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I really thought oxcarbazepine was working.... but I guess it takes time... I just want to keep crying... why men love to break our hearts? why aren't they straight forward and say "I'm sorry I'm not interested in you in that way" but instead they shun away and hide and say nothing.
Some may be too shy to say something directly, or might be afraid to hurt your feelings or something?
I know I've done it to men online, just didn't write back if I wasn't interested, cause sometimes some got a bit aggressive if I wrote I wasn't interested, they kept writing 'why not?' and such?
Or maybe there could be mixed emotions and indecision, or other factors?

It would be better if people could be straight up honest and still gentle with each other.
If you wish for someone who is more direct and open about feelings, such a person who just stays away is not for you anyway!! Wishing you someone better, who recognizes how awesome you are!
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Also, started taking Calcium&D3 and B vitamins - brewer's yeast and some Magnesium (small amount, too much has side effects ) and I feel much better!

Haven't done much snapping, kinda forgot about it inbetween, this thread reminds me how fun it's been! (I don't snap in public, just when I'm alone, or in my sleeve so it's not seen)
snap - raise my arm - exercise!
snap - again! haha

I have done DIY CBT journalling and EFT, and some TAT in the past too... These are all techniques that can help... Snapping is one of the techniques that is free and easy to do, so why not try it?
I'm so happy for you SmileHere! It's so great that the vitamins are working.

Those snaps you are doing and that feeling of joy and power and fun are very precious. If you keep doing them and feeling them deeply, I think that they will help you so much. In a way, it is your own true self being and acting in the present moment. It probably won't happen right away, but if you keep doing it, you'll discover that you can decide to change what you think about and what feelings you have, just by snapping. Wait until you have some bad feelings and realize that, instead of suffering endlessly, you can stop them just like that "SNAP!!". It is the most incredible relief!

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MY INVOLUNTARY DIVE BACK INTO DEPRESSION FOR A COUPLE OF DAYS

- DEPRESSION SNEAKS UP ON YOU WHEN YOU’RE NOT PAYING ATTENTION -

A couple of weeks ago my depression snuck up on me again and I was partially in it again for a couple of days. As unpleasant as it was, it might be interesting to record how it happens and how I got back. Also, I want to be honest about my experiences as I think that’s the best way to be helpful to others.

In the period preceding the relapse,

• I was getting very busy with my work, multi-tasking too much and starting to feel like I didn’t have time to concentrate on anything for long. Things that I wanted to do at home and at work seemed like they were piling up rapidly.

• Without noticing it, I had reduced my snapping and when I was doing and I wasn’t feeling it or enjoying it as much as usual.

• Being winter, I had stopped going on my usual daily long walks (which also provides thinking time).

All this was happening without me really noticing it. Any changes were gradual. Then, on one day, I got some minor but unexpected bad news at the dentist. This news precipitated a sharp decline in my mood and I was back in my previous depressed mode of existence. I observed the following.

• I had a strong urge to think negative thoughts and other negative things that happened in my life came back into my mind continuously.

• I had a strong urge to escape in some way by finding some distraction.

• My brain felt foggy and slow. My confidence nearly disappeared.

• SNAPPING did something still, but now only partly helped and no longer brought me entirely out of it. It now brought me partly out of it and only for a short time.

• I had a fear that SNAPPING was going to not work for me anymore and I would be trapped in depression forever.

• My usual feeling of good will towards humanity in general disappeared. Strangers were irritating and obstacles in my way if anything.

• I didn’t realize it at the time, but my posture had changed. I no longer had my usual hero pose and was slumped.

• I actually got into a mini-conflict in the PC chatrooms. I had the impression that people were being bullied and this caused me to be upset. I say this many times in the forum, but when it happened to me, it didn’t occur to me. Even though my perceptions were correct, my reaction was, nevertheless, just a symptom of my depression.

• In Yoga class, I was frustrated and upset if I couldn’t do a posture. I was agitated and it was hard to concentrate. I felt an urge to escape.

