advertisement
Reply
Thread Tools Display Modes
Have Hope
Wise Elder
 
Have Hope's Avatar
Have Hope has no updates.
 
Member Since: Dec 2017
Location: Eastern, USA
Posts: 9,043 (SuperPoster!)
5 yr Member
3,619 hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Sep 22, 2020 at 06:01 PM
  #1
I’m cracking. I’m severely depressed. COVID has gotten to me along with my unemployment and marital issues.

I really don’t have the strength anymore. I want to go to sleep and wake up in a different life.

I need far more strength to get through this. And I’m afraid it’s gone

__________________
"Twenty-five years and my life is still trying to get up that great big hill of hope for a destination"

~4 Non Blondes

Last edited by Have Hope; Sep 22, 2020 at 06:55 PM..
Have Hope is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
BarefootBeach, Bill3, bpforever1, Gasplessy, Rose76, SarahJane777, Teddy Bear, WastingAsparagus, zapatoes

advertisement
sarahsweets
Threadtastic Postaholic
 
sarahsweets's Avatar
sarahsweets has no updates.
 
Member Since: Dec 2018
Location: New Jersey
Posts: 6,006 (SuperPoster!)
5 yr Member
192 hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Sep 22, 2020 at 11:25 PM
  #2
Hey @Have Hope hang on.. you are not alone in this.

__________________
"I carried a watermelon?"

President of the no F's given society.
sarahsweets is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
Bill3, Have Hope
 
Thanks for this!
BarefootBeach, Bill3, Have Hope, zapatoes
divine1966
Legendary Wise Elder
 
divine1966's Avatar
divine1966 Tired!!!
 
Member Since: Dec 2014
Location: US
Posts: 22,303 (SuperPoster!)
8 yr Member
1,274 hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Sep 23, 2020 at 04:43 AM
  #3
Tough times isn’t it. There is a thread in some sub forum on PC where people share positives of the pandemics, You got to be kidding me. Positives? And I am in general a positive person but there is nothing positive in Covid!!!!

Things get better. They always get better. Don’t give up. Hugs
divine1966 is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
Have Hope, zapatoes
 
Thanks for this!
guy1111, Have Hope, WastingAsparagus
Have Hope
Wise Elder
 
Have Hope's Avatar
Have Hope has no updates.
 
Member Since: Dec 2017
Location: Eastern, USA
Posts: 9,043 (SuperPoster!)
5 yr Member
3,619 hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Sep 23, 2020 at 05:44 AM
  #4
Quote:
Originally Posted by sarahsweets View Post
Hey @Have Hope hang on.. you are not alone in this.
Thanks @sarahsweets.

I know I'm not alone, though it feels that way due to the isolation. I know MANY are struggling. It's all over the news, and I see it on Facebook with some friends. It's SO hard right now.

__________________
"Twenty-five years and my life is still trying to get up that great big hill of hope for a destination"

~4 Non Blondes

Last edited by Have Hope; Sep 23, 2020 at 05:59 AM..
Have Hope is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
Bill3, Rose76, zapatoes
Have Hope
Wise Elder
 
Have Hope's Avatar
Have Hope has no updates.
 
Member Since: Dec 2017
Location: Eastern, USA
Posts: 9,043 (SuperPoster!)
5 yr Member
3,619 hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Sep 23, 2020 at 05:47 AM
  #5
Quote:
Originally Posted by divine1966 View Post
Tough times isn’t it. There is a thread in some sub forum on PC where people share positives of the pandemics, You got to be kidding me. Positives? And I am in general a positive person but there is nothing positive in Covid!!!!

Things get better. They always get better. Don’t give up. Hugs
Thanks @divine1966.

It IS tough times, all around. I am generally positive too, but lately I haven't been feeling that way and it's making it harder for myself. I can't seem to snap out of it. Receiving job rejections doesn't help, nor does not hearing back from an employer after I've applied.

__________________
"Twenty-five years and my life is still trying to get up that great big hill of hope for a destination"

~4 Non Blondes
Have Hope is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
Bill3, Rose76
bpforever1
Magnate
 
bpforever1's Avatar
bpforever1 has no updates.
 
