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My heart is broken. I don’t know how to accept it and move on.
Today at work I heard the song “The Dance” by Garth Brooks and I could barely hold the tears back. Sometimes you give everything you’ve got and it’s never enough. Sometimes you realize you could have done better and it’s too late. |
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I'm so sorry. Don't know what to say, except that I'm here to listen.
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Sweetpea, what helped me was to accept HOW I felt about my pain. I couldn't, and still can't fathom, blood relatives abusing an innocent child. What I knew to be true was how deeply it wounded me; how it crushed me.
I couldn't figure out the logic because there is none. My emotions, my wounded, hurting self, that is what I knew I could address because that was my reality. Those were my emotions, those were the facts I could not change. My feelings and emotions are my most important responsibility. So, I focused on accepting the fact that my own flesh and blood mother and two older sisters abused me mentally, physically, and emotionally and how deeply that made me hurt. How deeply it damaged me. I had to accept how it hurt me and changed me. Then and only then I became able to start to heal and move it behind me. Does this help? __________________ "Love you. Take care of you. Be true to you. You are the only you, you will ever know the best. Reach for YOUR stars. You can reach them better than anyone else ever can." Landon Clary Eason Grateful Sobriety Fangirl Since 11-16-2007 Happy Sober Crafter |
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It's OK to let yourself grieve the loss...it lingers---I find keeping busy helps. And choose your music (stick with the ones that make you feel good)…(((((((((((hug))))))))))))))
sometimes, you will never know. __________________ "...don't say Home / the bones of that word mend slowly...' marie harris |
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__________________ "Twenty-five years and my life is still trying to get up that great big hill of hope for a destination" ~4 Non Blondes |
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Thank you so much my kind friends. You have no idea how much each of you touched my heart by sending me good thoughts and hugs. I can’t even begin to tell you how much it means to me. Thank you so much. I am so grateful to have you as my friends.
I hope it’s true what my counselor says. He very adamantly says that facing all the pain eventually leads to acceptance and peace. |
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Dear Lilymop, although still struggling with certain difficulties in my life, I definitely have had that experience; I've found acceptance through facing the pain.
I don't know if facing is the right word... It seems clear now that many of my behaviours (like the eating disorders) were about distracting myself from the real pain. I was on the run from it. Terrified of become depressed and overwhelmed by it. My best therapist said what your counseler is saying; we have to let the truth come, no matter what, and sort of stand in the middle of it. That's the only position, I believe, from which true healing can happen. So much love to you. |
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I like the way you worded that. I can honestly say I am letting the truth come and I am standing right in the middle of all of it. I feel confused as well as overwhelmingly sad at times. I keep wondering if all this is my karma for bad choices I’ve made in my life. We do what we think is best at the time and then later it’s confusing when we look back and see it from a different perspective. |
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Sweetpea!! This is NOT Karma! Your emotions are doing their job! However this problem got locked in place, it is not natural to you. That is why it is nagging you to be validated so it will leave.
It will subside, but you have to let it run it's course. You can tell your emotions to hang on until you are somewhere private so you can grieve freely. I do that when something gets triggered and I am out in public. Then once I am home, I address it. All of this is new too you; you will learn as you go what helps and what doesn't. Please, try to honor what your feelings are telling you. xoxoxoxox I apologize if I am coming on too strong. I see you suffer and it kills me. But that is my issue to manage and it isn't for me to burden you with that. Once you get through this, the rest will be easier because you see how it works. Not easier, but I think you know what I mean. __________________ "Love you. Take care of you. Be true to you. You are the only you, you will ever know the best. Reach for YOUR stars. You can reach them better than anyone else ever can." Landon Clary Eason Grateful Sobriety Fangirl Since 11-16-2007 Happy Sober Crafter Last edited by happysobercrafter; Jan 24, 2020 at 12:29 PM.. |
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I am so, so sorry LilyMop. I know now that there is nothing worse than having a broken heart. Sometimes I have hope...other times it all feels just impossible. I'm sending you love and strength.
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Thank you and the same back to you. I don’t think I have hope anymore. Some days I accept this and some days I feel overwhelmed with sadness. It’s a very strange roller coaster ride. |
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Lily, I am sorry you are going through such a rough time
Music is emotive in good ways, but also in unhelpful ways. Try and avoid listening to soulful music at night, because evening time is when we tend to overthink. Also, our body's defences are lowered come the evening. It would be wise to be choosy what you listen to and also what you watch, such as TV. Listening and viewing can trigger unwelcome memories in us. Rest more if you are able to. Rest helps maintain our immune system, fighting viruses such as common colds. Rest also helps us cope with feelings of loss and grief. And, nothing beats a nice pot of tea. Be strong, take your time with your broken heart and don't rush it. It is said that 'time is a great healer', your intense feelings will lessen, and this is true. You remain in my thoughts and prayers dear friend. __________________ |
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Thank you so much for your kind words and wise advice my lovely friend. Time is certainly the ultimate healer and I do love some hot tea. I’ve been avoiding music quite a bit unless it’s happy or fun music... |
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