When the weekend hit, I slept much longer than my usual 8 hours. After sleeping about 12 hours, I woke up feeling a bit better. I resumed snapping boldly and consciously and enjoying the snaps and, quite quickly, I re-entered my healthy happy mode of existence. Snapping, actively deciding, being in the moment, hero posture, joy at being alive and having good will towards everyone and feeling like my brain is working again.

The whole thing was unpleasant, but I do feel that I have learned from my brief excursion back into it. Depression sneaks up on you when you’re not paying attention. The more I think about it and experience it, the more I think I’m really right in what I’m saying at the top of the thread.
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MY INVOLUNTARY DIVE BACK INTO DEPRESSION FOR A COUPLE OF DAYS

- DEPRESSION SNEAKS UP ON YOU WHEN YOU’RE NOT PAYING ATTENTION -

A couple of weeks ago my depression snuck up on me again and I was partially in it again for a couple of days. As unpleasant as it was, it might be interesting to record how it happens and how I got back. Also, I want to be honest about my experiences as I think that’s the best way to be helpful to others.

In the period preceding the relapse,

•I was getting very busy with my work, multi-tasking too much and starting to feel like I didn’t have time to concentrate on anything for long. Things that I wanted to do at home and at work seemed like they were piling up rapidly.

•Without noticing it, I had reduced my snapping and when I was doing and I wasn’t feeling it or enjoying it as much as usual.

•Being winter, I had stopped going on my usual daily long walks (which also provides thinking time).

All this was happening without me really noticing it. Any changes were gradual. Then, on one day, I got some minor but unexpected bad news at the dentist. This news precipitated a sharp decline in my mood and I was back in my previous depressed mode of existence. I observed the following.

•I had a strong urge to think negative thoughts and other negative things that happened in my life came back into my mind continuously.

•I had a strong urge to escape in some way by finding some distraction.

•My brain felt foggy and slow. My confidence nearly disappeared.

•SNAPPING did something still, but now only partly helped and no longer brought me entirely out of it. It now brought me partly out of it and only for a short time.

•I had a fear that SNAPPING was going to not work for me anymore and I would be trapped in depression forever.

•My usual feeling of good will towards humanity in general disappeared. Strangers were irritating and obstacles in my way if anything.

•I didn’t realize it at the time, but my posture had changed. I no longer had my usual hero pose and was slumped.

•I actually got into a mini-conflict in the PC chatrooms. I had the impression that people were being bullied and this caused me to be upset. I say this many times in the forum, but when it happened to me, it didn’t occur to me. Even though my perceptions were correct, my reaction was, nevertheless, just a symptom of my depression.

•In Yoga class, I was frustrated and upset if I couldn’t do a posture. I was agitated and it was hard to concentrate. I felt an urge to escape.

When the weekend hit, I slept much longer than my usual 8 hours. After sleeping about 12 hours, I woke up feeling a bit better. I resumed snapping boldly and consciously and enjoying the snaps and, quite quickly, I re-entered my healthy happy mode of existence. Snapping, actively deciding, being in the moment, hero posture, joy at being alive and having good will towards everyone and feeling like my brain is working again.

The whole thing was unpleasant, but I do feel that I have learned from my brief excursion back into it. Depression sneaks up on you when you’re not paying attention. The more I think about it and experience it, the more I think I’m really right in what I’m saying at the top of the thread.
So then your snapping thing doesn't work. It is only a temporary solution.
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Just to keep track of it, here is an update of what I personally think is the best plan if you are depressed. I'm not a medical professional, I'm only writing this up because this makes so much more sense to me than what usually happens.

1. Deal with any physical/nutritional issues first.

As pointed out by Mark Hyman, M.D., there are a large number of common medical or nutritional issues that can case mental problems including depression. These include Vitamin B or D deficiencies, hypothyroidism, heavy metal toxicity, pre-diabetes, infection, gluten allergy, omega 3 fat deficiency and others. If you have any of these common issues, the best thing to do is surely to address them first. For references, see

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fOPRp_K6QQY

The UltraMind Solution: Fix Your Broken Brain by Healing Your Body First: M.D. Mark Hyman: 9780743570480: Amazon.com: Books

The latter book by Mark Hyman is a great resource for diet as well. I often also use Andrew Weil’s web pages as a source of information.