Member Since: Aug 2017
Location: earth
Posts: 2,063
5 yr Member
1,598 hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Sep 24, 2020 at 06:33 AM
  #6
Have Hope, time heals. I have been in your situation where I was going through a divorce and lost my job at the same time. I weathered the storm by depending on my family and learning a new language to keep myself busy. It has been about ten years since these tumultuous times, I can vouch that life improves if you find ways to heal yourself and stay away from trouble. As you know, I have poor judgment at times with men and other issues. This poor judgment has gotten me in trouble. However, I have learned from my mistakes and am happier now. I am focusing on my life now and surviving. I am living a life now which is better than I expected because I found a job that has helped me to become independent. So, please persevere! I believe, you will live in the light again one day and look back at your past as just a period through which you overcame and survived! I say give yourself a few years to recover fully. Hopefully, you will bounce back soon but don't rush your recovery if you need the time to heal
bpforever1 is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
Have Hope
Have Hope
Wise Elder
 
Have Hope's Avatar
Have Hope has no updates.
 
Member Since: Dec 2017
Location: Eastern, USA
Posts: 9,043 (SuperPoster!)
5 yr Member
3,619 hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Sep 24, 2020 at 06:56 AM
  #7
Quote:
Originally Posted by bpforever1 View Post
Have Hope, time heals. I have been in your situation where I was going through a divorce and lost my job at the same time. I weathered the storm by depending on my family and learning a new language to keep myself busy. It has been about ten years since these tumultuous times, I can vouch that life improves if you find ways to heal yourself and stay away from trouble. As you know, I have poor judgment at times with men and other issues. This poor judgment has gotten me in trouble. However, I have learned from my mistakes and am happier now. I am focusing on my life now and surviving. I am living a life now which is better than I expected because I found a job that has helped me to become independent. So, please persevere! I believe, you will live in the light again one day and look back at your past as just a period through which you overcame and survived! I say give yourself a few years to recover fully. Hopefully, you will bounce back soon but don't rush your recovery if you need the time to heal
@bpforever1, thanks so much. I need to hear encouragement right now, and your words are encouraging.

I think for me, my world has just all caved in at once and I am overwhelmed by how much I am dealing with simultaneously.

I am leaning on friends and family when I can, but I am trying to also not overwhelm them with my problems. There's only so much others can do.

I do lean on one girlfriend the most, and at least once per week we talk at length on the phone. That helps. Therapy helps. And keeping myself as busy as possible helps.

Dealing with COVID, along with unemployment, a grueling job search, strained finances, and periodically arising marital issues is proving to be very draining for me, and I am depressed. I fight through that depression each and every day.

It's just tough right now all around - COVID has presented all sorts of problems for people across the globe, and many are seriously suffering. The political atmosphere is not helping either. I am really on edge regarding the upcoming US election.... not to get into politics on here, but it's most upsetting for me too.

It's just not a good situation right now, and fighting through depression is very exhausting. It's hard to keep up the fight every single day. It's hard to remain positive every single day. Some days are better than others. Some days I feel relatively Ok and I can battle through, and other days, I crumble and want to crawl into my bed for the day.

__________________
"Twenty-five years and my life is still trying to get up that great big hill of hope for a destination"

~4 Non Blondes
Have Hope is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
Bill3, zapatoes
Bill3
Legendary
Bill3 has no updates.
 
Member Since: Mar 2009
Location: USA
Posts: 10,923
15 yr Member
24.1k hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Sep 26, 2020 at 08:05 PM
  #8


Hang in there, Have Hope!
Bill3 is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
Have Hope
 
Thanks for this!
Have Hope, zapatoes
RockyRoad007
Member
RockyRoad007 has no updates.
 
Member Since: Jun 2019
Location: Canada
Posts: 153
3 yr Member
3 hugs
given
Default Sep 27, 2020 at 04:59 AM
  #9
HaveHope, have you ever heard the term "Dark night of the Soul"?
Personally, I see it as part of our old way of being as dying off or purging out. This allows for a glorious transformation to occur if you allow it.
While horrible to go thru, in hindsight, you will see it was worth it.

My own journey has been one of deep transformation. I've been brought to my knees many times, but all that pain has brought me to a place of grace, deep empathy, and a spiritual journey I absolutely love.

All this while dealing with being bipolar since my teens (not fun) and mostly unmedicated (again not fun). It has been an incredibly difficult painfilled life, in so many ways felt like a lifelong Dark night of the Soul. I can still cry when I think back on some of my most painful times, but they are tears of empathy for what I went thru, not tears of sorrow.

But I reap the rewards today.
Dark nights of the Soul are always worth it (in the end).
RockyRoad007 is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
Have Hope
 
Thanks for this!
Bethanyrose, Have Hope
Have Hope
Wise Elder
 
Have Hope's Avatar
Have Hope has no updates.
 
