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Default Nov 24, 2018 at 02:16 PM
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In middle school and high school I was bullied all the time and everyone hated me. In every PE lesson where we had to be in teams I was rejected.

Sometimes the teacher chose 2 team captains and they took it in turns to choose other people to be on their team. I was ALWAYS last. Every time. And whoever had to have me on their team groaned about it.

Sometimes the teacher would randomly choose people for each team. When they chose me and told me which team to go to, everyone on that team complained "why do we have to have HER??" while the other team were relieved they didn't get me.

I really hated PE for that reason and I actually pretended to be sick a lot on days with PE so I could stay off school.
I relate to this. I had no friends in middle school and was also bad at sports, so no one wanted me on their team. The gym teacher used to divide up the last few kids, so no one was actually picked last, but I still knew I was last.
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Default Nov 24, 2018 at 02:36 PM
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I relate to this. I had no friends in middle school and was also bad at sports, so no one wanted me on their team. The gym teacher used to divide up the last few kids, so no one was actually picked last, but I still knew I was last.
I don't think I even got the chance to be good or bad, they just rejected me from the start.

Once in high school we were playing football and the other girls were so angry about having me on the team, they ganged up on me and started tackling me and knocked me down. Then started yelling about how s*** I was. The teacher didn't do anything about it, just stood there with his arms folded and told us to "stop fighting".
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Maybe these things happened to you, maybe they happened to someone else.... Here's your chance to tell them.

I'll go first:
I remember a guy who was kinda awkward in jr. high, but he would speak his mind. Quietly, but with confidence. He wasn't perfect, and he sometimes got things wrong, and he knew it. But, the people around him thought it was funny to loudly ask him questions, and then berate his answers, no matter what those answer were, without even checking to see if he knew what he was talking about.

An example: Many states, including the state he lived in have a different style of plates for trucks than they do for cars. I don't know why it even came up, but one day, someone loudly asked this guy if he knew why some plates looked different than others. He replied, "Well, trucks have a different style". The respondent laughed and said, "That can't be true, because I saw an El Camino with a truck plate.." His response was, "In our state El Caminos are classified as trucks." More laughter.
I can definitely related to having someone do that to me.
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Default Nov 26, 2018 at 03:29 AM
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I have took a few things back to shops for a refund after "using" them for a short time. But they weren't what I wanted so I didn't use them much, but I did fully charge something, then find out it wasn't what I wanted. I packed them so neatly into the box you couldn't tell they had been used. Said they were unwanted gifts.
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I have took a few things back to shops for a refund after "using" them for a short time. But they weren't what I wanted so I didn't use them much, but I did fully charge something, then find out it wasn't what I wanted. I packed them so neatly into the box you couldn't tell they had been used. Said they were unwanted gifts.


I get bitterly upset at unwanted items (it sounds really weak, right?)

but if i buy something I can't use or it won't work, then I'll just break down crying- even though I know it isn't my fault it's broken

says the woman who takes joy in breaking her stuff. I'm unreal
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I get bitterly upset at unwanted items (it sounds really weak, right?)

but if i buy something I can't use or it won't work, then I'll just break down crying- even though I know it isn't my fault it's broken

says the woman who takes joy in breaking her stuff. I'm unreal
They weren't unwanted gifts, they were things I had bought because I thought they would be good, but then realised they weren't, or didn't do what I wanted. Things I shouldn't have really bought in the first place.
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Default Nov 28, 2018 at 12:14 AM
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One time when I was in about 3rd grade I kept having a precursor to existential dread (whatever could be considered existential dread for a 3rd grader). I would listen to "Man on the Moon" by R.E.M. and reminisce. I guess I still do that to some degree. It's my personality.

Another time I thought I stole something from a shop when I was about 5 or 6. The alarm for the shop went off and I got really scared. I thought they would put me in jail. But it turned out that I hadn't stolen anything.

So many memories of things. . .
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One time when I was in about 3rd grade I kept having a precursor to existential dread (whatever could be considered existential dread for a 3rd grader). I would listen to "Man on the Moon" by R.E.M. and reminisce. I guess I still do that to some degree. It's my personality.

Another time I thought I stole something from a shop when I was about 5 or 6. The alarm for the shop went off and I got really scared. I thought they would put me in jail. But it turned out that I hadn't stolen anything.

So many memories of things. . .


so what triggered the alarm in the shop?

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Default Nov 28, 2018 at 01:24 PM
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When I was very young I had an imaginary friend. Once I feel out with this friend because she was "just an idiot like everyone else".

Also I was scared of the dark, or more scared of the shapes of the things on the shelves, how they looked in the dark. So I would lie in bed at a weird angle with just my face sticking out so that I could breathe. All I could see from here was the blank wall so I couldn't see the other things I thought were so scary.
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Default Nov 29, 2018 at 01:33 PM
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About 2 or 3 years ago I was in a shop looking for something. There was 2 old women, one had picked up something and couldn't read the small text, the other one couldn't either. I stupidly tried to "help" even though i know my help is bad. I reached up to take the box out of her hand intending to read what it said for her.