2. Try all the safe healthy ways to overcome depression next.

Very often if people see an M.D. and have the symptoms of depression, they are immediately put on an antidepressant. However, I think that this is a terrible idea. Antidepressant drugs have dangerous short and long term side-effects, can lead to dependence and often don’t work:

Why Antidepressants Don?t Work for Treating Depression - Dr. Mark Hyman

Negative Effects of Antidepressants | Mad in America

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KFbs8s3VI6M

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4R6MXO2j0V0

It is important to realize that because of oppositional tolerance, taking these drugs may cause negative changes in your brain, which may be irreversible. It’s also important to realize that the “chemical imbalance” theory of depression is wrong (see the references above). If you have depression, you are not fated by biology to take drugs in order to get better.

Because of all this, it seems so much better to first try all of the safe, easy and/or healthy ways to overcome depression first, before even considering a drug approach. Promising things to try include exercise (walking, running, swimming, yoga, weight training, for instance), improving your diet and taking supplements (see Mark Hyman’s books for great advice and for inspiration about what this can do), meditation, improving your sleep, talk therapy, Cognitive Behavioral Therapy, light therapy and mind training. I especially recommend starting with SNAP CLUB as described at the top of this thread. It is easy and fun and usually works and sometimes works spectacularly well, and, when it works, it really helps you take further steps on your upward healthy path.

3. If 1. And 2. above fail and you are desperate, go to the next steps with a medical doctor.

I suspect that in almost all cases of depression, a serious attempt at some combination of 1 and 2 above will greatly help or completely solve the problem, but that’s really only a guess on my part. Meditation is a good example of the need to try seriously, I think. If you look in the depression success stories on this site, you’ll see that some people have completely resolved their depression, just with meditation. They also report, however, that it takes a solid couple of weeks of doing it before they get the big benefit. There are cases that I believe (on this forum and elsewhere) where people report that antidepressant drugs work dramatically well for them, even in the long term. This sometimes happens only after trying many different drug combinations. If nothing at all works in 1 or 2 above, you may have to try this, after, of course assessing the risks with a Medical Doctor. I have heard similar testimonials from people for whom only Electroconvulsive Therapy worked. See, for example,

Sherwin Nuland: How electroshock therapy changed me | Talk Video | TED.com

and people for whom nothing worked except for a cyngulotomy. See, for example,

Andrew Solomon: Depression, the secret we share | Talk Video | TED.com.

Now GO GET EM!!

As Stephen Colbert used to say: I’LL SEE YOU IN HEALTH!!!

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Hi everybody;

SNAP CLUB is going to be tried with real patients in one of the local hospitals in Boston this Spring. - vital
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What if your depression is truly caused by raising how much of a failure you are? What if it's caused by thinking about,or some one pointing out how you have hurry so many close to you?
I feel like I'm at the bottom of the totem pole and would take me to change but I'm not sure how
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What if your depression is truly caused by raising how much of a failure you are? What if it's caused by thinking about,or some one pointing out how you have hurry so many close to you?
I feel like I'm at the bottom of the totem pole and would take me to change but I'm not sure how
There's no way for me to be cured. I'm permanently ****ed.
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There's no way for me to be cured. I'm permanently ****ed.
There is a way. You, just like me, are not getting what you need to either be motivated or empowered to feel like change is within you.

I was feeling so down today. I mean horribly horribly hopeless. My son, my 15 year old son said to me: mom, just remember that what ever we go through is just preparing us for what's to come, to make sure we are strong enough to handle the greatness to come.
I told him, my own problem is that my issues cause me to wonder whether life is preparing me for greatness or my endless destruction.
He said, you just have to keep you're eyes on the prize. Stay positive.

I have to keep in mind that life is preparing me for whatever I decide is in my future. Whatever I decide I'm preparing for. It could be my destruction or my greatness.

I could coach and motivate for days, but when it comes to me I think I'm the horrible exception to the rule. That I'm just a failure from birth to death. I was groomed for failure and given no tools to handle the hurdles in life. ......I'm an endless negative voice to my self. I underStand why I'm difficult to be around
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There is a way. You, just like me, are not getting what you need to either be motivated or empowered to feel like change is within you.

