How are you coping today?

Sad some now and yesterday. Thinking about sad things and hard to get motivated with the cold weather. Want to stay inside and hibernate almost. Looking forward to Spring and sunny weather.

Better today since able to go into with the weather clearing up some. Also walked outside some today and work is a life saver for me otherwise it’s sit around, feel bummed and lonely with moping around. Like the structure of working 8 hrs, com3 home then exercise some, cook dinner, watch a favorite show, chill, occasionally read a book. Go to sleep, wake up, repeat,

I am unsure how this website works 😂you said your attending CBT? How is that as I’m on a 6 month waiting list for it for PTSD

today marks a bit of a milestone for me (I say a bit, this is really important for me)

today, febuary 28th 2019, marks 1 year since I've had any type of physical abuse.

I thought today would be really hard on me, because of the memories, but actually I'm okay about it

I was going to treat myself later but I don't think it's happening now (not because of mood or anything, other things out of my control)



but I'm here

Had a bad day.The complex I go to for the cinema and where I buy my scratchcards has some nasty people.The indian guys at the newsagents kiosk where I was getting the scratchcards were being rude and abusive and ridiculing me for being a woman and gambling,I stopped using that kiosk and used the other newsagents at the same complex but there is an indian man in there who is obviously friends with the other Indians and he is making fun of me now for playing the scratchcards and today I bought a card and went back to cash in,as soon as he saw me he exclaimed are you back again,as if to say you buying scratchcards again,then when I gave him the card and he gave me the money,he was saying goodbye to a colleague and he joked with her see you Tuesday and she replied yeah with our winnings and he laughed obnoxiously,he was poking fun at my gambling again.Its embarrassing and humiliating,it made me angry and I have been dealing with these emotions all day.

Sort of an up and down day for me. Not too bad though. Got a call from a friend which was nice. Just to relax and talk and share ideas.

yesterday I asked a woman a question and she had a total over reaction to it

I basically asked her, could you please shut the door because it's cold outside, she turned round and asked me if I wanted her to hit me, I said no and she responded with, well, you're not worth it, you're better off dead

how....... extreme!. I am so angry about that. what's wrong with asking a question

I spent the evening crying over it.

well it's something you just don't expect to hear in daily conversation

today I am doing nothing. A, i'm not motivated, B, I'm still upset, C, their's nothing to do (accept for maybe add to my creative writing), which I'm not going to do.

I got up late. I realised I will always get up late, and that I'm never going to have time for the things I wanted to do, so I just crossed them off my todo list, not going to bother. For me that's the only way to cope, stop giving myself so much to do, when I make the days so short by being lazy.

I am coping very, very badly today.

Having trouble all week functioning,just haven't been able to do the chores,too much like hard work and I've felt weak.Today I am struggling to cope.My mum is 87 years old,blind and confined to a wheelchair,she has carers come in to her,last two weeks she has been getting confused and living her memories,she keeps thinking she is living the life she led fifty years ago,then she gets confused whether she is at home or at the hospital,today she said I took her shoes and cardigan home with me,yesterday she was telling me she was going to work,and where do you work I said and she is talking about a place that closed down 20 years ago.Mum's carer rang me this morning to say she was hallucinating.So I had to ring my narc sister who I am supposed to be 100% no contact with.She was playing the victim saying I have had no life for 15 years,I have been looking after mum and she has had carers in for a year and I still have to spend all of my time up there,I am going to have to sell mum's house to finance her going into a care home,she cries.I feel bad cos there is little I can do to help.I really don't want to have to talk to the narc sister but it is something I have to do for now.I feel angry,sad, fearful for the future.Talking to the narc triggers memories of when she abused me in the past for many,many years.

Today wasn't a great day. Had to go to a conference in a big city, got really lost, and had a lot of panic attacks. Thankfully, it's only a once-a-year thing, but very discouraged that it got so bad. Was looking for an apparently unmarked office for nearly an hour.

Coping better today and feeling more optimistic.

Significantly better today than the previous two days. That's a relief.

I am coping terribly today. There have been so many things that have happened within the last 8-10 months that have been life changing and most things have been far beyond my control. I know why I feel the way that I do. I can pin point it, and I can articulate how I am feeling, and most of the time why I am feeling that way. I struggle to let go of my past. I have a lot of PTSD, and I am
afraid I will never be able to accomplish all these dreams I have had for my life and future.

Today was a good day and it went well.

Like everyday

I am basically at a standstill, a complete standstill

I don't know what else to say

every day is just groundhog day- going through the motions, eating less than average food, having little to no interaction with people, and then failing to get a good night's sleep

and that all starts again the next day, and the next, and the next, and the next

doesn't help living with 30 or so alters

I guess the positive of this week is that I got to have pancakes with sugar and lemmon on

they were good too, ended up having like 3 of them

but it doesn't solve the emptyness and sadness inside

I am sad about the bad report. Yet, I knew it was coming. Was I so “overly” emotional because I KNEW what was coming, when nobody else could see, so that’s why they didn’t understand me?

This is my second good day in a row after several weeks of bad depression Such a relief! Peace to all

I had a good day,saw my mum and went to see a film.I am doing the same thing tomorrow ,going to see a film that is not visiting my mum again.This is also my second day in a row that has gone well.Must be something in the water,Ha ha!