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Grand Poohbah
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I'm SO TIRED all the time. Normally that accompanies a dip in my mood but I'm not feeling down. If anything, the impact my exhaustion has been having on my life has been the worst of my concerns as far as my mood goes. I have only been making it to about 25% of my classes. I can't get up in the morning and I have to nap a lot just to be semi-functional. I have to force myself to work and then I put very little effort into what I'm doing. My mind just isn't "there", if that makes sense. At least once a week, I have to sleep for 20+ hours. No choice. I just wind up hitting a point where I physically can't go any more and my body just shuts down.
It's not the way it used to be. It used to be along the lines of "Life is pointless, I'm hopeless/worthless/a failure so there's no point in getting out of bed." Now, my frame of mind is more that I'm just so tired I can't deal with anything. It feels like I've been working in overdrive and I just can't go any more. Which is stupid, because I haven't WORKED (much less gone into overdrive) in a few weeks. I feel burnt out when I've literally been at rest almost 24/7. Now I'm getting emails from my tutors asking why I've been absent from class so often. I'm REALLY behind on my readings. I only managed to get halfway through the last novel for one of my courses, and I haven't read the other 3 texts I'm supposed to have read by now. I have a presentation to do on Friday and I can't bring myself to start working on it. My laundry hamper is overflowing, I've got dirty dishes piling up, I don't eat anything that can't be prepared in under 5 minutes, it takes me twice as long to get anywhere because I can't move quickly any more ... All I want to do is sleep and sleep and sleep. Can you exhibit symptoms of depression without the lowness in mood? I'm not feeling sad. At the worst, I'd say I'm apathetic. I suppose I'll make an appointment with my counsellor, but I'm not sure what good it'll do me when I can't say that anything is really wrong, except for the things like my schoolwork that I'm letting slide. I have no idea why I do this to myself, why I can't seem to just "suck it up" like everyone else. __________________ Rebecca "If you're going through hell -- keep going." - Winston Churchill It's better to live your own destiny imperfectly than to live an imitation of somebody else's life with perfection. - Elizabeth Gilbert Bring on the wonder, we got it all wrong, we pushed you down deep in our souls, so hang on. Bring on the wonder, bring on the song, I pushed you down deep in my soul for too long. - Susan Enan http://igetupagain.wordpress.com/ |
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My primary personal experience of depression is one of emptiness and mental/physical fatigue without pronounced low mood. I do experience low mood (etc.) occasionally, but usually I'm at sea with no engine or rudder. I'm sorry, Justfloating. What you're experiencing easily could be another side of depression (or anaemia or hypothyroidism or ?). Yes, talk to your counsellor. __________________ My dog mastered the "fetch" command. He would communicate he wanted something, and I would fetch it. |
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I dont think I have ever been truly happy
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Grand Member
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Maybe your body is letting you know you need to take a break...hopefully it wont last so you can handle the end of your school year. Hope it gets better soon. |
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I really do not have any wise words but I wanted you to know that I am here and listening. I think you shuld talk to your counsellor, as many times depression can fall in many different forms. Letting it go may increase those feelings. The lack of rest and sleep is something I can understand and to keep going until you just drop is something all too familiar. There could be other reasons for the exhaustion. I know last year when I had mono, I was so tired all the time and it seemed like even when I would sleep I did not rest or feel as though I had even been in bed. Please take good care of yourself. Maybe you need to take a break from school until you get yourself back to where you can function. I am sure that that is weighing heavy on your mind as well. Please know that we are here for you and we care. Keep posting and letting us know how you are doing and if you go to your doctor or counsellor. Hang in there . Sending gentle hugs and loving thoughts. Always. dps |
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