I was feeling so down today. I mean horribly horribly hopeless. My son, my 15 year old son said to me: mom, just remember that what ever we go through is just preparing us for what's to come, to make sure we are strong enough to handle the greatness to come.
I told him, my own problem is that my issues cause me to wonder whether life is preparing me for greatness or my endless destruction.
He said, you just have to keep you're eyes on the prize. Stay positive.

I have to keep in mind that life is preparing me for whatever I decide is in my future. Whatever I decide I'm preparing for. It could be my destruction or my greatness.

I could coach and motivate for days, but when it comes to me I think I'm the horrible exception to the rule. That I'm just a failure from birth to death. I was groomed for failure and given no tools to handle the hurdles in life. ......I'm an endless negative voice to my self. I underStand why I'm difficult to be around
Hi born, ajohnson,

There is a funny article about this from the Onion. It's basically answering the question "But what if I am depressed because I AM a total loser?"

Study: Depression Hits Losers Hardest | The Onion - America's Finest News Source

It's funny because it's insightful, but it's backwards. Bad things happen to depressed people, making them "losers". It's not the other way around where some intrinsic "loser" quality makes people vulnerable to depression.

Not everyone would agree with me, but I think I'm really right about this. I don't think that anyone is fated by biology or chemistry or genetics to be depressed. I don't think that past failures or childhood history fates someone to be depressed either. I think that depression is created by a specific psychological process that you can stop once you realize what it is and how to stop doing it. Once you stop, you slowly start to heal over a few months.

The nice thing is that SNAP CLUB is so easy to try. It's safe and fun to do and works quickly and requires essentially no will power. Why not give it a try?

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Hi born, ajohnson,

There is a funny article about this from the Onion. It's basically answering the question "But what if I am depressed because I AM a total loser?"

Study: Depression Hits Losers Hardest | The Onion - America's Finest News Source

It's funny because it's insightful, but it's backwards. Bad things happen to depressed people, making them "losers". It's not the other way around where some intrinsic "loser" quality makes people vulnerable to depression.

Not everyone would agree with me, but I think I'm really right about this. I don't think that anyone is fated by biology or chemistry or genetics to be depressed. I don't think that past failures or childhood history fates someone to be depressed either. I think that depression is created by a specific psychological process that you can stop once you realize what it is and how to stop doing it. Once you stop, you slowly start to heal over a few months.

The nice thing is that SNAP CLUB is so easy to try. It's safe and fun to do and works quickly and requires essentially no will power. Why not give it a try?

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Thanks so much for your replies. I get so caught up ib thinking that I need to change from being such a chaotic loser in order to not be depressed. But then if I'm depressed how am I supposed too change when I feel so hopeless, useless and powerless. ...it's such a cycle
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Hi born, ajohnson,

There is a funny article about this from the Onion. It's basically answering the question "But what if I am depressed because I AM a total loser?"

Study: Depression Hits Losers Hardest | The Onion - America's Finest News Source

It's funny because it's insightful, but it's backwards. Bad things happen to depressed people, making them "losers". It's not the other way around where some intrinsic "loser" quality makes people vulnerable to depression.

Not everyone would agree with me, but I think I'm really right about this. I don't think that anyone is fated by biology or chemistry or genetics to be depressed. I don't think that past failures or childhood history fates someone to be depressed either. I think that depression is created by a specific psychological process that you can stop once you realize what it is and how to stop doing it. Once you stop, you slowly start to heal over a few months.

The nice thing is that SNAP CLUB is so easy to try. It's safe and fun to do and works quickly and requires essentially no will power. Why not give it a try?

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Maybe I will look into the SNAP thing. I have no idea what it is. Never heard of out until now, I'm honestly not too optimistic though because I think my depression really is because I am a loser. Sorry,,,,,
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Maybe I will look into the SNAP thing. I have no idea what it is. Never heard of out until now, I'm honestly not too optimistic though because I think my depression really is because I am a loser. Sorry,,,,,
I feel the same.
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Sounds like a good idea. Also reminds me of the advice I got from a cleaning forum---you can do anything for 15 minutes. Something needs done? Just start it and do it for 15 minutes.
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I can say that I have not read every post... but I want to add something.

