I can’t cope anymore

I am sorry to hear this about your marriage. I wish there was something I could do to help out. Aren't you in therapy? Can you talk to your therapist for a pep talk or reassurance?

I am in individual therapy and am talking to my therapist after my interview today. I do need help, yes. And thank you for wishing you could help. There's not much anyone can do about the trust issues I face, and the former abuse from my husband. I'm afraid only a couples therapist can help us sort this out, or my own therapist. I'm worried that it's over between us, and I don't know if I can face that right now.

Good luck with your interview!

Aw, thanks!!!

I understand; you are carrying a ton of worries! I wish you the Best!! xoxox

I sure am!!! THANKS so much. I really appreciate the support!!

Good luck on your interview! Sending positive vibes your way!

Thanks @guy1111!

I got through the third interview - now I am waiting to hear back from them. They asked for some materials showing my work, which I sent. I am waiting with bated breath, uncertain of the outcome.

I'm having massive anxiety. I've had to have two therapy appointments last week, and two this week. I have not heard back from this potential employer and it's sending my anxiety through the roof. I also have not been able to land/secure a couples therapist, which is also making me very anxious. $%#^#*^$*

The interview process where I work takes a loooooooong time. It isn't an indicator of good or bad news. Sometimes they are running background checks, sometimes they are just dragging their feet. A 3rd interview alone is very good news. Worst case you are their runner up if their 1st pick falls through. Alot of times people interview as leverage for a raise in their current job and back out when they get their raise. Then you have to wait while this whole process happens. You just never know.

Sorry about the couples therapy deal. I hope you find one soon!

Maybe consider exercise as well? I just starting working out again. Good stress reliever

I might. I am very bad at it lately.

I feel very ungrounded and destabilized. I don't feel centered at all. I am literally just trying to hold it together and not lose my s*it again.

No word from that employer on anything since I sent them my work to review. Nothing in one full day, and so far, they've followed up almost immediately with me.

I am feeling very pessimistic and despondent. I don't think I am getting a job offer.

I am trying to coach myself to think more positively - like, well, another even better opportunity will come along, maybe this one wasn't truly meant for me, and when one door closes, another opens...... kinds of things. It's not really working, and I am still really down.

I am also trying to be compassionate with myself. During the interview process, I was going through a lot of crap with my husband on the personal front. I may not have interviewed the best, and I may not have been at my best. Actually, I know I wasn't at my best at all. I was trying to put on a big front when inside I'm falling apart. Talk about challenging - when you're trying to interview while your personal life is a complete mess!

ARGH.

Another thing I try to do when I am feeling doom and gloom is to listen to some stand-up comedy. It helps me to take a step back and not take myself so seriously.

I go on pandora music and search for a comedy genre that I like, ie. dark comedy or a name like Sarah Silverman. They will have a playlist of clips of comedians and it will play as long as you like.

You could even listen on headphones while you are jogging.

@guy1111, thank you for the suggestion. What works for me is to listen to my most uplifting and favorite songs. So maybe today I will do just that -- maybe I'll even take a walk later to get outside. It's going to be warm today - unseasonably warm - I should get out for at least a little while.

Thanks!!

Today is also one of my oldest girlfriend's birthdays. I am most sad about and disappointed in this friend. She moved across country a year ago, and I've been the only one initiating contact since then. I am tired of it. My birthday was last month, and she never wished me a happy birthday. I don't feel like reaching out to wish her a nice birthday. I know how that sounds - like I'm being vindictive or something. It's not that. It's that I am hurt that she hasn't even reached out ONCE since moving to check in and say hello. It's really upsetting, and now it's her birthday and I'm ignoring it.

On top of everything else, now I just feel sad and very lonely. I wish I could talk to my girlfriend.

WOW - good news!!!!! I have a final interview with that company and with the company's owner scheduled tomorrow!!!!!! They must have approved of my work samples!!!! What an emotional ride this has been!

GOOD LUCK!!!

Thanks Bill!!!

Great - that was the strangest interview ever with the company owner. All along, I've been interviewing for one position, then in today's call, the owner threw a totally different position at me, pitching it to me to see my level of interest. I said no, I want to be in the position I've been interviewing for. Then he hung up abruptly, after telling me that the team thinks the world of me. What is going on???? He threw a total monkey wrench, then jumped off the phone fast. I don't know what the hell is going on.