t want to know. Ok “do you have brain damage?” “Are you lazy or just stupid?” To which I was thinking rather choice words for the person who said that to me. Turns out I have a mild learning disorder and have a masters degree and almost 2 masters degrees in science related fields. My neuropsychology test showed definite strengths and weaknesses to include decreased visual memory and strong auditory memory.
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You don’t want to know. Ok “do you have brain damage?” “Are you lazy or just stupid?” To which I was thinking rather choice words for the person who said that to me. Turns out I have a mild learning disorder and have a masters degree and almost 2 masters degrees in science related fields. My neuropsychology test showed definite strengths and weaknesses to include decreased visual memory and strong auditory memory.
2 masters degrees. wow!

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Default Oct 23, 2018 at 06:49 AM
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gosh that sounds real tough. I gotta say your brave
Thanks! I am brave. I have to be brave for myself. No one else is going to be strong for me and protect me. They never did. They still don’t. We all have to be our own heroes!

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Default Oct 23, 2018 at 01:07 PM
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She just eats, sleeps, and watches t.v. (said about me)

I know why you're wearing that pig shirt...because that's you! (followed by laughter)

Living situation has nothing to do with it!
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Default Oct 23, 2018 at 02:01 PM
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" your mother had good reason for abusing you"

honestly made it seem like I deserved it
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Default Oct 23, 2018 at 08:07 PM
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" I thought for sure Deejay would tell on me" said my abuser to his,wife and she told me that. Why would she tell me that...nothing but more pain.

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Default Oct 25, 2018 at 02:57 PM
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who on earth is Carl Malden

I have never heard of him
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***. TRIGGER WARNING ***

He was drunk.

He wouldn’t remember.

I didn’t think it (you) mattered.

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