I have alway been fighting anxiety/depression as long as I can remember. Both my parents were sick. My mom was a very severe manic-depressive - snapping would not have worked for her - believe me.

Several years ago my symptoms were really bad. I had no health insurance so we were trying to find the right meds that I could afford. I was proactive in taking care of mental health....but I was so depressed that I could barely move. Finally we found a medication that worked....that got me up and out of the bed. It did not solve my problems but I had the "brain chemistry" to work on them. I also got support and learned about what my brain is/was doing.

Yes, the brain can change - retrain - snapping is a way to help change it....but there are times when medication is needed. I may never go off medication but I am ok with that. I continue to take good care of my mental health and continue to work on changing the brain toward better pathways (neuroplasticity!). I also work with others to help them retrain their brain as well.

Be careful not to shame someone that may need medication. Many told me..just do this or just do that..take a walk your natural endorphins will kick in..and so on..well it did not work and I felt like a falure because of it.

That being said..medication alone is not the answer - but it may save someone's life so they can get their butt out of bed and figure out solutions - maybe some snappin.

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I haven't read anything other than the first post so sorry if this is redundant.

Your theory about decision and stuff feels completely correct to me. I am on autopilot 24/7 and its bad for me but I am having trouble trying to start clapping the way you suggested ( I can't snap my fingers).

Most of the time I have trouble understanding which of my decision were mine or automatic and there are just so many decision made in a day that I feel overwhelmed.
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I haven't read anything other than the first post so sorry if this is redundant.

Your theory about decision and stuff feels completely correct to me. I am on autopilot 24/7 and its bad for me but I am having trouble trying to start clapping the way you suggested ( I can't snap my fingers).

Most of the time I have trouble understanding which of my decision were mine or automatic and there are just so many decision made in a day that I feel overwhelmed.
Hi archer,

Clapping could be a fine substitute. I would actually suggest making a fist with one hand and hitting your chest once as a good substitute that you might try too ( like a gorilla! ). It should be bold and emphatic and kind of fun to do.

When you are starting out, forget about everything except for tiny, tiny, tiny decisions that are of no importance like

SNAP I'm going to put on my shoes
SNAP I'm going to put the left shoe on first
SNAP I'm going to look at that tree for 5 seconds
SNAP I'm going to go pee
SNAP I'm going to have a cup of tea
SNAP I'm going to lift my leg
SNAP I'm going to take a walk
SNAP I'm going to take the stairs
SNAP I'm going to go up the stairs left foot first

Don't worry about doing it for ALL your decisions. Don't worry about forgetting to do it for a while. What's much more important is that you FEEL it when you are deciding and that you find the JOY in these tiny tiny little things you are doing throughout your day. Be creative and make up some fun nonsense things to decide. You will find that even the tiniest things will start to make you feel revitalized and empowered. This will also bring present moment awareness, especially when you decide to use one of your senses at any particular moment. This practice can be like a refuge for you when you are feeling bad.

Keep in touch. I'm really excited for you. The relief you will feel when it really starts to work is something amazing.

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this is a great idea. i am going to try it!!!
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Dear friends,

Here is how I understood and finally escaped from my own depression. It worked so well, that I really think it could help others too. Please respond if this rings true in your experience.

I'm impressed by the many insightful, kind and courageous posts at this site.

Regards, - vital

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How to Understand and then Escape from Depression

September 23, 2014

I have been depressed for most of my life, and, at various times, I have tried most of the recommended treatments for depression. I have tried Saint John’s Wort, exercise, Yoga, talk therapy, SSRIs, thyroid supplements and Cognitive Behavioral Therapy. In my case, I would say that thyroid supplements, exercise and Yoga helped the most and all of them helped at least a little bit. Unfortunately, none of these treatments helped dramatically. Then, however, in late 2013 and early 2014, I finally figured it out. I came to understand what was happening in my own head and why it was causing my own depression and I was able to figure out a way to escape. I don’t mean that I am now successfully managing my depression. I mean it’s gone. I am writing up what I think is going on and what I did to escape because I don’t think that my case is unusual. I think that exactly the same thing will work for many people.

