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I am falling apart. Work is KILLING ME, and
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It's that miserable.

Put me out of my misery PLEASE...

Someone please tell me it will ALL BE OK... I need to find a way to hang in there, I need to find strength within me again, but right now, I cannot. I feel like I cannot keep going on like this.

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Default Feb 05, 2020 at 07:07 PM
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I'm so sorry, dear friend. It will be OK. Big hugs to you.

Leave the job, is my honest advice.

Forget about all the reasons you can't. You'll find a way to survive. People lose their jobs all the time.

There's no point in staying there if it is making you want to die.
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Thank you..., I feel so sad. So distraught and turned upside down. I’m not myself. I wish I could just quit. I can’t. I need the money to survive.

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I am sorry you are in this situation and sad.

Self-care and your wellbeing is first. Please don't let work be first in your life. It gets power over us when it becomes too important.

I don't know your situation, but is there a way you can look at your work in a different way? Reframe it a little. For example, look at it as a temporary situation that you will learn from as much as you can and a place to make money--not a place you are stuck at and can't take anymore. Feeling stuck is a tough emotion to handle every day.
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No job is worth this kind of misery.

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I am sorry you are in this situation and sad.

Self-care and your wellbeing is first. Please don't let work be first in your life. It gets power over us when it becomes too important.

I don't know your situation, but is there a way you can look at your work in a different way? Reframe it a little. For example, look at it as a temporary situation that you will learn from as much as you can and a place to make money--not a place you are stuck at and can't take anymore. Feeling stuck is a tough emotion to handle every day.
Thank you... reframing and self-care do help. I have felt totally stuck. I will try to think of it in this way. I do need to take better care of myself too. Thank you.

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No job is worth this kind of misery.
I wish it were that simple. I wish I could just up and quit. I imagine doing so each and every day. But I have no money saved to fall back on. I need my income to live. I live with . my husband, and he depends on me to help make ends meet. We would be screwed if I quit.

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Just so people know, I am not in any danger. I sometimes get this way when I am really depressed. It's just how I FEEL, but it's not as though I would act on it.

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I just feel SO disrespected and it's effecting me. I am taking it personally, and I am taking it hard. People try to walk on me at work, over and over again, and I have to fight for respect. I am done being their doormat. It's hard to cope when you have to walk into an office every day where you feel you have to battle in one way or another. It's exhausting.

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I just feel SO disrespected and it's effecting me. I am taking it personally, and I am taking it hard. People try to walk on me at work, over and over again, and I have to fight for respect. I am done being their doormat. It's hard to cope when you have to walk into an office every day where you feel you have to battle in one way or another. It's exhausting.
I felt this way with my current job. I have done work that is saving them so much money, yet they treat me like I don't exist. My manager rarely praises me. It is hard to take that kind of disrespect. I decided last year that this company is broken, people don't really care about me, and I reframed my situation. I measure myself on how well I keep my anxiety down (self-care), how much I learn each day that will help my future, and how much I help others (even if they don't help me back). Those 3 things are what matter to me at work (besides getting paid). I have been looking for a new job, but I am ok with waiting to find the right fit.

Hope, I think the key is to find a way to move away from taking what they do personally. Mentally, we can't give them the power to 'measure' how we are performing on the job. They are broken. How can they measure us and what does their respect really mean?
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I felt this way with my current job. I have done work that is saving them so much money, yet they treat me like I don't exist. My manager rarely praises me. It is hard to take that kind of disrespect. I decided last year that this company is broken, people don't really care about me, and I reframed my situation. I measure myself on how well I keep my anxiety down (self-care), how much I learn each day that will help my future, and how much I help others (even if they don't help me back). Those 3 things are what matter to me at work (besides getting paid). I have been looking for a new job, but I am ok with waiting to find the right fit.

Hope, I think the key is to find a way to move away from taking what they do personally. Mentally, we can't give them the power to 'measure' how we are performing on the job. They are broken. How can they measure us and what does their respect really mean?
Thank you soooo much! This is really helpful. I like your perspective. Yes they are very broken. I do need to exercise self care in my situation. And I need to reframe it another way so that I can cope better. That really helps!!!! Hugs!

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Respectfully I would like to say you should make preparations to move away from this situation- how little can you get by on, can you do a lesser well paid job for a while? Can your husband help out more? That sort of thing.

I personally would take what you wrote here as a warning that you are very stressed and need to take care of yourself. Reframing is helpful but when feelings are this extreme I think it's time to make a change.
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Respectfully I would like to say you should make preparations to move away from this situation- how little can you get by on, can you do a lesser well paid job for a while? Can your husband help out more? That sort of thing.

I personally would take what you wrote here as a warning that you are very stressed and need to take care of yourself. Reframing is helpful but when feelings are this extreme I think it's time to make a change.
Thank you very much. I tend to outpour my feelings when they are most extreme, and then my feelings fade or back down a bit. I'm not feeling exactly the same way today. I am feeling better. Today was a better day at work.

I really cannot leave or take a lower paying job. My husband and I are barely making ends meet on what we have as it is. I just cannot afford to leave.

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I guess I can get absorbed into my emotions of the moment.... I was feeling SO low the other day, that I posted this. That's how I was feeling. I was at my lowest point... a point of desperation.

They had promoted three people at work that day, which hits a sore spot for me because I cannot be promoted myself. There's two people above me who are in the way of that happening, so I am stuck, which makes me feel hopeless. I'm not dying or anxious to be promoted, it's more so that I am hitting a glass ceiling in my current job, which then makes me feel stuck and hopeless.... there's no place for me there except for where I am. I am ready to move on.... I need to move on. But I am hitting many obstacles to that happening, which also makes me feel very stuck and hopeless. Hence this post, or thread rather, the other day. It all felt so hopeless, like I will never achieve what I want and need.... to get the hell out, to move forward and onwards. It's the worst feeling. I hate feeling stuck, especially in a totally dysfunctional work environment.

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Hey honey, I’m really sorry to hear that you are feeling this way

I hear you when you say that you need the money to survive, you don’t have to quit today but make a plan to quit in the near future.

Like others have said, no job is worth that sort of agony.

Stay strong and keeping fighting. Everything will be okay
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Hey honey, I’m really sorry to hear that you are feeling this way

I hear you when you say that you need the money to survive, you don’t have to quit today but make a plan to quit in the near future.

Like others have said, no job is worth that sort of agony.

Stay strong and keeping fighting. Everything will be okay
Thank you so much for the encouraging words!!!

Yes, I am applying for at least one job per week right now. My plan is to leave as soon as is humanly possible!!!

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