Member Since: Dec 2017
Location: Eastern, USA
Posts: 9,043 (SuperPoster!)
5 yr Member
3,619 hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Sep 27, 2020 at 06:37 AM
  #10
Quote:
Originally Posted by RockyRoad007 View Post
HaveHope, have you ever heard the term "Dark night of the Soul"?
Personally, I see it as part of our old way of being as dying off or purging out. This allows for a glorious transformation to occur if you allow it.
While horrible to go thru, in hindsight, you will see it was worth it.

My own journey has been one of deep transformation. I've been brought to my knees many times, but all that pain has brought me to a place of grace, deep empathy, and a spiritual journey I absolutely love.

All this while dealing with being bipolar since my teens (not fun) and mostly unmedicated (again not fun). It has been an incredibly difficult painfilled life, in so many ways felt like a lifelong Dark night of the Soul. I can still cry when I think back on some of my most painful times, but they are tears of empathy for what I went thru, not tears of sorrow.

But I reap the rewards today.
Dark nights of the Soul are always worth it (in the end).
This is beautiful. Thank you for sharing your experience and journey! I can relate to your experience, the pain and the empathy. I can also relate to the spiritual transformation you speak of. Sounds almost like transcendence.

Thank you. This helps me more than you know.

__________________
"Twenty-five years and my life is still trying to get up that great big hill of hope for a destination"

~4 Non Blondes
Have Hope is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Thanks for this!
guy1111
zapatoes
Grand Magnate
 
zapatoes's Avatar
zapatoes Looking for my way
 
Member Since: Sep 2018
Location: Islandia
Posts: 4,263 (SuperPoster!)
5 yr Member
10.9k hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Sep 29, 2020 at 12:06 AM
  #11
Yes can relate to feeling alone now, worried about job security, tired of Covid and restrictions.

Sometimes watch my favorite tv shows sometimes and have started playing piano again.

Last edited by zapatoes; Sep 29, 2020 at 12:20 AM..
zapatoes is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
Bill3, Have Hope
Have Hope
Wise Elder
 
Have Hope's Avatar
Have Hope has no updates.
 
Member Since: Dec 2017
Location: Eastern, USA
Posts: 9,043 (SuperPoster!)
5 yr Member
3,619 hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Sep 29, 2020 at 05:45 AM
  #12
Quote:
Originally Posted by zapatoes View Post
Yes can relate to feeling alone now, worried about job security, tired of Covid and restrictions.

Sometimes watch my favorite tv shows sometimes and have started playing piano again.
I hear you. I'm very tired of COVID myself. I think we all are. I lost my job, so I have no job. But fewer jobs are secure these days.

Hang in there. It's great you started playing piano!


__________________
"Twenty-five years and my life is still trying to get up that great big hill of hope for a destination"

~4 Non Blondes
Have Hope is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
Bill3
Have Hope
Wise Elder
 
Have Hope's Avatar
Have Hope has no updates.
 
Member Since: Dec 2017
Location: Eastern, USA
Posts: 9,043 (SuperPoster!)
5 yr Member
3,619 hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Sep 29, 2020 at 08:47 AM
  #13
Update: I go through ups and downs, but I feel a lot better since I started this thread. Some days are better than others.

__________________
"Twenty-five years and my life is still trying to get up that great big hill of hope for a destination"

~4 Non Blondes
Have Hope is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
Bill3
 
Thanks for this!
guy1111
guy1111
Member
guy1111 has no updates.
 
Member Since: Apr 2018
Location: US
Posts: 422
5 yr Member
Default Oct 01, 2020 at 06:49 AM
  #14
Glad to hear you are doing better. I too was worried about the elections early on. There were rumors that something catastrophic was going to happen, but as we get closer I am not seeing any signs of anything major. I didn't watch them but I heard the debates were kind of a dud. The closer we get to the holidays the more I hope we all find some commonality and stop the bickering in the country and the world for a while.

You are doing great! Keep it up!!
guy1111 is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
Have Hope
 
Thanks for this!
Have Hope
Have Hope
Wise Elder
 
Have Hope's Avatar
Have Hope has no updates.
 
Member Since: Dec 2017
Location: Eastern, USA
Posts: 9,043 (SuperPoster!)
5 yr Member
3,619 hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Oct 01, 2020 at 07:53 AM
  #15
Quote:
Originally Posted by guy1111 View Post
Glad to hear you are doing better. I too was worried about the elections early on. There were rumors that something catastrophic was going to happen, but as we get closer I am not seeing any signs of anything major. I didn't watch them but I heard the debates were kind of a dud. The closer we get to the holidays the more I hope we all find some commonality and stop the bickering in the country and the world for a while.

You are doing great! Keep it up!!
Thanks, Guy.