THE ROOT CAUSE OF DEPRESSION

I have no medical training, but the people who do will tell you that depression can be caused by a number of specific problems including vitamin B12 deficiency, hypothyroidism, exposure to traumatic events, heavy metal toxicity and probably more things that I don’t know about. That is why, if you think you have depression, you should see a medical doctor. Depression is known to run in families and, so, it is thought that there is at least a genetic predisposition to depression. Depressives have chronic stress and may have changes in their brain chemistry such as reduced serotonin levels and may accumulate damage to their hippocampus. Depressives have more health problems and cognitive difficulties and are at greater risk of suicide than the general population. That’s what they say in popular books and in Wikipedia, anyway. I believe it, too. However, I also think that the popular and medical understanding of depression has missed an essential point. I believe that there is, after all, a simple, single, psychological root cause of depression.

• Depression is caused by an unconscious withdrawal of participation in a person’s own internal decision making processes.

Note the qualifier unconscious. A depressed person does not choose it or realize it, but they have unconsciously turned away from the internal process that determines what happens in their life. A depressed person continues to live, but they do not continue to decide. What happens in a depressed person’s life is dominantly determined by subconscious thoughts and feelings, which arise, uncontrolled, as reactions to current events and to the thoughts and feelings from the moment before. A depressed person is mainly on autopilot without realizing that they are mainly on autopilot. A depressed person will do what they always do, say what they always say, feel what they always feel and think what they always think. A depressed person “thinks without thinking.” A depressed person thinks without deciding to think.

If this is correct, what happens to someone when they unconsciously give up deciding what they do?

1. CHRONIC STRESS. If a depressed person actually has to do something, and they don’t decide anything, how do they do it? The answer is that they wait until an unconscious process forces them to do it. If a depressed person has to do their taxes, for instance, they will not decide at some moment to do their taxes. Instead, they will wait until the fear of the consequences of not doing their taxes forces them into doing their taxes. Depressed people will procrastinate about almost anything that they do not habitually do. The process of doing almost any necessary task is then necessarily emotional, stressful and unpleasant, because each necessity of life brings with it a rising tide of negative emotions, which only recede when the action is eventually forced. That is why, I believe, depressives almost automatically have chronic stress. As is well known, chronic stress can be quite physically harmful and surely leads to many of the negative consequences of depression. From my point of view, however, chronic stress is only a symptom of the underlying problem.

2. BEING HARMED BY ONES OWN THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS. It has often been observed that a depressed person will suffer from compulsive, self-defeating negative thoughts and feelings. In Richard O’Connor’s excellent book Undoing Depression, for example, negative thoughts are classified as Overgeneralizing, Selective abstraction, Excessive responsibility, Self-reference, Catastrophizing and Dichotomous thinking. Depressives are said to have “depressogenic assumptions” – false beliefs that set one up for depression. As explained by O’Connor, Cognitive Behavioral Therapy aims to collaborate with the patient in changing these habits of faulty thinking. I am not surprised that this sort of treatment can be helpful. However, I see a minor and a major problem. The minor problem is that the negative thoughts and beliefs of depressives are often actually insightful and correct, even if they are also sometimes self-fulfilling. The correctness of ones own thoughts makes it difficult to talk oneself into not thinking them. That is, however, only the minor problem. The major problem is that negative thoughts, beliefs and “depressogenic assumptions” are, once again, only symptoms of the underlying problem. The actual content of these thoughts, beliefs and assumptions is incidental. It does not matter if they are true or if they are false. What matters is that a depressed person has such thoughts and beliefs and feelings without deciding to have such thoughts and beliefs and feelings.

3. THE DOWNWARD SPIRAL. Many of the problems that come from 1 and 2 above make a depressive’s life vulnerable to an unstable downward spiral. Being under stress, for example, makes it hard to think and function, which then leads to disapproval from others or loss of status and, thus, to more stress and so on, repeating. Humans share with other animals the charming instinct to attack someone who shows fear or weakness. Thus, if you are fearful, you may be attacked and will have even more reason to be fearful. For a depressed person this is all too familiar.

