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I remember being at work, or somewhere else, and thinking over and over again that I just want to go home. The hours seemed like days. Id watch the clock, and it would seem to have stopped. Two minutes before I was officially to be set free, Id run around the corner and make an escape. I knew that those last two minutes would just kill me, so I had to make the run for it while I could still breathe.

There eventually came a time when I stumbled on that run home, and found myself in a full body cast. Then the only place I could even be is confined at home in my bed. Years passed in that cast and I again began to feel trapped. Out of old habit Id repeat silently to myself that I just want to go home. I just want to go home. But I was home.


[The above was written during a depression at home on disability. Nowadays, even still on disability, I no longer feel so trapped, but on occasion the feeling comes back.]
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You definitely have the makings of a professional writer. Ever tried that? Internet publishing is so different from the.old school way..
There is such a message in this. There are so many bipolar artists, writers and performers and this is why.
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