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Default May 14, 2019 at 04:26 AM
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Please forgive me here if this is a long read, or if I seem a little out of sorts (not that anyone really knows me on this site, but still) here.

I'm writing this in an almost desperate act/ attempt at finding anyone out there who can relate, or knows how to interact/ talk with someone with issues/ conditions such as (listed below).

Along with dealing with things like working a full time job, trying to have a relationship (unsuccessfully), even dealing with something as simple as going to the store for food and supplies. All while continuing to struggle through one day to the next, feeling like you don't belong, you don't matter, that or no one wants you around. Feeling as if you're nothing but a burden on those around you/ in your life, that or nothing but a nuisance

  • Borderline personality disorder
  • Bipolar 1 (w/ Rapid/ or Ultradian cycling, along with psychotic tendencies)
  • Complex-PSTD (never served, or seen hand-to-hand combat, yet you'd have to hear my story to understand why I was dx'd with this, if interested in knowing)
  • Dissociate Disorder
  • Chronic Depression
  • Agoraphobia
  • Social Anxiety
  • Chronic Insomnia


Not to bore anyone with too much tmi here, yet I've never found anyone who can really relate, or for that matter knows how to interact/ talk with someone with such issues as mine.

We all have our own story's to tell, this is true, yet I spend a great deal of time isolated and alone (given how my issues effect my life on any given day), yet I've found it extremely difficult to open up to those who don't understand these conditions.

I spend far more time with no one to talk/ turn to, where the deafening silence of these four walls becomes too much to deal with, along with racing thoughts/ scenario's which continually play out in my head once something effects me when it comes to my conditions.

Its more like, once triggered, the anger slowly morphs into sadness and despair, the despair later turns into deep depression and self loathing, and before too long, I'm altogether wishing bad things and can't find any comfort from anyone, only able to find solace in sleep. In the hopes tomorrow will be a new day, and with that, new possibilities other then what's already been on my plate, if any of that makes any sense?
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Default May 14, 2019 at 10:10 AM
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I'm so sorry you're hurting SO MUCH, KasperBlue! I just want to let you know that I'm here or you and that I care about you, and I'm sure many others as well! Please NEVER give up hope and KEEP TALKING! There ARE people who understand and who will always be there for you! I PROMISE YOU ALL OF THAT BECAUSE IT IS TRUE! PLEASE REMEMBER ALL OF THAT BECAUSE IT IS TRUE! Please feel free to tell me everything if you feel like it and if you want to, ok? I'm sure there are MANY people who can relate to your struggles, especially here on PC! YOU'RE NOT ALONE! I PROMISE YOU ALL OF THAT BECAUSE IT IS TRUE! PLEASE REMEMBER ALL OF THIS AS MUCH AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN BECAUSE IT IS TRUE! Please keep us updated as much as you possibly CAN if you want to, ok? We DO want to know how things are going for you and if things are getting ANY better! WE ALL CARE ABOUT YOU! THAT'S A PROMISE! Please feel free to PM me anytime if you feel like it and if you want to, ok? Sending many hugs to you, KasperBlue!
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How you are feeling when you sleep tells it all. Dreams tell how we are feeling in real life. If you are having a peaceful sleep then everything is going OK in your waking life. If you are finding solace in sleep, then you are healing.

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KasperBlue, I'm so sorry you're struggling. It's a lot to handle. Are you in therapy? I hope someone is able to help more than I can. But I want you to know I read your post and you are not a burden at all. You have a right to be here and take up space as much as anybody else.
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(((((((((( KasperBlue )))))))))))

I read your post and I’m thinking of you... please post here as much as you need to, you’re not a burden at all. Many safe hugs

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