Actually, I suspect that many people have “pre-depression”. They are in the state as I have described it, but they will only run into the kind of overt major symptoms that cause people to seek help if a traumatic event triggers the above mentioned downward spiral. For example,

QUIZ: What do the following hypothetical people have in common?

1. A severely depressed person who gets little pleasure out of life and can barely function.
2. A highly functioning compulsive workaholic.
3. A video game addict who plays a video game for 16 hours a day for days at a time.

ANSWER: They all have the same underlying problem. They have all unconsciously let go of the reins and they are all doing what they do without actually deciding to do what they do. They may or may not have the usual overt symptoms of depression, but they are all vulnerable to the downward spiral.

ESCAPE

Depression is often described as a complex multi-faceted syndrome with no single cause and no simple treatment. If I am correct (and I must admit that this is a very big if), then this sort of statement is just wrong. I am claiming that depression does have a single, fairly simple, root cause. The only real difficulty in solving the problem is that the process of slipping into the state where you are not deciding things is an unconscious process. It is hard to stop it by an act of will or out of understanding because you just don’t notice it when it happens. That’s why, I believe, depression is a hard problem to fix with talk therapy. You can have lots of realizations and insights about yourself, but understanding why you have a particular set of dysfunctional thoughts and feelings is not really the point. The point is to not have thoughts and feelings in general in an uncontrolled unconscious manner. At some point, then, it occurred to me that directly training my unconscious might be an interesting try. I am not an expert on depression, but, after all, it is happening in my own head and who knows more about what’s happening in my own head than I do? I will now describe what I did and predict what will happen to you if you follow along.

THE RULES OF SNAP CLUB

This game is simple and fun and easy to do. I am rashly claiming that it will fix your depression. It’s easy enough to try.

The rules are as follows:

1. DO ANYTHING YOU WANT ANYTIME YOU WANT.

I think that you will agree that Rule #1 is easy to follow. For example, if you are feeling terrible and you just want to lie in bed all weekend, go ahead and do that. You are still obeying Rule #1.

2. IF YOU DECIDE TO DO SOMETHING, JUST AT THE MOMENT WHEN YOU DECIDE, SNAP YOUR FINGERS.

A word about Rule #2. I don’t mean that you should decide to do something in the future like “I’m going to exercise more.” I am talking about deciding to do something immediately before you physically do it. For instance, if you are sitting, you might or might not decide to stand up at some point. If you decide to stand up, at the moment when you actually decide to stand up, SNAP YOUR FINGERS and then stand up. Notice that no will power is involved. If you don’t feel like standing up, then don’t. But, by definition, the SNAP will immediately precede an action on your part because I’m telling you to just wait until you’re about to do it and then SNAP at that moment. Suppose, for example, that you are feeling terrible as described above. No matter how terrible you are feeling, you will occasionally turn your head, roll over, go to the bathroom to pee or do something. To play the game, you just have to precede turning your head with a decision to turn your head and SNAP just before you turn your head. You are then obeying Rule #1 and Rule #2.

Based on what happened in my case, I am predicting that the following will also happen to you if you play SNAP CLUB. This all happened to me.

• You will find that there is a big qualitative difference between doing a thing and deciding to do a thing and then doing that same thing.

• You will be shocked to discover that very little of what you do during the day is preceded by any conscious decision at all. In my case, I could go for days or even weeks without deciding anything.

• You will find that the SNAP is quite enjoyable, no matter how tiny a thing it is you are deciding to do. In my case, I snap hundreds of times a day or more. I often pick out nonsense things to do just to have the experience of deciding and then doing them.

• After a while, you will notice a growing sense of power and vitality. Your brain will begin to subconsciously learn that every time you snap your fingers, something happens. You may, for example, see a sink full of dishes to wash and then have the feeling that this is no problem because all you have to do is snap your fingers and it will get done! Although this makes no sense, it appears to work anyway. That’s the subconscious for you.

