[Toughcooki]

I've been hiding from emotions for so long, I can't even put names to the faces, so to speak. If I am overwhelmed by a HUGE tide of emotion (as with the sudden loss of a loved one) I can feel it and know it for sadness/anguish for a brief time. But mostly I just feel like I'm wrapped in bubble-wrap. Nothing touches me.
Except.... I cry at the drop of a hat. I don't feel sad when I'm crying, I just cry.
Aww, the little girl in the cartoon found her lost kitty. *cries*

I can feel irritation but only after a whole lot of provocation.
Most of the time, I just feel numb. And depressed. I don't know how to sort of get in touch with what I'm actually feeling - and I've been this way to some degree for as long as I can remember. When I was younger it was a lot easier to irritate me, and I didn't used to cry easily, but I've been hiding emotions and physical sensations for a really really long time and I just don't remember how to feel them, I think.
I don't know how to fix this... any suggestions would be welcome!

people think I am sad for crying at steuart little. gets me everytime: a mouse (really cute mouse) gets adopted by the little family, gets taken away by a fake family, then tormented by a group of cats, and finds his way back (by the same cat who wanted to hurt him)

has me in floods of tears, all the time

lion king too: and it's not mufasa's death that gets me, (though that is sad), it's when uncle scar sends simba away from the pridelands. again, floods of tears

one of my issues though is thinking the characters are real people, and they are actually going through that

I know simba, mufasa, scar, they are all just acting- but I'll watch something new, something will happen to one of the characters and I'll worry for that person's safety

something else I struggle with is my response to grief.

if I lose someone close to me, I'll be sad, and I'll miss them, but if someone like michael jackson or prince died, I'll break down.

I didn't even like prince too much, yet I was still devistated.

and MJ.. well, I grew up with him. huge loss

you know: when he died I didn't play his music for an entire year

[Toughcooki]

Originally Posted by raging vortex

something else I struggle with is my response to grief.

if I lose someone close to me, I'll be sad, and I'll miss them, but if someone like michael jackson or prince died, I'll break down.

I didn't even like prince too much, yet I was still devistated.

and MJ.. well, I grew up with him. huge loss

you know: when he died I didn't play his music for an entire year

I don't think anything has ever affected me that deeply. I think I am more upset about the fact that I'm not upset - than I am upset by losing someone.

[Toughcooki]

Originally Posted by raging vortex

people think I am sad for crying at steuart little. gets me everytime: a mouse (really cute mouse) gets adopted by the little family, gets taken away by a fake family, then tormented by a group of cats, and finds his way back (by the same cat who wanted to hurt him)

has me in floods of tears, all the time

lion king too: and it's not mufasa's death that gets me, (though that is sad), it's when uncle scar sends simba away from the pridelands. again, floods of tears

one of my issues though is thinking the characters are real people, and they are actually going through that

I know simba, mufasa, scar, they are all just acting- but I'll watch something new, something will happen to one of the characters and I'll worry for that person's safety

I know how you feel Most Disney movies are too sad for me to watch. I can't even think about Dumbo without wanting to cry. The part where he's swinging on his mom's trunk she put through the bars - ugh!! I watch happy funny things - and even get choked up there on occasion.

Originally Posted by Toughcooki

I know how you feel Most Disney movies are too sad for me to watch. I can't even think about Dumbo without wanting to cry. The part where he's swinging on his mom's trunk she put through the bars - ugh!! I watch happy funny things - and even get choked up there on occasion.

I now can't help but think of bambi, aww that movie is sad too

have you watched big daddy, or anchorman

2 really funny movies- always make me giggle (especially the former)

[Toughcooki]

Originally Posted by raging vortex

I now can't help but think of bambi, aww that movie is sad too

have you watched big daddy, or anchorman

2 really funny movies- always make me giggle (especially the former)

I mostly watch old black and white movies. Danny Kaye makes me lol for real.

[Christmas cookie]

I have trouble crying and I know it stems from my past. I feel it inside-sadness, pain.

[Toughcooki]

Originally Posted by Christmas cookie

I have trouble crying and I know it stems from my past. I feel it inside-sadness, pain.

Isn't it interesting how we all react differently? I cry and have no connection to whatever I'm feeling, you have the feelings, but no tears.