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Default Jan 20, 2020 at 01:12 PM
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For a very long time I've allowed people to treat me horribly. I never once stood up for myself and stayed completely quiet. Been bullied since I was younger and I would always cry and be alone. It got to the point where I would hide myself and anytime someone liked me, I would always wonder why. When people were really nice to me, I got suspicious. Took me a very long time to say anything or stand up for myself. Just allowed to be pushed around and mistreated, because I felt not worthy. I hated who I was inside and didn't think anyone would ever truly care about me. Sometimes I would be off alone and overhear people talking badly of me and than they would try to act nice to me when they saw me.

It took so long for me to love myself and give myself self care and love. This is how used I was to being mistreated, that it took me a long time to trust anyone and pick out good friends. Eventually I did meet some good friends who did treat me good and were kind to me. When people were mean to me, I broke down and would cry, because I was bullied my entire life. One day I don't know when but I started to focus on myself and do little things for myself because I hated how I felt inside and got tired of allowing people to mistreat me. I eventually stood up for myself and I felt better that I did. Believe this is what caused most of my depression and anxiety and I realize that now. That's how bad it got, that it affected me greatly. At one point, I built up a huge wall around me and didn't allow anyone in, due to fear of getting picked on and mistreated. I've come such a long way now and I'm proud of myself.
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Default Jan 20, 2020 at 07:00 PM
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I'm proud of you, too.
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Default Jan 20, 2020 at 11:21 PM
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So happy for you! it feels good to make progress.
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You are doing very well, and far better than some I know. I'm proud of you, and thank you for sharing this.

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Default Jan 25, 2020 at 04:04 AM
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Thanks for sharing @Amethyst_Stargazer. It was really touching to read - you're such a brave person. I'm sorry bullies took something away from you, but I'm so happy you took it back. It's an important message, thank you.

Yes, self love. My journey towards healing has begun there as well.
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Default Jan 25, 2020 at 08:35 AM
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Well done @Amethyst_Stargazer!

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Default Feb 02, 2020 at 07:56 PM
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When I was a teenager, I allowed people to talk down to me. It was hard for me to defend myself. Now I got older I learn to speak up. Although I do not retaliate right away but I do when I feel that the disrespect have reach its limit with my patients.
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Default Feb 04, 2020 at 03:01 PM
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An excellent insight.

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Default Feb 09, 2020 at 05:54 PM
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You have lots of merit. It’s not easy to get what you did.
I have a thing against bullies or whoever who can abuse another person. I can’t stand them a single bit and normally, nice and valuable people are the ones who are more vulnerable to them.
It’s a pity they don’t realised of how much valuable people they are. It’s sad.

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Default Feb 09, 2020 at 06:06 PM
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That's amazing Amethyst Stargazer! And so inspiring!
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