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Default Jul 01, 2020 at 06:27 PM
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Hi everyone.

To put it blunt: 23-years old, graduated from college. I am so very depressed. I've been depressed my entire life. I have never been on a date, nor have I ever hang out with friends much really. I've been crippled with MDD and dysthymia for a very long time where I have convinced myself that nothing would interest me, so I never bothered to pursue anything.

I feel so late to the game. Even though I graduated with a 3.91 GPA with a Bachelor of Science degree, it is difficult to make myself marketable as I have no work experience. I do feel very sad that I still don't know what I am doing with my life, and the years just seem to be going by very fast. I look back on the last five years as being the most miserable in my entire life---most people my age never have an I am envious of that . I wish I didn't suffer from depression but I do. I wish I didn't have extreme anxiety where I can't get a job, but I do.

It saddens me that I am late to the game---most importantly, with my emotional, social and individual well-being. I feel like I lost the most important years of my life to constant studying, crying, and worrying. I know this seems dramatic but depression has crushed my soul. I am now picking up the pieces after deciding to take time off from school after graduating and it is so incredibly difficult to not only apply for jobs but also walk in with confidence, I am forced to deal with these things that I should have years ago.

I hope there is someone else out there who is like me. I feel alone. Everyone else my age has there life together and if they don't they find a reason to be happy. With me, I almost can never find a reason to feel happy and I am not even at where I want to be in my life.

I wish things were different.
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Smile Jul 02, 2020 at 02:24 PM
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I'm sorry you are feeling so... defeated(?)... is that an appropriate descriptor? I'm a few years older than you (72) and I guess my story is different. (I'll spare you the details!) But I'm certainly familiar with depression & anxiety.

I don't know if it would be helpful, but I thought I would draw your attention to this Psych-Central-supported website for people with unrelenting depression & anxiety just in case you're not aware of it:

Project Hope & Beyond

My best wishes to you...

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Never - Ever compare yourself to others. That is the worse thing you can do right now. The BS degree shows you can follow through, and you are very smart.

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Default Jul 04, 2020 at 10:21 PM
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I have suffered from depression for at least 15 years, and I'm 32. I have an A.S. and a B.S. but both came with trauma that has led me to where I am today. It was not easy, and it took a LOT of work from me. I'm not 100% recovered but I'm getting closer every day, or is that just what I hope.

Why am I telling you this? I'm single as well, I'm not where I wanted to be, but this is MY journey, and I can't discount what I have been through. Never give up! I know it's hard, but I've been told that when you are living within your own Self and values that depression may go away.

I hope this helps. And my road was Hard! Don't give up on you, keep going.
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