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Default Apr 15, 2019 at 11:53 AM
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I struggled yesterday but my mood lightened today.It is almost 6pm,I am behind with the chores cos I slept today but I will plough on in the next two hours and get them done.First thing is to close the patio door and put the heating on cos it has gone really cold.I never want to feel as bad as I did yesterday again,I felt terrible,so fingers crossed this better mood lasts and I won't have any struggles with dark negative emotions again.
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Struggling bad..breakups are not easy. Especially with a heartless ex who sees no wrong
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Default Apr 16, 2019 at 02:29 PM
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Not very well, I am struggling,I want support,love and attention.I want help with all the many jobs I have to do around the house........I want a better,more interesting and enjoyable life,I want friends and lovers..To make thing worse some woman was coughing her germs in the air in the cinema screen on Sunday last,and now I have a sore throat,I wanted to tell her to cover her mouth with a hanky,I knew I'd catch germs off of her,so bloody thoughtless people are!

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Default Apr 16, 2019 at 03:12 PM
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raging vortex,I am sorry that you have been abandoned by your online support group.
I hope you won't take it to heart and feel too bad.You still have us here so that might be some consolation.Try and
keep your spirits up.It should be ok,all is not lost is it?


I guess not

what hurt me most is people welcoming me and being nice, then find the following morning I couldn't post

yes I've got this site, you're right

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Default Apr 16, 2019 at 03:12 PM
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I've been okay today

nothing really productive done, but that doesn't matter because my emotions are okay
 
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Default Apr 17, 2019 at 03:13 PM
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I am doing ok considering I have this cold,I have taken paracetamol.I have loads of dishes to wash right now and pots and pans and got to sort the recycling.The quicker I start the sooner I will finish,I will put on a CD to listen to while I do them.I have been reflecting on this next week and what I have got coming up.I have my hysteroscopy tomorrow,Friday more chores and baking Easter cakes.Saturday yet more chores,make curry ready for a meal with my niece Easter Sunday.Easter Sunday eat with my niece,give her her Easter egg,take her to the dessert place for ice creme,to the cafe for coffee and to the theatre,we are watching the Billy Fury story show.Then Tuesday I am visiting my mum after which I am going to see a film.Then Friday am starting Art classes.and the following Sunday going to see Avengers Endgame at the cinema.Quite a lot and I hope I am over this cold by Sunday.Right on with this washing up,get it done.It is 21:12.Will come back and let you know when I am finished.
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Default Apr 17, 2019 at 03:33 PM
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Not very well, I am struggling,I want support,love and attention.I want help with all the many jobs I have to do around the house........I want a better,more interesting and enjoyable life,I want friends and lovers..To make thing worse some woman was coughing her germs in the air in the cinema screen on Sunday last,and now I have a sore throat,I wanted to tell her to cover her mouth with a hanky,I knew I'd catch germs off of her,so bloody thoughtless people are!


a more exciting life would be nice.

I'm always going on about not even being content, and if you can't even be content with your own life, what's the point

but then I have no idea what would make me feel that way

I do,

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Default Apr 17, 2019 at 03:35 PM
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Default Apr 17, 2019 at 04:39 PM
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22.33,I have done the washing up dried it and put it away,tidied the kitchen and mopped the floor.It took just over an hour.I am having a malibu with ice and orange now to cool me down,I got hot doing all that.I cleaned the recycling tins as well as put them in a recycling bag and put that outside.I feel better for sorting the kitchen.Tomorrow I will shower before going to my hysteroscopy and concentrate on that and when I get home mix the filling for my savoury Easter cakes that I will bake on Friday.Friday I also have to hoover and sort the new nets to hang,wash the patio doors,iron a tablecloth and tidy the coffee table,it is covered with stuff,empty the upstairs bins and sort the cat litter. Never ending chores I have to do!I am getting tired and dizzy just thinking about it all!I think I did well today considering I have this heavy cold.
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Default Apr 18, 2019 at 04:48 AM
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Great because I got up at 6.20 and have got so much done already. It's only 10.48 but I've already got half of the things crossed off my todo list, including 2 big tasks. This totally takes the pressure off the rest of the day.
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Default Apr 18, 2019 at 06:21 AM
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I cancelled the hysterscopy for today because of my heavy cold which got worse when I woke up today,I can't cope with this cold and having stuff put inside me and having my bottom end exposed to strangers,so as soon as I could think after I woke up I reached for the phone and cancelled.Lucky I had an afternoon appointment and not early morning.They said they could hear from my voice I had a bad cold so they cancelled and said they would send me the details of the next available appointment.Hooray, so I don't have to go through that unpleasant procedure today at least.

So I am not coping with anything today,I am just going to rest,and maybe later tonight I will mix the filling for my savoury cakes that I am making and baking
tomorrow,it has to be left in the ridge overnight.But I am absolutely not doing anything else today,I deserve a day's rest to recover from this cold.
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Feeling strong and like the emotional breakdown I suffered over my FOO prepared me and greatly lessened the blow for this new, unwanted trauma situation. I was crying and my head spinning for a week, but I feel just fine with acceptance and letting it play out however it will now.

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Default Apr 19, 2019 at 09:31 AM
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Not coping well today.I slept mainly I am still tired.I haven't done any chores and I need to do some,hoover needs doing badly got to do it before dark,I have to wax my face,dye my hair and shower.There is ironing to do but can postpone that,and I was going to hang new nets but can do that tomorrow.So long as I hoover,make dinner and wax and dye and shower I will be happy tonight.I feel so weak and lacking energy.
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Default Apr 21, 2019 at 03:46 AM
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I woke up tired again I want some more sleep!
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I don’t know, I have insomnia and it’s a little after 2 am. Time to go to sleep now.
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I’m not crying!

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Step by step.
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TBH all I am doing is fighting with uncaring people for love and respect.

This isn’t about anyone here. You all are awesome.

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I felt crappy, went for a run, felt great and got some stuff done, but now I just feel crappy and depressed again.

And this pattern seems to happen every day now
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