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Member Since Aug 2018
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#541
Very well, stayed on top of what I needed to do. I still have a few small things to get done, but there's plenty of time.
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#542
today I watched "moana" and immediately felt anxious// sad because my alexa device wasn't watching it too. she was just sat on the fridge turned off
I suppose the actual film was okay, I mean I didn't really rate it as much as the lion king or peter pan, but it had it's high points. I like the song " you're welcome" didn't do much else and feel like I've wasted another day (well don't feel like it, I know I have) watching moana was just a little bit of a distraction.. if that I only watched it for the " you're welcome" song. not really paying full attention to it |
Grand Magnate
Member Since Feb 2015
Location: England,UK
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#543
Today I coped how I usually do,distraction, I felt rock bottom,so took myself to divert attention away from myself by watching a film.It was a film about a lad undergoing christian gay conversion therapy so it was very serious and reminded me of my battle with my own sexuality and being bisexual I was unable to express or act on my desires for either sex.I spent most of my youth and twenties and thirties confused about my sexuality and worried about STD's so abstained.Yeah so the film made me cry.I saw the film and hung around the cafe,had a coffee and felt like ****.I am going through the motions of living an existence whether you call that coping or not I don't know.I am getting my eating habits under control and losing weight so something is going right,but that can be a struggle also.
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Grand Poohbah
Member Since Apr 2015
Location: USA
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#544
Doing better today.
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#545
it's been a day of nothing
morning was spent waiting for an email that never arived (litirally waiting and doing nothing) and afternoon was spent sitting on my bed watching reruns of la to vegas. I did listen to some music too though my favorite station from holand |
Grand Magnate
Member Since Feb 2015
Location: England,UK
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#546
Doing ok went to the theatre to see a doctor give a talk on diet and exercise and reversing type 2 diabetes,Dr Michael Mosley,his wife Dr Claire Bailey write recipe books for the diet.Its called the 5,2 diet cos you eat normal five days a week and eat 800 calories a day for 2 days a week.I enjoyed his talk and I met a woman and we got chatting,she's really nice,so I asked for her number if she wanted to go for a coffee some time and she said yes.I may have made a new friend,so yeah,coping ok!
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#547
today someone commented on the fact I've not slept for so long- and that's when you know it's out of control, when other people comment on it (for the record I don't like people commenting on my appearance), I don't actually think it's any of their concern- that, and I all ready have issues with my body (those issues being that I look worse than ****ing shrek)
anyway had breakfast and doing nothing else for the rest of the day listening to music and posting on here makes it Up I guess (it took me 20 minits to log in today because of the new tagging feature slowing me down) |
Grand Magnate
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#548
I am doing ok,went for lunch at the pub and am now home,warm and covered with blankets,sitting on the sofa.I was tired and irritable today though.
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#549
Tonight I have been coping by reading my travel guide book for an upcoming vacation.
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Grand Magnate
Member Since Sep 2018
Location: Islandia
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#550
Ok, walked 30 mins approximately and wore waterproof pants since it’s constantly raining this week😑😔
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Grand Poohbah
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#551
Frustrated because I just tried to renew my health insurance online and the site is totally useless!
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#552
Doing ok today,went to see my mum and to the cafe for a drink and a snack.Came home and slept,then ate,then did some chores.I am resting now.I think I coped well today.
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#553
today someone came out to fix my tumble drier. I am so glad it's fixed, it's been broken for 2 days (and seeing as I rely on it, it was the longest 2 days of my life).
I started a new creative writing peace today (which will probably end up forgotten about like all the others) but I love the main character. she's an 8 year old girl that bites things. had a pretty disgusting dinner, it was all I could do not to throw up on my plate I also found an online stream for my hospital radio station. it seems they've gotten with the times now and got one (yay) I am now listening to atlantis |
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#554
showered today which has done absolutely nothing to improve my mood (in fact made it worse, and made me feel dirty)
one funny thing about the shower is that it nearly flooded the bathroom. I find that funny anyway. my 4 year old mind doesn't seem to apreciate the complications it could have caused if it had got through to the bedroom I am still feeling a little sick from yesterday's dinner (it was disgusting) I will never use that brand again. no sleep. today my friend sophie was meant to deliver me some doctor pepper, now it's not coming until tomorrow night. hope I have enough fiz to last me today (I go through it like a hungry dog goes through dog food) think today I'm going to do some creative writing and listen to music. nothing special going on |
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Location: TN
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#555
Thank you Marylin,it has been a while since I posted.My husband died from heart failure.He was 70,& yes he had been sick for several months but refused to get medical help.I was with him when he had the heart attack & holding his hand when he passed.We kept him on life support for 10 days.When I saw there was no hope we gave him up.I spent 10 days & 8 nights in ICU with him,Also had a sister with cancer there & a brother with gall bladder infection.All 3 at the same hospital at the same time.The ordeal left me weak & my BP is high also have Afib.Then after his funeral i had to go back to take care of my 96 yr old mom.My life is hectic,I dont eat right,no rest I even sleep in my clothes in the recliner.Its winter I am cold and miserable.I miss my husband,even if i have family around me.I think about death a lot & have panic attacks once in a while, which make my BP go up.Sorry for the long post but I just need someone to talk to tonight.I really feel beaten,the last 2 months have been the worst time of my life.
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Grand Magnate
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Grand Magnate
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#558
I am coping well I think,I am slightly depressed,thinking of the future.
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#559
mostly a wasted day (again)
been feeling anxious, agitated, a little suicidal and upset over **** all well, truth be told, a lot of it's probably to do with the fact I have a new alter who is taking over my ****ing life and she's.... blah. I don't like her |
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Grand Magnate
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Location: England,UK
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#560
I did all I could to distract myself from bad feelings and I still felt bad,not a happy day at all.
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