But because I can barely talk with such a weak voice I hadn't said anything. She snatched her hand back and give me a terrifying look like I was pure evil. The other one had a similar look on her face. I felt so ashamed I quickly walked away. I could feel my face was really hot and I felt so bad and couldn't believe I did that. What was I thinking?!

I even feel ashamed writing about it here now. It was such a bad thing to do, the wrong thing to do. I should have just ignored them. That's the best way to stay out of trouble, don't talk to anyone, don't try to interact with anyone in any other way. Did I really think she would let me take it out of her hand and mumble something incoherent in my crackly voice?

The shame!
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Default Nov 30, 2018 at 01:56 PM
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When I was about 11 or 12, I made christmas cards from all of my toys and stuck them all over the bedroom wall. I also tried to be clever and put "jokes" on some of them, like some cards do have. I obviously thought they were funny at the time but they weren't, actually thinking about it now, they were really embarrassing. And they were stuck all over the wall for my parents to see, they must have thought they were really stupid and embarrassing. The whole idea of doing that was bad enough but the "jokes" were worse.
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Default Nov 30, 2018 at 05:50 PM
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Almost every day I finish my work in an hour or two hours and then spend the rest of the day doing stuff that really isn't working like posting on PC, reading a book, watching a movie or TV show, shopping on Amazon etc. I'm amazed I get paid because I don't have that much work to do. A few times in the month I actually have a lot of stuff to do, but most of the time, not that much. It makes me feel like kind of bad because I get paid for doing stuff I could do at home. But I'm here if someone needs me, like sometimes my boss needs me for stuff. It's a weird feeling. Kit.
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Default Dec 01, 2018 at 05:18 AM
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one year I braught someone a jazz cd (this person loved jazz, and what I got for her was a 5 cd box set)

she opened it up and looked at it and turned round to me and said, you know em, I don't actually want this one

talk about hurt.. I made a special effert to buy her that and surprise her
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Default Dec 01, 2018 at 05:23 AM
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one time I leant a friend a special cd of mine (it was special because it had some songs on you can't buy in regular shops). she wanted to listen to it- and I'm like fine, give it a listen and see what you think

well, she made the disk quite dirty- and even scratched it. the following week when I came to collect it from her, she goes to me... well, I sort of scratched your special cd- and I'm like that's okay, it can't all be scratched- I'll have it back and see how good it still plays, anyway it's special to me

then she goes... I didn't want to embarrass you by giving you a scratched cd so I snapped it and through it away

and I'm like you....... what?. I can't get that cd back, ever. I hate you so bad now

most of those songs were forign language (spanish), and getting them back- even in digital form will be hard
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Default Dec 01, 2018 at 10:36 AM
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my parents not letting me be part of my grandmother's funeral
it was heartbreaking, because in her last few weeks- they even stopped me from contacting her

I rememeber once when I tried to contact the home, the lady tracy sayying they had instructions to hang up if I called- which was so sad and hurtful

when she died (at the age of 95), I felt very upset- not just because she'd died, but because I wasn't allowed to be a part of it- I tried to think of a way to honour her myself, but just couldn't think of anything..
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Default Dec 01, 2018 at 10:37 AM
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the mix of emotions I felt when my family emigrated

on one hand thinking... good riddence, you've done nothing but hurt me- I'm so glad to be alone

and the other... well what a charming thing to do. tell all your friends I'm dead and then emigrate
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Default Dec 01, 2018 at 10:39 AM
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when someone insisted I took a certain medication for depression though it was clear (not only to them, but also to me) it really wasn't helping me.

they were like well, it's this or nothing.. so I had to take it

but I don't see those people now- it's someone else
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Default Dec 01, 2018 at 01:27 PM
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When I was in my late teens and early 20's everything was right and all set up for me. But I blew it. I didn't realise it at the time but now I do. Everything was really how I wanted and could have just got better and better but no, what happened?

Those stupid "obsessions" started in a negative way. Around that time was when the first negative obsession started, the first thing I was ashamed of and couldn't get, and was too nervous. That made me so angry and frustrated and distracted me from what was really important.

Everything went downhill from there and now I have to try to repair some of the damage.
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Default Dec 03, 2018 at 04:44 AM
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so one year on my birthday a friend of mine decided to trick me (just to see my reaction)

all year I'd wanted this new phone and so she gave me a present which turned out to be a single chocolate bar.

I went to hug her and thank her for the gift and she's like I know it's not much, but are you okay with that?. I'm like sure sure, it's fine

and I went off in silence

later she came to me with a big box and said this is your real present

and it was the phone

just goes to show I'm satisfied with anything
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