I am still VERY worried about the election. I watched the debate the other night and was not impressed or happy about it at all. I am not for Trump at all. I do not have high hopes of our country. It's very discouraging.

__________________
"Twenty-five years and my life is still trying to get up that great big hill of hope for a destination"

~4 Non Blondes
Have Hope is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
Specthug
New Member
 
Specthug's Avatar
Specthug has no updates.
 
Member Since: Oct 2020
Location: Edmonds
Posts: 5
3 yr Member
Default Oct 09, 2020 at 03:03 PM
  #16
I too am struggling with trying to cope in this new world. My Wife recently asked for a separation, and that she doesn't think she can be fully happy in our marriage. Which I do get, but living on my own, picking my kids up for visitation weekends always felt like something other people did. But I am struggling with trying to find the positives. I know I need to do a LOT of personal work, but I simply can't find the motivation...

So I hear you loud & clear!
Specthug is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
Have Hope
Have Hope
Wise Elder
 
Have Hope's Avatar
Have Hope has no updates.
 
Member Since: Dec 2017
Location: Eastern, USA
Posts: 9,043 (SuperPoster!)
5 yr Member
3,619 hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Oct 10, 2020 at 06:18 AM
  #17
Quote:
Originally Posted by Specthug View Post
I too am struggling with trying to cope in this new world. My Wife recently asked for a separation, and that she doesn't think she can be fully happy in our marriage. Which I do get, but living on my own, picking my kids up for visitation weekends always felt like something other people did. But I am struggling with trying to find the positives. I know I need to do a LOT of personal work, but I simply can't find the motivation...

So I hear you loud & clear!
I'm very sorry to hear this. It's not easy times right now, so dealing with a separation on top of everything is really hard. I feel for you.

__________________
"Twenty-five years and my life is still trying to get up that great big hill of hope for a destination"

~4 Non Blondes
Have Hope is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Thanks for this!
guy1111
Have Hope
Wise Elder
 
Have Hope's Avatar
Have Hope has no updates.
 
Member Since: Dec 2017
Location: Eastern, USA
Posts: 9,043 (SuperPoster!)
5 yr Member
3,619 hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Oct 10, 2020 at 01:24 PM
  #18
And once again I’m down again. Very down. I’m in bed and want the nightmare to end. My husband and I fought this morning, for the first time in months. Everything is wearing on me today. My only bright spot is a couple upcoming interviews. But right now, I’m crying and am in bed, feeling very sorrowful and tired of the battles.

To top it off, this forum seems really slow and dead lately. Is PC slowly dying?

__________________
"Twenty-five years and my life is still trying to get up that great big hill of hope for a destination"

~4 Non Blondes
Have Hope is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
Bill3, hvert
 
Thanks for this!
guy1111
Bill3
Legendary
Bill3 has no updates.
 
Member Since: Mar 2009
Location: USA
Posts: 10,923
15 yr Member
24.1k hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Oct 10, 2020 at 10:45 PM
  #19


I'm really sorry that you are so down, Have Hope.
Bill3 is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
Have Hope
 
Thanks for this!
guy1111
sarahsweets
Threadtastic Postaholic
 
sarahsweets's Avatar
sarahsweets has no updates.
 
Member Since: Dec 2018
Location: New Jersey
Posts: 6,006 (SuperPoster!)
5 yr Member
192 hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Oct 11, 2020 at 04:39 AM
  #20
Quote:
Originally Posted by Have Hope View Post
And once again I’m down again. Very down. I’m in bed and want the nightmare to end. My husband and I fought this morning, for the first time in months. Everything is wearing on me today. My only bright spot is a couple upcoming interviews. But right now, I’m crying and am in bed, feeling very sorrowful and tired of the battles.

To top it off, this forum seems really slow and dead lately. Is PC slowly dying?

I wonder if it has to do with the sale? Or maybe behind the scenes their were disputes between members or others ?

__________________
"I carried a watermelon?"

President of the no F's given society.
sarahsweets is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
Have Hope
All times are GMT -5. The time now is 03:14 AM.
Powered by vBulletin® — Copyright © 2000 - 2024, Jelsoft Enterprises Ltd.



 

My Support Forums

My Support Forums is the online community that was originally begun as the Psych Central Forums in 2001. It now runs as an independent self-help support group community for mental health, personality, and psychological issues and is overseen by a group of dedicated, caring volunteers from around the world.

 

Helplines and Lifelines

The material on this site is for informational purposes only, and is not a substitute for medical advice, diagnosis or treatment provided by a qualified health care provider.

Always consult your doctor or mental health professional before trying anything you read here.