What's wrong with me?

First of all is like to apologise if this in the wrong section but I didn't know where else to put it. Anyway I've been wondering if there's something seriously wrong with me because I have super intense emotions and feel like I can't control them. I can also be quite manipulative and harassing, it's led me to believe I'm just a horrible human being that can't change. I've pushed so many people away because of this and I try anything to get them back. I have very low self esteem and social anxiety and depression, could it stem from that or am I just messed up?

I'd like to add that I do feel empathy and I feel it way too strongly to the point where I feel others pain strongly which is why it hurts so much when I hurt people.

Sounds like you might be an empath like me

It doesn't sound like you're messed up, @5stacks! I am REALLY SO VERY, VERYMUCH TRULY, DEEPLY SORRY for what you're going through though! You're probably just an empath like Fighter4ever has already wisely said better than I ever could. The only thing that worries me is that you've said that you also manipulate and harass people. Can you elaborate on that? In any case I HIGHLY SUGGEST to see a professional therapist and start working with Him/Her to get at the bottom of this! He/She's there to help you after all! I hope you'll be able to work on what you're struggling with! Please definitely seek ALL th ehelp you can get and I hope you have SOMEONE IRL support you as well, such as Family members or Friends! Feel free to PM me ANYTIME as well! I'm ALWAYS available for you when you need Advice and Support! I am SURE ALL THE OTHERS WILL ALSO GLADLY AND WONDERFULLY HELP YOU AS WELL! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH You, @5stacks, Your Family, Your Friends and ALL Of Your Loved Ones! Please do keep fighting and do keep rocking as much as you possibly can like you're already wonderfully doing ALL AND ENTIRELY BY YOURSELF adn ALL AND ENTIRELY ON YOUR OWN!

Same goes for me...I agree wholeheartedly with MickeyCheeky, am also always here if you need to chat. Pm me if you need

@MickeyCheeky Thank you very much I really appreciate it. I guess by manipulating I mean sort of emotional blackmail such as "if you leave me I'll be very depressed" I don't intend to harm anyone with it and by harass I meant if someone leaves me I will message them way too many times trying to convince them to change their minds. I never actually intend to harm anyone on purpose but it really sucks because I lost my best friend from it. I'm trying my best to change. You can also message me if you need to vent or talk to anyone.

@Fighter4ever thank you! That goes for you too if you need anyone to vent to or anything etc.

Hey hun

How are you travelling?