• After some time, you will find yourself thinking negative thoughts in response to some event in your life. You will notice that you are having unpleasant thoughts and it will occur to you that you might decide not to have these unpleasant thoughts and to precede this decision with a SNAP. You will discover that this works.

• After some time, you will find yourself feeling an unpleasant emotion like fear or anger or resentment in response to some event in your life. It will occur to you that you might decide not to feel these unpleasant emotions and to precede this decision with a SNAP. You will discover that this works.

• After a longer time, an event will happen in your life that used to cause you prolonged trauma and internal suffering. You will realize that you are now reacting differently than you would have before. You will realize that you are recovering from depression.

As ridiculous as it seems, I believe that SNAP CLUB has a profound effect on the root process of depression. I believe that it trains your brain to actively participate and enjoy making decisions, no matter how small the decisions are. Also, as I have described it, each SNAP is for an action that you take at the moment of the SNAP, so it’s possible that there is a beneficial effect in automatically causing present moment awareness as in Buddhist or Zen mindfulness practices. As I write these words, the only evidence I have for my rather strong claims is my own experience. On the plus side, this is very easy and safe to try. In my experience, the positive effects came within the first day and seem to continue to increase even ten months after I started. From the scientific point of view, of course, this all needs to be confirmed.

Did this work for you? If it did, I have to mention that there are three more rules of SNAP CLUB. The third rule of snap club is:

3. YOU MUST TALK ABOUT SNAP CLUB.

The fourth rule of SNAP CLUB is:

4. YOU MUST TALK ABOUT SNAP CLUB.

The fifth rule of SNAP CLUB is:

5. YOU MUST TALK ABOUT SNAP CLUB.

That’s the last rule of SNAP CLUB.

THE MAGIC OF SNAPPING

Some people can’t snap their fingers. That’s OK. I think that any emphatic gesture would actually work well as a substitute in SNAP CLUB. Snapping is not magic in that sense. It might even be that inventing your own emphatic gesture would be even more empowering and an improvement over what I am saying. On the other hand, snapping your fingers is a gesture of impressive potency. It almost automatically brings up positive feelings of power and vitality. SNAPPING seems to say:

I am here.
I am not afraid.
I am in charge.
I am deciding.

as well as occasionally saying: Oh no you didn’t!

I hope that this works for you as it did for me. The advice to “snap out of it” is famously not at all a helpful thing to say to a depressed person. The strange and ironic thing is that this crude advice has a grain of truth to it. You have to, however, take the advice extremely literally, in Forrest Gump style. You have to keep snapping.

WHY DOES DEPRESSION HAPPEN?

If what I am saying here is correct, the main prediction is that SNAP CLUB will dramatically help depression for many depressives, particularly when there is not a known underlying physical problem. In a way, if this works, many people can use SNAP club to get better and maybe nothing else really matters compared to that. Even so, if it does work, it does suggest a question: What causes the depressive transition to passivity in the first place? I do have a guess about that. It is well known that when a person is afraid, there is a “fight or flight” instinct and constantly being in this state causes chronic stress. But another, familiar, and easy to understand survival strategy is to freeze in place and not move a muscle. My guess is that in a depressive, it is the survival instinct to freeze which causes the transition from deciding and vitality to internal subconscious passivity. Depressives, perhaps, are vulnerable to being unconsciously pushed into a “half frozen” passive state where the survival instinct to not do anything keeps them from actively and vitally participating in their own lives.

I have a pdf version of this paper where I end with randomly chosen images of people snapping their fingers from the internet. You may have fun searching for such images. You can see for yourself whether these people are feeling vitality and empowerment or depression and helplessness.
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Wow, this sounds fantastic, but how do you explain the snapping in public. I struggle a lot at work. I disappear in my own head even when I am aware, I still fall into my own rabbit hole. This is my biggest problem, don't know if its depression or cognitive issue, residue from aneurysm. It wouldn't hurt to try tho. like right now, I need to go to bed, but I can't make myself. I will be a wreck in the morning. You took the time to share with me, I shall take the time to try...I do want to be better and I am too young to die.

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