I've been thinking about my feelings

I've been thinking about my fears of lack of stability and lack of self control with my emotions it's like a current. I have to find ways to learn to manage it I don't know how to manage it at the moment but I have to learn or it will overcome me and make me continue to withdraw from courses. I need to learn to manage anxiety I need to learn how to stop it from taking my brain power it is not lack of intelligence it is lack of emotional control this anxiety that is taking away my ability to learn. I have to continue to fight for what I feel I am worth. I have to give myself incentives even if it means clipping pics of Switzerland and cabins if I had the money or the means that the reward would be worth it. I honestly realise so much by talking to friends you have to manage it you have to do it affects your life your family your friends. I have let it affect others and I've let it affect me if my anxiety is powerful can't my hpe be more powerful can't my potential be more. Lived in these emotions but they are not reality I have to create a new one more running I will slay this beast.