PTSD from mental and physical bullying in school

I was wondering if I have some sort of PTSD. As a child, I was constantly bullied both mentally and physically in school. Verbal insults everyday, but also getting beaten on a regular basis. As in, kicked in the groin and chest, hit all over the body, hit in the head, etc. I was kicked in the groin so many times that I was wondering if I would end up infertile. I also have a scar on my arm from when I was 11, and some boy basically rammed me like some sort of WWF move until I fell on the pavement and layers of skin fell off. My arm got scraped to the dermis.

There was also a time during the last year school dance in primary school when I was 12 and had to dance with some girl. I messed up and could not get the slow dance right. She even tried to put my hands on her waist to show me how to dance, but I could not. My classmates then proceded to berate and make fun of me.

Up to now I have problems with touch. Whenever I get touched, whether a pat on the back from male acquaintances, arm on shoulder or high-five, I associate these touches with assault. Also, I have big problems with romantic touch, like when I was 14 and some girl in high school tried to lace fingers with me. I pulled away like as if my hand were on a hot stove. Also at high school prom when I was 17, my prom date got really frustrated when I had problems doing slow dance where couples hold each other.

No one here can diagnose you. However, from what you described experiencing, yes, you can be suffering from ptsd. You may benefit greatly by seeing a therapist that specializes in ptsd and can help you work on healing from all this abuse.

I also think you could be suffering from PTSD and that seeing a competent therapist who specialises in PTSD would probably be helpful to you.