How to get over a 'loss' after years?

I'm not talking about a person I've lost. No, it's a job - right after studying I found an awesome job with amazing coworkers, for which I had moved to an exciting new town. I was there for 3 years, then they sadly shut down. I found something else but the difference was extreme - I was very unhappy at first. Later managed to improve some things and everything was 'ok' but I still very much missed the old job.

It's now been almost 3 years since I left that great first job and I can tell that I'm still not really over it. I've been trying to find a similar job and now that I actually have an interview coming up I can feel hopelessness washing over me and thoughts like 'I won't get it anyway' or 'even if I do, it surely won't be as good'. Generally I still often wish I could just return to that happy time and kinda feel like I will never be that happy again, almost like my life is already over.

I'm young and logically I know I will probably be happy again but I feel like I'm not even open to giving life another chance. How do I stop this senseless pining for a time that is over?

good luck with the interview.

what sort of job are you applying for?

I honestly don't have any advice for you

while I've never worked, I certainly feel the same way- not about work, obviously, but about lost years of my life- years where in sted of being in school and studying hard and doing things normal kids do, I was in hospital severely ill- and on top of that dealing with abuse from my family

I lost out to most of my childhood. I'll never get that back, never

tomorrow I could go on the swings and sing twinkle twinkle little star, but a woman doing that at my age is just.... frowned apon, I guess

and my fat bottom fitting snuggly on a swing?

dream on